Trying To Get By @ghostlyophelia - Tumblr Blog

I'm not doing well.

Being locked in is bringing out a dark cloud I feel will never go away .

Everything I loved is gone.

My husband took on another partner and it is tearing me apart as we never came to an agreement as a married couple to be open.

My therapist is worried I will carry through with it but as hospitals are not safe it makes things difficult.

I have been so disassociated I cant tell which reality I am in.

I want to die.

I am so scared for how broken it would leave my cat when I die. She already howls at me when I get back from weekend long vacations. My husband has said if he comes home without me she looks right past him for me and will walk off if I am not there.

She would spend the rest of her life looking for me.

I don't know how to tell my mum I am sorry and I love her. I mean I know that irish families have lots of kids because one or two usually died so she has spare.

Fuck

#mental health #mentally unstable #anxiety #selfdestruct #disassociation

Fuck. Disassociative and suicidal. A combination that fuck I really do not k know how to handle

It's nice to find you literally mean shit to anyone. Happy fucking birthday. Spend it alone. Marriage is a fucking sham

deeplybrokeninside

ghostlyophelia

I was going to kill myself before the weekend. Then my husband had a bad day so I spent the weekend taking care of him. Now I'm scared he is going to lose his job. And I still wish I was dead.

Doing bad. Dangerous

I am so tired. I dont want to let people down and be a disappointment. Things with head feel hopeless. Its been years and we still cant get it to behave and its affecting my day to day life. I wish I didn't have the responsibilities and obsessive need to be perfect. I want to check out

#suicidal #depressive #selfharm #dissasociation #epilepsylife

I am so tired. I dont want to let people down and be a disappointment. Things with head feel hopeless. Its been years and we still cant get it to behave and its affecting my day to day life. I wish I didn't have the responsibilities and obsessive need to be perfect. I want to check out

I wish I was dead and I do not feel safe

#suicidal #madgirl #opheliac #bipolar

wolg-fang

Me after two glasses of wine: WHOM wants to see me NAKED

I wish I was dead

Fuck I'm exhausted. I am absolute rubbish at holding it together. Like, fuck what the hell.

#spoonie #suicidal #ptsd #bipolar #27 #depression

dollykills-deactivated20240929

Spoiled rotten

ghostlyophelia

That is so cute!!!!!! Where did you get that one!

buchichu

Time takes a cigarette, puts it in your mouth You pull on your finger, then another finger, then your cigarette The wall-to-wall is calling, it lingers, then you forget Oh, you’re a rock ‘n’ roll suicide.

—David Bowie: Rock ‘N’ Roll Suicide