Gina

Matt Sturniolo obsessed

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❣︎Hi Gina here,❣︎

Welcome to my blog.꧂

(Not for minors)

Mostly Sturniolo posts (open for suggestions)

𖤐my masterlist:

Matt Sturniolo ❥

What you do to me *

Wet dream *

Meet me at our spot

Embarrassed

The new boy series 1 2 3 4

More to come…

Chris Sturniolo ꨄ

Panicking

Our song pt 1

Our song pt 2*

Who did you touch?*

More to come…

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Omg omg

I just got Tumblr and ur the first sturn story I'll be reading!

IM OBSESSED WITH MATT TOOOO

Okay I’m just seeing this but OMGGG!!! I feel so honored that you chose one of my stories ily x

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The new boy

Pt 4

𝐒𝐮𝐦𝐦𝐚𝐫𝐲✵ 𝐘𝐨𝐮 𝐧𝐞𝐯𝐞𝐫 𝐥𝐢𝐤𝐞𝐝 𝐚𝐧𝐲𝐨𝐧𝐞 𝐛𝐞𝐟𝐨𝐫𝐞, 𝐧𝐞𝐯𝐞𝐫 𝐤𝐢𝐬𝐬𝐞𝐝, 𝐧𝐞𝐯𝐞𝐫 𝐝𝐢𝐝 𝐚𝐧𝐲𝐭𝐡𝐢𝐧𝐠. 𝐓𝐡𝐫𝐞𝐞 𝐧𝐞𝐰 𝐛𝐨𝐲𝐬 𝐦𝐨𝐯𝐞 𝐭𝐨 𝐲𝐨𝐮𝐫 𝐭𝐨𝐰𝐧 𝐚𝐧𝐝 𝐨𝐧𝐞 𝐨𝐟 𝐭𝐡𝐞𝐦 𝐬𝐞𝐞𝐦𝐬 𝐭𝐨 𝐜𝐚𝐭𝐜𝐡 𝐲𝐨𝐮𝐫 𝐚𝐭𝐭𝐞𝐧𝐭𝐢𝐨𝐧. 𝐖𝐡𝐚𝐭 𝐰𝐢𝐥𝐥 𝐡𝐚𝐩𝐩𝐞𝐧?

𝐖𝐚𝐫𝐧𝐢𝐧𝐠𝐬⁂

Matt x reader

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Y/n’s pov

I woke up at Sunday with the sun beaming in my face. I opened my eyes and immediately thought of last night. I kissed someone last night. No not just someone. Matt mf Sturniolo. I smiled and grabbed my phone.

*one notification from instagram*

I clicked on it and hoped it was from a certain someone.

It wasn’t.

*josh send you and reel*

Oh. No notification from Matt? I was kinda disappointed and anxiety immediately flood my mind. Was it a bad kiss? He didn’t like it? He didn’t like me? Oh no he thought I was weird. I never kissed anyone before did he notice it?

I tried to set those thoughts aside and clicked on the notification from Josh. It was a cat walking from side to side with the text: ‘my friends being drunk and me filming them’. It put a smile to my face and I reacted.

To Josh

You filming Aiden when he’s drunk😂😂

*Josh reacted ❤️ to your message*

I put my phone aside and got out of bed. I felt like going to the beach today so I texted my friends.

To shitheads 💩🤞🏼

Wanna go to the beach today?

From Kira

Yes ofc bbg

From Josh

I’m up

From Aiden

Yeah sure

To shitheads 💩🤞🏼

Okay today I’m driving, picking y’all up in 20

*everyone reacted 👍🏼 to your message*

-

We arrive at the beach at 2:17pm. “Ooh I’m getting dips on this spot!” Josh yells. “Nooo I wanted to sit there.” I say. “Okay you can sit there.” Josh says. I give him a hug. “Thankyou.”

Okay I’m gonna go in, who’s coming?” Kira asks. “Me of course.” I exclaim. “We’re gonna stay back and drink some beers.” Aiden says. “Okay fine alcoholics.” Kira says.

