Invisible

I dream to inspire.

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I put myself in this situation again.

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Year-ender kilig. AM post in our cluster opened. Though I considered and decided to maximize my current role, it still gratifying to randomly hear from other functions in Japan that they would recommend me.

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Papa’s comforting words 🥺❤️

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Gagiii! Bakit merong mahihirap na life decisions 😭

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Binigay ni Lord 🥹💗

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Mentally challenging week because i was losing hope on something i’m desperately praying for. But i guess God has His way (sometimes He use other people as instruments) of reminding us to be patient because He is in control.

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Went straight to her pwesto when i got home 🥺

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I’ve been thinking of exploring outside SCJ so i ask for guidance if this is the best decision for now.

Then last friday, during our lunch out, my teammate suddenly shared one of her take aways from Ms. Ann.

Non verbatim

Don’t leave your current company yet if you don’t feel that you maximized your growth already.

Lord, ito na po ba ang final answer?

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Today is Maia’s schedule sa vet. I asked my brother to put her collar and leash on her while I am preparing her vet record. Brother tried to lead her towards the gate but Maia refused and was pulling back her leash. She just didn’t want to leave without me. I love being this dog’s hooman!

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Sakit ng new song ng Ben&Ben!!

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Ano kaya satisfactory rating ng mga voters ni BBM sa kanya? Nakikita na kaya nila na wala talaga syang pakialam sa mga Pilipino?

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I usually spend my sunday staying at home, reserving my energy for monday. Because as an introvert with low social energy, it is a must. Today, it was different. I met up with SCJ workmates in Lipa and went to my friends’ game until 10PM. Sa sobrang unusual, I feel like it should be celebrated char haha. Tapos I’m still recharged for Monday pa!

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Nominated as planner of the year. Didn’t get the award but i am really happy and kilig just to be a nominee. FY22, you were challenging but worth it. Thank you Lord again for this small win ✨

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I still feel kilig every time I see pink ribbons or any leni-kiko campaign paraphernalia along the streets. Oh the days when we’re very hopeful.

Badly want to go back to that era so I just scroll through my gallery and rosas still bring that kind of comfort.

I think that “pagtindig” is the most purposeful thing I did in my existence. ✨plot twist cutie✨

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It’s sad that sometimes friends become insensitive. I understand that it’s normal to joke around and tease each other. But I guess, there’s a line especially when it’s about one’s insecurities. It’s just not helpful for people who are trying to improve themselves and build their confidence yet these comments are just unbearable on some days.

Don’t get me wrong, I know how to take constructive criticisms, but as much as I appreciate the concern, minsan di na talaga sya constructive.

I love my friends, still. I just need to post so I can finally shake it off.

Sorry pangit ko kabonding. Baka nga magkakaroon lang ako :)

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If you already exceeded their expectations previously, how will you exceed that new level of expectation?

Felt pressured entering FY22 because of the good rating i received in FY21. I was thinking how will I be able to at least have the same rating in FY22 considering there was no plan of portfolio transitions. Though I backfilled for local Japan items during the last quarter, it still didn’t feel enough to make me think that I performed better this year than the last.

But last Friday, i got this message. Honestly, my reaction was “totoo ba?” I thought my performance was just the bare minimum because most of the time this year, I am just too tired (or tamad) to function. But maybe there are things which are normally part of our jobs and we’re just doing what is needed, yet people see that we’re making a little effort in doing it exceptionally. Perhaps if people think that way, we need to be a little kind to ourselves and acknowledge the small things and wins.

We’re growing 🫶🏼