[glofang]

November 29, 2023

[gimpsuitjesus]

i’m mentally sound

[forafricans]

“My mother in Khartoum, Sudan. Circa 1980s.”— Muhammad Modibo Shareef

[demiiwhiffin]

experiencing thought. not a fan

[sunshine-avalanche]

Do you think this is a pretty sight? This is the reality of having anorexia for 12+ years. The reality of what eating disorders can do to your body.

When I was in high school and then in college getting my bachelors degree, I spent more time in hospitals and treatment centers than I did out of them.

And then I found out

My organs failed. Permanently.

Last year, I needed major surgery that took about 4 HOURS, and after that I was admitted to the hospital for a week on heavy pain medications, being wheeled around because I couldn’t walk.

I had tubes everywhere.

I had to medically withdraw from graduate school because I had to spend that time in doctors offices, infusion centers for IVs, in the ER, or admitted into the hospital.

Now I have a 6 inch scar across my abdomen and will be on medications for the rest of my life to help my heart and stomach function enough to keep me alive.

I’ve nearly died multiple times from the ED, but I had never believed that my organs could shut down and leave me to deal with that reality for the rest of my life.

That is not a way anyone should have to live life.

This is what an eating disorder looks like. Not the “thinspo” everyone sees on the Internet. This is what you don’t see behind those pictures and it’s not pretty.

[fvckyourfate]

WTF HOW DOES THIS ONLY HAVE 1,000 NOTES?? SIGNAL BOOST PLS

[pokerecovery]

I’m sorry this is not what my blog should look like, but it’s not what a person’s life should look like either.

[jade-cham]

Stay safe babes please. You don’t want this. Trust me.

[a-night-like--this]

ℜ𝔬𝔟𝔢𝔯𝔱 "Punisher" 𝔖𝔪𝔦𝔱𝔥, 2002

[freelancedumbass]

[patricide1885]

The English royal family is so fucking ugly no wonder everyone was obsessed with Diana

[gaycommunist]

mama who bore me

part 1

gillian flynn “sharp objects” // “hereditary” (2018) // “flowers in the attic” (2014) // mythological beauty “big thief” // alex michaelides // @western-fence-lizard // https://www.bethanywebster.com/blog/mother-wound-healing/ // salma deera “letters from medea” // “the witch” (2015) // @filmnoirsbian // milan kundera

[flowerais-deactivated20211031]

when you’re lonely:

hug something soft. hold it close to your body so it’s warm.

lie down somewhere. learn to love the silence. learn to appreciate stillness.

place your hands on the area that aches. let the warmth of your hands soothe it.

check up on someone else. despite the fears of coming across as embarrassing, unwanted, or whatever other lies your mind tells you. be the friend you need.

create escapes that leave you feeling less empty. music, nature, literature, art, whatever you feel like. you’re alone so you’re free to choose.

[mrystudy]

the only way to make living bearable is to romanticize it I guess

[kissedbythevoid]

[creepish]

male hysteria summer 

[whiteflame109v2]

Just a reminder:

Feeling invalid and like you’re faking your disorder is PART OF YOUR DISORDER

Wanting to starve yourself but not actually being able to do it is PART OF YOUR DISORDER

Recovery does NOT come easily

Constant binging is PART OF YOUR DISORDER

Being able to eat normally without guilt for periods of time is PART OF YOUR DISORDER

Being able to restrict easily one day and not the other is PART OF YOUR DISORDER

Please treat your minds nicely

[txtcals]

just a reminder

[disgustinggf]

i'm on this app only to be sexy and insane, do not expect me to actually make any sense

[midnightmurdershow]

Planet Earth II (2016) Episode 05 “Grasslands” Directed by Chadden Hunter

[myspacebabe2007-deactivated2021]

i dont think I really have enemies or haters only people who are confused by me