Me and Kira walk to the sea. “So about that kiss.” I say. Kira immediately smiles. “What about it?” “I would rather the boys not knowing it yet.” I exclaim. “Of course, may I ask why?” She asks. “Just I don’t want them to taunt me about it.” I explain. “Oh okay, yeah no your secret is safe with me.” Kira says.

We get into the water and I immediately love it. I’ve always imagined myself having a house near the ocean in the future. Hearing the waves when I wake up. Smelling the salt from the water. Walking to the beach anytime I want. My dream is to go swimming with sharks.

“What are you daydreaming about, the kiss?” Kira asks smiling. “What no I’m not thinking about it all the time.” I say “almost all the time then?” She aks. I laugh. “Shut up.” Kira laughs hard and splashes water on me. “Hey stop.” I yell. “You know I’m really happy for you finally getting your first kiss.” She says. “Thank you, I’m just really scared.” I explain. “Huh why?” She aks. “Well I don’t know what’s gonna happen next, how it’s gonna go in school tomorrow. Like is he gonna talk to me or completely ignore me?” “Hey girl calm down, I know he’s not gonna ignore you, I saw the way he was smiling at you, you know when we had to leave. I feel like he’s a really good guy.” Kira says. “Thanks I really needed to hear that.”

Suddenly a ball lands on my head. “Oops omg sorry y/n.” Aiden says.

We spend the rest of the afternoon at the beach and I arrive home at 4:48pm.

I walk to the front door and anxiety immediately floods my stomach. Yelling. It’s all I hear and I don’t know how long I can handle this. It’s not even me doing the fighting, but I’m the one hearing everything. I’m happy they never hurt each other physically, but mentally. They are both hurting each other and me.

I open the front door and sprint past the kitchen to my room. I don’t care about hearing any more of their stupid fights so I just grab my headphones and put on fine line by harry styles. I can’t wait to get out of this house and live my own life.

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I wake up by banging on my door. “Y/n dinner!” I must have fallen asleep listening to music. “Yes coming!” I yell back. I’m curious what the atmosphere is gonna be like at dinner this time. And which weird healthy ‘food’ we’re gonna eat tonight. I open my door and walk downstairs.

“Finally, I was banging on that door for like ten minutes.” My mum says. Yeah sure. “Sorry I was really tired from the beach.” I say. I actually am tired of you guys fighting all the time, but I can’t say that. Don’t want another fight to start.

I look at the table and see green. “What’s this?” I ask. “It is called a dandelions salad, y/n.” My mom says. “You can eat dandelions?” I ask. “Yes they are very healthy actually.” My mom says. Yeah healthy your favorite word. “Oh okay, I didn’t know.” I say. “Well now you know.” She puts some on my plate. “Enjoy.”

So the ‘healthy’ dandelions salad tasted like shit. It literally felt like taking a bite straight out of a grass field. But of course I couldn’t tell my mom, don’t want her to get mad. I’m back in my room again making the last bits of my homework for tomorrow. I’m kinda nervous for tomorrow with the Matt thing and everything. But Kira’s words really helped me to stop overthinking it that much.

I finish the homework and decide to take a shower before bed. I wash all the leftover sand of my body. Free body scrub I guess. My mind wanders off to the kiss. I smile again. The feeling of his lips was amazing. The taste of smoke mixed with his was surprisingly really good. I wash my body wash off my body and get out of the shower. I put a towel around my body and see I have a text.

From Josh

Hey wondered if you finished the homework, I can send you answers if you need them!🤗

Josh is a really sweet guy and the best of a friend you can wish for. I think back to Matt saying that Josh looked jealous about my interaction with him. No Josh couldn’t like me he also sees me as a best friend, of course he’s protective over me.

I get out of the bathroom and put on some pajamas. I answer Josh.

To Josh

Hi, I actually did the homework myself *little shoulder pat*. Thanks though🫶🏻

From Josh

Wow I’m proud of you. Sorry I thought you didn’t 🫠

To Josh

Nah it’s okay I didn’t think I would do it either, but wanted to be distracted.

