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Treasure. 24. South This serves as my online diary. This is where I write about what I think and what I feel.

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It hurts like hell.

Why do you have to hurt me like that?

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BGC skyline.

📸 by 🙋🏻‍♀️

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Don't you just love hand written love letters? How they choose the right paper that you would surely love, the pen to use and the lovely words to write?

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A person so funny and yet so sure of what he is capable of. Ughh! You’re too good to be true. If only I can love you but no I can’t and I know you won’t let me. So please tell me, how can I unlove you?

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I wish I had a time machine. To go back in time, to see how the world was so beautiful once. People lived freely, no tax, no groceries, no bills, no social status. Beautiful people who didn’t need any cosmetics, best suit and the jewelries. No buildings to see, no honking of cars to hear, no polluted air to breath. Just beautiful stars that lit up the evening sky. And just clean, peaceful and bright world.

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College .

Summer before entering college, I was pretty nervous of what will happen in my college life. Will I have new friends, not just friends but real ones? Will I fail some subjects? Will I have terror professors? Can I do it? Those were my questions.

And in my four years in college, my questions were answered. I had friends, great friends, some were real, some I thought were true but wasn’t, some betrayed me and some left me. Did I fail any subjects? None actually, yes none and I’m very proud of it. I had no withdrawal failures and drops just subjects that I wasn’t able to take, see? If you love what you do, it’ll be easier to pass. Did I encounter a terror professor? Not that I can think of, just professors who isn’t good at what they teach and that’s as much as horrible as a terror one.

Well, yep! I did it all. I became an officer of two major organizations in school. Entered school competitions, been a Dean’s Lister, found love, friends and had my internship in a really good and well-known company

I was able to do it and I know you also can. Just trust yourself and everything will follow.

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This breaks my heart, I know exactly how she feels. I lost my dad when I was only fifteen. Not as sudden as her dad did, but almost the same. I was praying every day to God, begging Him not to take away my dad. But He did, and it really tore me apart. My dad was gone all of a sudden, haven’t even told him how much I love him nor how I was so thankful that he was my dad. Every single day after he died, I kept on asking God why, why us, why my dad. I kept on crying, I couldn’t eat nor smile anymore. He wasn’t able to see me graduate high school, wasn’t there when I turned 18, haven’t seen me happy with my boyfriend, to see me graduate college and to walk me in the aisle when I get marry someday. Days and years had past the wound healed. I understand why He did it, I know God has His plans. I trust Him and I know my dad’s happy now.

And so, Meadow I know you can get through this. It may hurt, really hurt now. Just cry it out, talk to your family it would really help. I know one day you’ll know the reason why God took him away from you. One day the hurt will be gone. Just trust God.

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Osaka, Japan

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Osaka + Kyoto Food

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Osaka + Kyoto 📸 by 🙋🏻‍♀️

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Seoul Food 📸 by 🙋🏻‍♀️

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2018 Baguio 📸 by 🙋🏻‍♀️

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My existence makes me wonder.

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I didn’t see it comin’, you of all people who I thought wouldn’t dare to hurt me. Caused me so much pain - pain that I couldn’t bear.

And now, just thinking about you gives me anxiety, I can’t breathe. And I can’t even have a good night sleep anymore. Why did you have to do it? How could you?

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I’m glad I did those things - may it had been good or bad. If it weren’t for them, I won’t be the person I am today.

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I’d love to travel the world. To see places where I’d only see at magazines. To taste new dishes that the city has to offer. To meet people with different beliefs, race and religion. To discover how little I am in this beautiful yet crazy world we live in.

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My 22 year old self would be proud of us. We’ve seen not a lot but a hand full of countries. We’ve tasted similar yet foreign dishes. We’ve met some of the most amazing people in the world. Seen how people could be so good and friendly to people they just met. And we learned that no language barrier could keep us from discovering this amazing world of ours.

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It’s been four years since I finished my degree, and yet here I am - jobless and clueless.

When I was about 13, I imagined myself being successful at the age of 25. And I only have 6 months before I turn 25! Oh my! Only 6 months?! I’m broke, kinda depressed and I don’t know what to do with my life. I’m at the point of my life where I have no direction.

Ugh, I just don’t know what to do.