back from the dead to expose a predator: brain-blazer
AKA: 7-layer-love / scarecrow-ripper / a-blue-blossom
as you may have heard, there’s a 27 year old roleplayer in the Danger Days community trying to get minors into sexual rp scenarios.
the worst part is that he’s been at it for years.
(TW: CSA)
back in March 2014, I had the misfortune of ending up in roleplays with this man. I was 17 at the time. I had been trying to get this rp account rolling and noticed for a good while before I ended up in his circle. by the time I’d met him, I’d already moved my rp activity to my new non-sideblog.
nothing major happened until he got me and another underage blogger alone.
I used to use chatzy for chat log style roleplay and would often pop the link to my current room on my blog. not a big deal, most people that came to rp were super chill and kept it pretty PG-13.
eventually, he started showing up in my rooms pretty often.
I didn’t think much of it. I mean, we had already interacted a little bit on tumblr so I figured it was alright, and it actually started out fine. normal killjoy stuff like trading and hashing out details for his character to run ads on my character’s radio station. the usual, y’know?
at some point, he wanted to get in a skype call with me and someone i used to rp with frequently (also underage). nothing weird or suspicious had happened yet, so we said sure. the entire time, he sat on camera with his shirt off. he kept asking if the two of us wanted to do a threesome scenario with him, trying to coerce us. after repeated “no”s from both of us, my friend hung up and i was left alone in call with him.
I have horrible anxiety. I’m a people pleaser because of past trauma. I would rather die than risk the potential of seeming rude. so I was stuck in call on camera with this 21 year old man who had just asked two teenagers to pretend to have sex with him.
I felt so much dread and shame and anxiety in that moment.
I was seventeen and desperate for friends. he was so integrated into the killjoy rp scene that I felt too afraid to tell anyone, let alone block him. I was sure that I’d be kicked out and ignored if I did.
I was terrified.
so after what felt like hours (but was only about 90 minutes), I turned off my internet to fake a disconnection. it honestly seemed like my only option. I remember googling stuff like “will someone know if I block them on Skype?” I cut my losses, deleted my skype account, and came up with an excuse if he asked.
I don’t remember if he did, but he kept coming to my chatzy rooms. I didn’t want to delete my roleplay blog that I’d put so much effort into, and I couldn’t unfollow or block him. so I just kept tolerating him. both of us did.
and when he came in, it would always turn into trying to get my character and my friend’s character to kiss or make out or touch each other, despite our repeated soft refusals. it felt hopeless trying to avoid him, so both of us just abandoned our blogs and called it quits.
I’m so sorry I never said anything.
I’m absolutely heartbroken to find out that he’s still out here, hurting kids six years later. it makes me absolutely livid that he’s trying to cover his ass with the disclaimer in his descriptions that he “won’t rp smut with minors.”
too fucking late, asshole.
I wish I had come forward sooner. I wish he hadn’t used his position of power over me to intimidate me into being quiet. I know some of that comes from my own trauma, but it’s not excusable. It just made me an easy target for him.
to anyone he’s hurt: get screenshots. save your receipts. I wish I had my own, but because I deleted my skype account 6 years ago and chatzy rooms go down after 30 days of inactivity, I have nothing.
despite that, I’m going to try my best from my end to make sure this groomer is brought to justice.
I hope that maybe this post will help.
remember that doctors, therapists, and school counselors are mandated reporters. if there’s a case of any kind of abuse that involves a minor, they are required to get the proper authorities involved.
to file a report yourself, go to the National Center for Exploited and Missing Children’s cybertip page.