From Josh

Parents fighting again?

To Josh

You know it, everyday.

From Josh

I’m really sorry y/n. I’m here if you need me.

To Josh

I know

Thank you💕

From Josh

Always

*you ❤️ Josh’s message*

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I put my phone aside and set my alarm at 6:30am. It’s currently 10pm and I’m just gonna try and sleep. The beach really made me tired, I had so much fun with my friends. Matt flashes through my mind real quick and instead of worrying I just think of Kira’s words. And smile.

Wonder what I dreamed about at night.

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A/n🜸 Part four, so as of right now I’m not feeling like writing part 5. Maybe this will be the last of the series. It’s just that I lost my motivation for it. love ya x gnxosblog

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The new boy

Pt 3

𝐒𝐮𝐦𝐦𝐚𝐫𝐲 ✵ 𝐘𝐨𝐮 𝐧𝐞𝐯𝐞𝐫 𝐥𝐢𝐤𝐞𝐝 𝐚𝐧𝐲𝐨𝐧𝐞 𝐛𝐞𝐟𝐨𝐫𝐞, 𝐧𝐞𝐯𝐞𝐫 𝐤𝐢𝐬𝐬𝐞𝐝, 𝐧𝐞𝐯𝐞𝐫 𝐝𝐢𝐝 𝐚𝐧𝐲𝐭𝐡𝐢𝐧𝐠. 𝐓𝐡𝐫𝐞𝐞 𝐧𝐞𝐰 𝐛𝐨𝐲𝐬 𝐦𝐨𝐯𝐞 𝐭𝐨 𝐲𝐨𝐮𝐫 𝐭𝐨𝐰𝐧 𝐚𝐧𝐝 𝐨𝐧𝐞 𝐨𝐟 𝐭𝐡𝐞𝐦 𝐬𝐞𝐞𝐦𝐬 𝐭𝐨 𝐜𝐚𝐭𝐜𝐡 𝐲𝐨𝐮𝐫 𝐚𝐭𝐭𝐞𝐧𝐭𝐢𝐨𝐧. 𝐖𝐡𝐚𝐭 𝐰𝐢𝐥𝐥 𝐡𝐚𝐩𝐩𝐞𝐧?

𝐖𝐚𝐫𝐧𝐢𝐧𝐠𝐬 ⁂ 𝐬𝐰𝐞𝐚𝐫𝐢𝐧𝐠, 𝐝𝐫𝐢𝐧𝐤𝐢𝐧𝐠, 𝐯𝐨𝐦𝐢𝐭𝐢𝐧𝐠, 𝐤𝐢𝐬𝐬𝐢𝐧𝐠, 𝐭𝐡𝐚𝐭𝐬 𝐚𝐥𝐥?

Matt x reader

Not proofread*

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Y/n pov

The rest of the schoolweek was kinda boring. It was nice being with friends and other people everyday and not being home that much. I did have some eye contact with Matt and I smile thinking of the memory. His cute smile and those eyes. Wow. The week kinda flew by and there were a lot of fights at home as usual. I mostly spend my free time in my room listening to music and meeting up with Kira, Josh and Aiden. It was now Saturday the day of the party and I was very excited to just get out of the house and party. Jake didn’t really live that far away from me so I could walk to the party.

From Kira

Hey can me, Josh and Aiden come over later for the party?

To Kira

Yes ofc! What time did you have in mind?

From Kira

I can be there around 3 and then we can meet Josh and Aiden at Mac Donalds around 5:30??

