I'm Trying Too

"You fall in love and it's like you go crazy" ~ Vivien Harmon

[ghostxmother]

I wanted to come on to say that I still love all my partners on here and I still love my Vivien with my whole heart and being but things are insane right for me and a lot of the a.hs fandom  IN THE TAGS ( non of you on my dash from what I seen by looking through tonight bless ) is going ape shit rn over some leaked things and it’s rather annoying. I hope one day that I can bring Vivien back. I hate to not write her because I love her so much. Since the m.urder h.ouse episode I’ve been so down about how OOC she was. Which I feel bad for because Connie is amazing, but I just wish things would have been different. I wish she would have tried with Mi.cheal. Anyways. Came to say that I love you all and really hope I can be back on here to right one day <3 

[ghostxmother]

Hello my lovlies. I just wanted to pop on her and say I miss you all and Viv does too. Work and home have been bad. I’m sleep the majority of the time I don’t work and my health hasn’t been the best either. My mindset isn’t the greatest at the moment to write Viv and Michael ( on @chaosxwon ). I miss each thread and paring we have. I’m hoping to get back to it soon. I love this community so much and wanted to let you guys know I’m still around and I still see your post and read your threads. I just need time. ❤️

[kylorenema]

Michael: *busts down door of Murder House* MOM!!!!

Vivien: What the fuck do you want, you piece of shit.

Michael: You dropped this. *hands Vivien back her characterization from Season 1*

Vivien: Thank you, sweetheart.

[recklessbarbieklaus]

friendly reminder that even if i take ages to reply, i still want to roleplay with you

[transcendentalistotter]

[pillsandsorrow-deactivated20181]

@ghostxmother literally you and dad.

[ghostxmother]

Ben : Are we speaking again?????????? 

Vivien : *sings the entirety of No Srubs with Madison and Behold as her back up* 

[ghostxmother]

The fact that Ben probably looked at Michael and saw so much of Vivien in his sad eyes and features kind of fucking breaks my heart tho

[ghostxmother]

   “Hello, Mrs. Montgomery.” Vivien smiled. “Would you like some tea? Wine maybe?” 

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[ghostxmother]

   Vivien couldn’t help but chuckle as she watched the male struggle with his child. He was a new dad she could tell. He wasn’t bad at it, but she could see that he doubted himself. She clearly her throat. 

   “Make a shushing sound and rock him. It reminds them of the womb.” She said with a smile. “The womb is where they felt the safest. It calms them. You can actually get little teddy bears that make womb sound effects for the crib.” She explains. 

   “Sorry. I don’t mean to intrude, just trying to lend a hand. You looked like you were struggling.” 

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[ghostxmother]

Ben : Are we speaking again?????????? 

Vivien : *sings the entirety of No Srubs with Madison and Behold as her back up* 

[cappingtvshows]

[ghostxmother]

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   The women turned as she heard footsteps. “Tate.” She didn’t know where he was headed but she knew it wasn’t to speak to her, but she would stop him anyways. “Hey.” She gently set Jeffrey down in his crib and walked out of the room into the hall. 

    “Look.” She sighed crossing her arms over her chest. It was in that moment, that she looked him in the eyes for the first time since their first encounter. “I’m not going saying that I forgive you for what you did to me. Because I don’t know if I ever can.” She started. The woman took a deep breath. 

   “But. Thank you. If you hadn’t been there to put out that fire. I would gone. My family would be without me, Jeffrey wouldn’t have me.” She said with a shrug. “You didn’t have to do that. I don’t care why you do it. If it was for me, or Violet. I don’t care. I’m just grateful.” She nodded. 

[yourghostcat]

ahs: apocalypse episode 6; return to murder house

[ghostxmother]

Under the cut is my canon divergence with my Vivien regarding ep 6  

Vivien never HATED Michael. He was her son. 

She wasn’t speaking to Ben because of the things that he did in the past and her realizing that their marriage couldn’t work even in the after life. She was also upset that he began to seem to favor Michael over Jeffrey. 

She tried to reach out to Michael and over time the realization and fear of what he was began to set in. Which was heart breaking 

Her trying to kill him was her guilt for not being able to help him. Her guilt for not being able to be a good mother and being able to help him and teach him. To this day she honestly doesn’t know if she could have actually gone through with it. 

Tate, her feelings about Tate are still what they’ve always been. He makes her uncomfortable. She doesn’t know if she can forgive him. BUT she is very grateful to him, for what he did in saving her.  

She and Michael had a falling out, just like he did with the other. 

Vivien went out of her way to keep Michael away from Jeffrey, not really knowing what would happen if Michael interacted with his brother. 

More to come later on

[ghostxmother]

Hello. I’m sorry I’ve been so off the last few days. Work has been hell honestly and the week was terrible. My mood hasn’t been good, but I’m feeling better. I’m pulling back my hiatus and I’m gonna try to get some replies done on here. 

[ghostxmother]

{ Michael }

Michael, @ghostxmother wants to speak to you.

“.. Am I actually seeing you? Here?” He paused, almost confused. “I’m not dreaming, right? Last time I dreamt about you, someone took you away from me.”

That was the truth. His dreams of his mother made him not feel so unloved because she was taken away from him. He’d cry, beg for her to stay and not an ounce of it would be heard.

“Please tell me this is real. Despite.. The circumstances for which I have caused for you to stay at that house.”

    “It’s real.” The woman nodded. “Very much so.” She kept her distance. He wasn’t the little baby she’s seen Ben carrying around the house years ago. He was much older. “Constance was wrong to just leave you.” She tells him after a short silence. 

    “I would have tried to get you help. The help that you need. I wouldn’t have just given up. I mean for God sake she got Tate help even after it was too late.” Vivien said crossing her arms. 

    “You were a baby, a new born. My death, that was unintentional I’m sure.” Vivien looked at Michael. “You need help, Michael. There is something inside you that’s eating away at the good that is in there.”  

[1liv]