It's me, I'm back again. Been a while I know. Just trying to deal with some shit. You have not left me though. Another death to deal with. I seriously feel like I was living my best life when I was strung out on heroin. At least I didn't have to deal with so many feelings. I was a functioning addict. Why did I quit? I honestly don't know. My brothers have both committed suicide. (They may have smarter than me) My husband died of cancer of the liver. My best boy friend just passed away, possibly from COVID, not sure yet. The holidays really sucked. So thanks for that!