To Kira

Perfect see you soon!!! Ily

From Kira

Lym girl

It was currently 2pm and I decided to take a shower before Kira came over. After the shower I put on a vanilla body butter and dried my hair. I put on some blue shorts and a pink top. I turned on my box and put on some rap music. I was jamming to the songs when I heard a knock on the door. I opened the front door and let Kira in. My dad was on a work trip and my mom was a weekend away with one of her friends. “Hey girl.” Kira said. “Heyy.” I said. “I’m kinda hungry, do you have some food?” Kira asked. “Oh so that’s why you’re here for food.” I said with a smirk. “Yeah sorry I didn’t want to tell you.” Kira said. We both started laughing. “No but like fr do you have food?” Kira asked. “Yeah I have some crisps I guess.” I said. “Yummy thanks.” Kira said hugging me. We watched a movie and danced to music till it was 5:15pm. “Oh shit we have to leave to Macdonald’s.” I say. “Oh shit yeah we don’t want Aiden and Josh to get mad.” Kira said laughing. We walked out of the door to my car and got in. We drove over to Macdonald’s.

“Hey guys.” Me and Kira say as we walk over to the table Josh and Aiden were sitting down. “Hi y/n and hi Kira.” Josh said. “Hey.” Aiden said as his attention was already on his girlfriend and he pat on the seat next to him signaling for Kira to sit down. “So what you guys gonna order?” Aiden asked. “Probably some nuggets and fries.” I say. “Yeah same.” Kira says. “I’m gonna order fries and a big ass burger yo.” Aiden says. We start laughing. “I’m ordering the same as Aiden but without the big ass.” Josh says. We laugh again. God I loved these moments just our dumb humor and living in this moment and not think about anything else. After a while we got our food and finished it up. “So me and Kira are going back to my place to get ready for the party, you guys can join us.” I say. “Okay we’ll come.” Josh says. Me and Kira got in my car and Josh and Aiden followed us in Josh’s car.

We arrived at my place around 7:30pm. Jake’s party starts at 9pm so we got enough time to get ready. “You guys can just chill in my living room while me and Kira get ready.” I say before walking upstairs to my room. “God what do I wear?” I ask Kira. “Maybe like a dress, I’m wearing my black one.” Kira says. “Ooh hot, yeah I’ll wear my navy blue dress I guess.” I say. “Omg yes that’s one hot.” Kira says. I put on my makeup and decided to do something different and add a little eyeliner and line my eyes with eye pencil. I thought it looked good so maybe I’ll do this more often. I liked my lips and put on a gloss. “I’m ready.” I say. “Gosh hot asf.” Kira says. “Oh shut up look at you.” I say. “Ooh it’s 9:05pm, we better hurry.” I say. We walk down the stairs and put on some heels. I put on ones were the heel isn’t to long so I could still dance if I feel like it. “You guys finally done?” Aiden asks. “Yeah sorry it took so long babe.” Kira says. We walk out the door and made our way to the party.

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We had only been at the party for 30 minutes now and Aiden was already a bit tipsy. Me and Kira were just dancing on the dance floor with drinks in our hands as I saw a familiar face. I saw Chris talking to Josh, my best friend Josh! Did that mean that Josh knew Matt? Did that mean Matt was also here? Why was Josh talking to Chris. I then noticed Nate, Nate was an old friend of Josh and they’d still catch up sometimes. Chris was probably friends with Nate but did that mean Matt was also? It suddenly got very hot inside and I made my way through all the sweaty dancing people. I walked to the back door and walked outside.

