mae there be love

fria

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nestbautrieb

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with the things you could do you won't but you might (#4) - 4/3/25

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(#2) bad doggy - 3/3/25

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ich vermisse dich

aber du dich noch viel mehr

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tender hearted syndrome

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“I need to stop fantasizing about running away to some other life, and start figuring out the one I have.”

— Holly Black

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they say money can't buy you happiness but money can buy you a heated blanket and since it's somehow STILL winter at heart this sounds like the most essential thing to own for hot girl winter (smoke, make some tea and curl up in my lovely lovely HEATED bed)

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even if i don't know what will happen to us i don't wanna borrow grief from the future. i just want to wish you a goodnight and tell you that i love you.

i love you,

probably always will

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one year ago we lost everthing we had even gave up whole galaxies for us it was beautiful, so beautiful to be at home we loved so much and held us tight to just have our own little, not so little world now we traded what we had oh - i don't even know what for

i hope you remember how we used to be believe i hope you remember how to love like we did wherever you might go may you find a home within yourself i miss you so much

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i apologize to myself and i apologize to all of you

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просто близость

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where did your heart go

where will you hide it

while still hearing your heartbeat

i'm drowning inside you to find it

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sometimes i want to tell my younger self that she doesn't even know what being depressed "actually" is like. i know that she was already suffering but she was still convinced it can't get worse then BOOM - it does.

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wow, well, this is going to be my personality for the next 4 weeks

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this weird obsession with depression, like finding comfort in being buried alive

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i think i just needed someone to acknowledge my existence, someone to confirm that i'm real - that i'm not only a breathing corpse which can be buried easily without anyone noticing, that i'm in fact someone to a certain person. not someone as in someone you see walking down the street, someone you've met some years ago but haven't talked to since, someone's friend, someone's daughter, someones someone. but someone as in acknowledging this whole concept that i call my self. this includes the million little pieces i've collected throughout my entire life, pieces i didn't even know existed, pieces that belong to me that never had the chance to make it to the surface so i could meet them and love them and give them the right to exist. given this right, these pieces no longer feel like a burden, like broken jars you simply can't get rid of because they once seemed beautiful to you. i'm no longer feeling ashamed of keeping these broken jars even though objectively there's no need for cluttering your basement with seemingly useless things. i'm starting to hold each and every one of these pieces dear. for the first time in my life i feel alive. i just needed someone to confirm that i'm real. i am real.