an then I was likeyoOOOOOOOO

AT0M'S WHINY VENTING TMI BLOG WHY ARE YOU HERE The fun is @ gh0stick.tumblr (ꈍ-ꈍ❀) warnin': heavy bitching, quasi-motivational bullshit good words, possible terrible moodswingy posts and self-put-downs (that I'm trying to fix) ahead also if my typing looks like I'm drunk I'm probably sleepy. or drunk.

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took me fuckin

over a half hour to transform Wreck-Gar >:| I didn't realize until 20 minutes of yanking on bits and almost breaking more shit off him that one of his little swingy pelvic parts was jammed in his crotch and was making the whole transformation impossible. I had to pry it out with a screwdriver ]:U HOW DID THAT EVEN HAPPEN??

anyway he's recovering well from his handlebar reattachment surgery. I thought the break was so bad he'd be missing his right handlebar/handbrake/mirror for good, but it wasn't nearly as troublesome as it looked. Now he's rollin' around with his bros, good as garbage. The bikin' gang is back together ;v;

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get the sick out

you are better than you think you are

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:(

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thingji get in the robot

21. Your favorite asexual quote.

"Sex is interesting, but it’s not totally important.  I mean it’s not even as important (physically) as excretion.  A man can go seventy years without a piece of ass, but he can die in a week without a bowel movement."  ~Charles Bukowski, Notes on a Dirty Old Man

or for one that's an actual reference to asexuality, this thing works i guess

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hurrrr i went out to wander the flea market with the parents today and got really upset from just being around people. Not panicky or detached like I'm used to when being In Public gets to be 2much, more like I got fuming mad any time anyone did anything, said anything, or came near me, and I couldn't stop thinking about how much I hated all of them. :C I went disgustingly full-blown misanthropist.

A mother and 3 noisy children sat at the booth next to us at lunch and I was so frustrated I almost got up to go eat outside, but it was hot out and the air conditioning was nice....

Anyway the huge spike in intolerance surprised and upset me and I feel awful for having felt suck negative feelings about innocent people just going about their business. /)_;(\

agh I wish I had a mental toolkit of some sort to help me squash these thoughts if they ever happen again, cuz wow god no

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happy september fraggers

20. Tell us about your partner(s). If you are not in a relationship, tell us about your best friend(s).

I don't have what i'd consider A LOT OF FRIENDS but the ones I have are so cool (/)ω;(\ like Big-time Great People cool

TheyYOU're all such chill folks and you're an incredible pleasure to be e-around. god I could be having the shittest day and chatting with you guys never fails to make me smile ;__; ilu dudes

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oh my god it keeps happening

the sad thing is I'd be quietly crying happy tears if it was a transformers doodle that was barfing note spam all over my dash

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yes let me just

get over my self-esteem issues, just slap a little glue on that shit

wow god damn I feel so much better about myself THANK YOU FOR THE SUGGESTION!!!

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lets do the thing then

In all my life I've never actively sought out romantic relationship, but I'm not by any means opposed to being in them. ⸍ u ⸌ I have a gd ridiculous time trying to open up to people though, so feeling like I could put myself in a relationship with someone is something that happens over quite a long time.

tbh my extreme distrust in myself to be an emotionally satisfying romantic partner scares me way off of pursuing love, and that in itself is probably what's been keeping me from (excuse the word, but) "dabbling" on romance /)_(\;; I can imagine it causing a huge amount of trouble for me and anyone I manage to get close to. To put it as nerdily and dramatically as I possibly can, I'll quote Evangelion (since it's still fresh in my brainmeats): "One who truly hates himself cannot love, he cannot place his trust in another." 

Ah, when I finally do feel a big thing for someone though boy howdy i'm just as big a fluffy idiot as ever. I can be such a figgin cheeseball that i am compelled to retrain myself *perpetually hides face*

uUUGH tl;dr relationships are wonderful fluffy messes that are great if i can ever nail one down but they are not something I crave (often) or need for my life to feel 'complete'

w o rds

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I'm not ready to say goodbye to my stupid little car /)_(\

but Dad's gonna go and be dumb and buy a guy's truck tomorrow just because he ~wants one~ and because he's impulsive and frivolous and  because 5 other cars to spend money fueling and doing stupid crap to obviously isn't enough. The only way we can make room for another vehicle is to sell one we already have, and my little 240sx is definitely his Least Favorite of the bunch

I mean there's so many reasons why I shouldn't complain; I only use it once or twice a week, he bought it for me in the first place, I don't have a job so can't afford to take care of it myself anyway etc etc... he even said it'd be mine to use and I can take it when I move out on my own. I know it's just the sacrifice he's willing to make to have another toy to tinker with for the time being, but i have no right to object 6_9 It'd be too selfish of me

uuUUGH I'm just gonna miss my cute red idiot car so fucking much it feels like they're giving away a family pet. whatever worse things happen in life than involuntary car trades i guess

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oh no tummy grossness

idk if the sandwiches dad brought home had turned or if the music against my ear made me so woozy or both but wow that was the worst bout of nausea I've had to fend off in a while and I still feel disgusting, ughbghfbn worst.

I won tho I did it, or rather i didn't do it and thus was victorious

much rather it came out the other end blehghjnb

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fack speaking of caterwauling i just stuck my finger in my ear to do a suctiony thing and i think it jostled the fluid pocket, i can hear a little better but now it hurts nNN

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i love the word caterwauling

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wait this first

18. Tell us a funny joke about asexuality.

- Knock Knock. • Who’s there? - Cake. • Omfg yes come on in make yourself at home

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jesus ok finally caught up on comic AND the old dash

time to get productive

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30dac tiem

17. Your favorite “asexual” movie.

fffh every movie has a sexual or romantic subplot

uuhhhh *spins dial* ... Spirited Away

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nnNNUUH, I just looked up what my doctor said is up with my ear and I basically have head juice the consistency of pancake syrup clogging up my middle ear, on the inner side of the eardrum

if i let it sit here for ages it'll soften the bones in my ear and might cause permanent hearing loss i'm freaking the fuck out, thank dog i'mma start treating that shit tomorrow ffjhf