I let out a sigh as I walked over to a swing I saw in the backyard. I sat down my drink still in my hand. I went to take a sip as the back door opened revealing him. Matt was now walking outside and he didn’t notice me. It was quite dark so that made sense. He pulled out a cigarette and lit it up. I watched him as he inhaled the smoke, holding it for a bit before exhaling. God he looked good doing it. Why did I think about him in this way? I never liked anyone. I never thought of anyone like this. Of course I have thought about kissing a boy but I never found one that I wanted. Now I’m sitting here at 17, never kissed, never had a boyfriend, still a virgin and staring at a boy for the first time. Of course I’ve seen boys I found attractive but it was different, not like this. At this point he almost finished his cigarette. I was thinking about going up to him but what would I say. ‘Hey I’m y/n and I keep thinking about you and staring at you, I never thought of a boy like this but you’re different, nice to meet you.’ That would be weird asf, so I just decided to keep quiet and wait for him to get back inside. It was already later at night so the grass was damp. I tried to sit more comfortable but my heel slipped on the grass. Shit. A loud sound came from the swing I was sitting on. “You good?” I opened my eyes in shock as I hear Matt’s voice. God that voice is so attractive. “Hello?” Matt asked. I got shook out of my thoughts. “Uhm y-yes.” I say. “How long were you sitting there?” He asked. “Uhm 10 minutes or something. “Mmh so you were just staring at me then?” Matt asked. Oh God hell yes I was. “Uh no.” I said. Matt was now walking over to me. Shit. “Y/n right?” He asked. How tf did he know my name. My eyes widened. “Uhm yes.” I said confused. “How do you know that?” I asked. “You liked my insta post right?” He asked. Oh no he saw the notification, why did I unlike it oh god. I just looked at him my eyes slightly widened. “Or didn’t you?” He asked. “I got the notification but when I clicked on it I didn’t see anything.” He said. God I felt so embarrassed. I didn’t know what to say but the small amount of alcohol in my system still took the lead. “I was scrolling on insta and saw ur post when my mom walked in and I accidentally liked it, when I grabbed my phone again I unliked it ‘cause I figured it would be weird since you don’t know me.” The words flew out of my mind. Why was I so nervous? I normally didn’t have any problem talking to a boy. Maybe it was just Matt. His gaze, his clothes. His face, everything. He looked at me with an expression I couldn’t read. Oh god he probably thought I was weird. I fucked it up already. “Oh you didn’t have to unlike it, I didn’t mind.” Matt suddenly says. Oh. My. God. He didn’t mind? “Oh okay noted.” I said. God why did I say that such a loser. “I’m Matt btw but I think you already knew that since you’re in my class.” He said. I nodded. “Nice earrings.” He said. I looked back at him, he had a small smile on his face. “You too.” I said smiling. I felt my face going red. He noticed them omg. “Wanna go back inside it’s kinda cold?” Matt asked. “Uh yeah sure it is pretty cold.” I said. We made our way through the backyard back to the house.

As we walked inside the living room my eyes instantly met with Kira. Her eyes were wide and filled with shock. I didn’t tell her about Matt but she definitely noticed me staring this past week. “Hey y/n, over here.” I heard Josh saying. I walked over to him. Matt following me. “Hey, Josh.” I said. “Who’s this?” Josh asked. “Oh this is Matt.” I say. Matt shakes Josh’s hand. “Hey nice to meet you, Josh.” Matt says. “Yeah nice to meet you, Matt.” Josh says. “So how do you guys know each other?” Josh asks. “Oh we actually just met.” I say. “Yeah someone was staring at me.” Matt says. I push his shoulder. “Shut up I wasn’t.” I say. Matt laughs. “Yeah sure.” He says. Josh looked at me with a confused look. I just smiled at him.

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“Hey I’m gonna smoke again, wanna come?” Matt asks. “Uh yeah sure.” I say. We walk outside together. Matt grabs a cigarette and puts it in between his lips. God that looked so good. He grabbed a lighter and lit the cigarette. He inhales the smoke and keeps it in for a second. “Can I try?” I ask. I never thought those words would leave my mind but the way he was doing it made it look good. He exhaled. “You sure?” He asked. I nodded. He handed me the cigarette and I put it in between my lips. I already studied him while he was doing it so I just did what I saw. I inhaled the smoke and held it for a bit before exhaling. I coughed while exhaling. “First time smoking?” Matt asked. “Yep:” I say. “I see.” He says with a small grin. “So are you and Josh dating?” Matt asked. I laughed. “Me and Josh? No never he’s my best friend he’s like a brother to me.” I say. “Why you asking ?” I ask. “No nothing just curious, I saw the way he was looking at you.” Matt says. Looking at me what. “What do you mean looking at me?” I ask. “Well he looked kinda jealous when I told him you were staring at me:” Matt says. “Nah sure he wasn’t, he’s just protective over me.” I say. “If you say so.” Matt says. “Shut up Matt.” I say laughing. He inhaled the smoke from his cigarette again. “Why are you always staring at me while I smoke?” Matt asks. “I’m not, just observing.” I say. Matt laughs. “Observing, god. Name a better excuse.” He says. I just roll my eyes. “Can I try again?” I ask. He nods and hands me the cigarette. I inhale again, hold the smoke before exhaling. This time I didn’t cough. “Gosh you’re a natural.” Matt says. I laugh.

