Art and Random Shizz

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The struggle

I have come to realize that I have been trying, my entire life, to control things and situations that are completely beyond my control, that I have tried in vain to fix things for which I do not have the tools to repair nor the experience to fix. I need to retrain myself to let go of this idea that I can fix anything, that I can control everything in my life. I cannot fix myself alone, I cannot repair people, I cannot make things as I wish they were. I must keep rolling with every punch, and pray and hope that this path will lead me somewhere I want to go. I am truly sorry, and have a contrite heart, for all the damage I have done, to those I have wronged, and to the many and the close who I have hurt because of my extreme wish to control every feeling, every situation, and every thing in my life, as well as the only coping skills I have had in this life to deal with discomfort and pain, which is namely, to numb myself through external means, to lash out in anger and frustration at those closest and most dear to me, and to generally explode or implode and cause those around me to feel the terrible things I was feeling. I am sorry. I know that doesn't fix a broken plate, I love you all.

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GLOW BLOG

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my kink is a happy n fulfilling relationship

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Read @earlgreytea68 she does happy and fulfilling relationships like nobodies business.

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It’s my kink. :-)

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Also my biggest kink

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Fuck this

That feeling when your girl tells you you're part of an experiment to see how long she can go with a thing to make her self esteem get higher, all the while it's making you feel more unwanted and shitty....

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I can’t do this tonight. I’m getting really tired of the arguments, the fights, the stress, the feeling like I’m not good enough, or that I don’t know what I’m doing and can’t do anything right.

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No-one

No one has ever loved me like she did.  That is all.

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Apparently

I can do nothing right, and not appease those I love. It was told to me this evening that the reason I attract crazy is that I don't believe I deserve stabile.

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What am I even worth?

Nothing.  Not a damn thing.  What have I accomplished?  What mark have I ever left?  What am I worth, when I have to live with hippies to be able to make rent, my father helps with my student loans, the company who employs me (where I am a department director) doesn’t need me daily, my fiancee left me,  I have no long-term friends, the list goes on and on.   What it comes down to is that I have no worth to anyone, or anything.

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I can’t keep doing this to myself.  Falling for someone is always a bad idea.

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Everyone who reblogs this will get the title of a book to read based on their bio/posts.

Everyone. I mean it.

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THIS IS THE BEST POST

I HAVE EVER SEEN

EVER

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they really do mean everyone

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I just wish I was important to someone

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Random thought

Ok, this is for one person in particular. If you're not sure if it's you, it probably isn't.

It's not me you love, not me you want. If I truly was IT for you, you would love me and want me for all that I am, and for who, how, and what I am, regardless.

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If you identify as male, then you are a God, a King, a Guardian, a Knight, a Hero, a powerful being radiating light and hope. You are capable of so much and seize the day with your iron fist. You are Strong.

If you identify as female, then you are a Goddess, a Queen, a Protector, a Valkyrie, a Heroine, an angel sent from the heavens to deliver justice. You are loving and compassionate and can get through the toughest of ordeals. You are Strong.

If you don’t identify as either gender or as no gender or otherwise, then you are the shining stars, you are the rolling oceans, you are the fury of the winds, you are the whispers of the forests, you are far more than anything anyone has ever seen. You possess insight that no other has and can achieve anything, yet you still remain grounded to your core values. You are strong.

Positivity isn’t exclusive to one group of people. Positivity is for everyone. Please cheer up and know that everyone is capable of so much in life! Don’t let anyone tell you otherwise that you are less than who you really are.

Remember, you are Strong.

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Thank you for this.

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driving past your old elementary school like

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I don’t actually remember elementary school.