Memento Suicido (Burning a bad story before it starts)
I am at peace with the darkness.
I've come a long way.
From peace and prayers.
Anger,ruin and rage.
I no longer seek answers.
For truths I'll not beg.
The gods aren't listening.
Life's purpose remains vague.
I feel uncomfortable here.
And only Death ends my lease.
On this awful humanity.
Filled with you beasts.
We take and we give.
To kill and conquer.
But all ways are for naught.
When we kneel at her alter.
These days grow too long.
As my madness does chase.
My heart seems broken.
Unable to race.
Love doesn't know me.
I'm not her mate.
I don't feel a thing.
As I lay and wait.
Twenty-Seven years.
No hope for Thirty.
My patience grew thin.
This poem grows wordy.
I am at peace with the darkness.
I've come a long way.
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Allow me to explain myself here:
This IS exactly what it looks like a Suicide note.
NO. not in the slightest.
I’ve spent the better half of my years casually suicidal and I find a great deal of self expression comes from this it’s been a boon to my ramblings for years.
HOWEVER these thoughts stem from a long invasive root that leaves me with a lack of definition and purpose. I find no joy or point in life I simply exist and I only keep on for others around me a background role a support character if you will. I am wholeheartedly “over” life.
I tell you this to deter what will follow unleashing this to the web.
A tide of strangers thinking I’ve given in to my depression,a drove of sympathetics thinking I need to talk it out.This was never a cry for help this is more akin to my two weeks notice.....
One day I’m gonna pack it in and that folks is MY CHOICE and MY BIRTHRIGHT.
Don’t be anything but happy REJOICE FRIENDS AND FAMILY! I’m still here let’s party before the sun comes up.
izzy806
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