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Me and Matt hung out outside for about an hour. “I like this more than the party.” I suddenly say. Matt locks eyes with me. “What do you mean?” He asks. “Just being here outside talking.” I say. “You like hanging out with me more than the party?” He asks. I didn’t specifically say with him but it is what it is meant and he knew it. I nodded. “Well me too.” He says. His words make my face go red. Was he flirting with me? I don’t even know how that works or anything. “Y/n?” Matt asks. “Yeah what?” I ask. “Why were you staring at me for this past week?” He asks. I swallow. Omg he saw me. I felt my face go even more red. Matt noticed. “You didn’t have to feel ashamed, if I saw you staring it meant I was looking too.” He says. Omg. I look back up at him and he has a sweet smile on his face. “Y- you were?” I ask. “Yes how could I not?” He says. Omg his words make me blush even more. He steps closer to me, now hovering over me. I swallow. “Why are you so nervous?” Matt asks. I just looked at him words not being able to get out of my mouth. I was frozen. I have never been this close to a boys face before. I looked at his lips and then back at his eyes. Gosh the way I wanted to kiss him so badly even though I never did It before and didn’t know wtf to do. I saw him doing the same. Looking at my lips then back at my eyes. I moved even a bit closer. Before I knew it his lips were on mine. I was kissing a boy?! I was kissing Matt?! I kissed him back. I didn’t know what I was doing but I just went with it. I felt his tongue on my lips wanting access. I opened my mouth giving him it. I felt a weird feeling in my stomach. His hands were on my hips and mine were on his neck. After a long make out session, I pulled back. Our lips were both swollen and red from the kissing. I looked him in the eyes. I smiled at him and he smiled back. I wanted to say something when the door opened. “Y/n come quick we have to go home, Aiden just threw up in the living room.” Kira said in the door opening. I looked at her. “What Jesus.” Before I knew it I got pulled inside of the house by Kira. I looked back seeing Matt still smiling. I smiled back at him before I couldn’t see him anymore.

“What were you doing outside with him?” Kira asked inside the car. I saw Josh looking over at me. “Nothing just talking.” I said while my face gained a small pink blush. “OMG you kissed him?” Kira asked. Josh his eyes were now widened. I nodded softly. “Omg girl your first kiss.” Kira said pulling me in a hug. “How was it? Was it good? Was it with tongue?” She asked. “Kira.” I groaned. “Omg it was with tongue, lucky girl.” I looked away tryna hide my smile but it was almost impossible. God that kiss was so good. I couldn’t stop thinking about it. And I couldn’t stop thinking about Matt.

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A/n ooh. Lmk your thoughts. Leave feedback!!! And stay tuned for more parts! Ly x

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Posting the new boy part three soon!

It’s a very exciting chapter🤭🤭

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hiii wanna be moots??

Ofccc

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Are you guys excited for the next part of the new boy?

