spiritual doubt is such a weird thing for me cause it's like...okay, so what? I truly couldn't care less about what's 'real' in this context - it doesn't matter to me, and it doesn't factor into my consideration at all.
I do have empathy for others who struggle with doubt (and I used to as well, don't get me wrong!) but I think more of you need to let go of the search for evidence and certainty. if praying or spellwork or divination helps you, if it brings you comfort, if it's enjoyable and feels good, just do it? you don't need to justify it any further than 'I like it, and I want to'.
and if you get something out of it, even if it's as simple as 'I had fun for half an hour' then it's beneficial! and the benefits very much are real, I'll tell you that for free.