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The new boy

Pt 2

𝐒𝐮𝐦𝐦𝐚𝐫𝐲 ✵ 𝐘𝐨𝐮 𝐧𝐞𝐯𝐞𝐫 𝐥𝐢𝐤𝐞𝐝 𝐚𝐧𝐲𝐨𝐧𝐞 𝐛𝐞𝐟𝐨𝐫𝐞, 𝐧𝐞𝐯𝐞𝐫 𝐤𝐢𝐬𝐬𝐞𝐝, 𝐧𝐞𝐯𝐞𝐫 𝐝𝐢𝐝 𝐚𝐧𝐲𝐭𝐡𝐢𝐧𝐠. 𝐓𝐡𝐫𝐞𝐞 𝐧𝐞𝐰 𝐛𝐨𝐲𝐬 𝐦𝐨𝐯𝐞 𝐭𝐨 𝐲𝐨𝐮𝐫 𝐭𝐨𝐰𝐧 𝐚𝐧𝐝 𝐨𝐧𝐞 𝐨𝐟 𝐭𝐡𝐞𝐦 𝐬𝐞𝐞𝐦𝐬 𝐭𝐨 𝐜𝐚𝐭𝐜𝐡 𝐲𝐨𝐮𝐫 𝐚𝐭𝐭𝐞𝐧𝐭𝐢𝐨𝐧. 𝐖𝐡𝐚𝐭 𝐰𝐢𝐥𝐥 𝐡𝐚𝐩𝐩𝐞𝐧?

𝐖𝐚𝐫𝐧𝐢𝐧𝐠𝐬✧ 𝐜𝐮𝐫𝐬𝐢𝐧𝐠, 𝐝𝐨𝐧𝐭 𝐫𝐞𝐚𝐥𝐥𝐲 𝐤𝐧𝐨𝐰 𝐦𝐨𝐫𝐞!

Matt x reader

Not proofread*

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Matt’s pov

It was the first day of senior year. Me and my brothers had just moved here. I was kinda nervous to go to a new school, but I had my brothers and I didn’t really have a hard time making friends. I got out of bed and walked over to my closet. I put on some blue jeans and a black t shirt. I went to the bathroom and washed my face and brushed my teeth. I did my hair and put in my earrings. I still had my necklace on, I slept with it most of the time. It has an silver horse charm, I thought it looked cool.

I walked downstairs as I already saw my brothers sitting in the kitchen. “Goodmorning.” I said. “Yo goodmorning.” Chris said. “Goodmorning.” Nick said. I sat down and put cereal in my bowl and added milk. “Are you guys ready for your first day as seniors?” My mom asked. “I Guess.” I said. Nick and Chris agreed. “We have to leave earlier to go by the office first remember?” Nick said. “Oh shit yeah we need to leave.” I say. We grab our bags and walk to the car.

The whole car ride we just chat, laughed and listened to Chris’s music. We arrived at school and walked over to the office. “Hi, the Sturniolo’s?” Mrs Wall asked. We nodded. “Yes that’s us.” Chris said. “Well, welcome to our school, did you see your schedule?” She asked. “Yes we did.” Nick said. “Okay good, here’s Nathan he will give you a little tour before classes start.” Mrs Wall says. A boy walks in the office. “Hi I’m Nate, let’s go.” We say hello and follow him around the school.

As we finished the tour he drops us off at the classroom we had our first period in. “So you guys just wait here and the teacher will call you in.” Nate says. We nod. “Hey thanks for the tour.” I say. “No problem it’s not like I had a choice.” Nate says laughing. We also laugh. “Fair.” Chris says. Nate walks in the classroom and we wait outside. Everyone was already inside except for some people who were late. I don’t get it how people get late on the first day.

After waiting a few minutes the teacher calls us in. We walk in and the teachers starts to yap some things. I look around and notice a girl staring at me, she looked very pretty. She quickly looked away as she noticed that I saw her staring. I caught a quick glimpse of her earrings before she pulled her hair from behind her ears. We were wearing the same ones. Before I knew it I was now the one staring. I loved her outfit. She was wearing grey cargo pants and a white top. I noticed a small shark necklace which was very cute. “Boys please introduce yourselves.” The teacher said. I quickly looked away to my right and saw Chris staring at me with a small smirk. I rolled my eyes and we all introduced ourselves. We walked over to the empty seats and sat down. I turned my head to Chris. “Yo what was that smirk for.” I ask. “Bro I saw you staring at that girl.” Chris says. “I wasn’t shut up.” I scoffed. Chris rolled his eyes and returned his attention for class. While I was talking to Chris I noticed the girl staring at me but I didn’t look at her.

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At lunch we sat with Nate and a few of his friends. “I can’t believe we already got homework at the first day.” Chris says. “Yeah me neither it’s fucking annoying.” Nate says. I like Nate he has a good vibe and I feel like he’s a good friend. “Btw there’s a party at mines this Saturday, I invited all seniors so you guys can come.” Jake says. Jake is a friend of Nate’s, he’s cool. “Yeah I guess a party’s nice to get to know more people.” Nick says. “Yeah we’ll come.” Chris says. “Nice.” Jake says.

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After school I drive me and my brothers home. I walk inside the house and greet our mom. “I’m gonna make some homework now.” I say. I walk upstairs into my room and instead of opening my books I open my phone. I start to scroll on TikTok and laugh at some TikTok’s. After a while I do decide to make my homework. I put my phone down on my desk and I open my books. After I’m done with my homework I grab my phone again. I see a instagram notification:’y/n🦈 liked your post.’ I notice the shark emoji and think of the girl in class with the necklace with a shark. I smile to myself and click on the notification but I don’t see it in my instagram app. I refreshed it a few times but nothing came up. Maybe it was just a bug or she unliked it. Maybe she thought I didn’t look good so she unliked it. I shook my head, I shouldn’t think so much. I clicked away the instagram app and opened TikTok again. “Dinners ready.” I hear my mom calling from downstairs. I walk out of my room and down the stairs. “Mmh smells good.” My dad says. A fresh smell of pasta filled my nose. I liked pasta very much.

After dinner I walk up to my room again. I decided to put on a different outfit and watch some YouTube. After a while a nock is being heard on my door. “Matt.” Chris says. “What?” I ask. “Me and Nick are going for a walks around the neighborhood, wanna come?” Chris asks. “Yes of course.” I say. I love walks at night, they calm me down and everything is much peacefuller.

After we walked for a while, I hear soft music playing in the distance. “Yo that’s some good music.” Chris says. I agree. We walk to where the sound is coming from and I look to the side. I see the girl from class standing in a baby blue bikini with her hair in a bun looking at me again. She looked kinda shocked so I couldn’t help but smirk. She smiled at me while she walked over to a chair. After we walked past Chris looks at me again with a smile. “Yo that’s the girl you were staring at in class.” Chris says. I just rolled my eyes and fastened my walk. “Yo what did I miss?” Nick asks. “Today first period Matt was drooling over some girl.” Chris says. “No I wasn’t she looked at me so I just looked back nothing more.” I say. “Mmh whatever you say.” Chris says. “Interesting.” Nick says.

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After we came home I went straight to bed. I didn’t feel like hearing about her for the rest of the night. I went to the bathroom and got ready for bed. I laid down in bed but I couldn’t sleep, I couldn’t get the girl out of my mind. The way she looked today in class and in that bikini and the way she smiled at me. I thought about the way her lips would feel on mine, how she would look me deep in the eyes. How she would taste, how she looked without the bikini. No I shook my head, I can’t think about her in that way I don’t even know her, I don’t even know her name. I just decided to close my eyes and think of other things. After an hour I finally fell asleep.

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The new boy

Pt 1

𝐒𝐮𝐦𝐦𝐚𝐫𝐲 ✵ 𝐘𝐨𝐮 𝐧𝐞𝐯𝐞𝐫 𝐥𝐢𝐤𝐞𝐝 𝐚𝐧𝐲𝐨𝐧𝐞 𝐛𝐞𝐟𝐨𝐫𝐞, 𝐧𝐞𝐯𝐞𝐫 𝐤𝐢𝐬𝐬𝐞𝐝, 𝐧𝐞𝐯𝐞𝐫 𝐝𝐢𝐝 𝐚𝐧𝐲𝐭𝐡𝐢𝐧𝐠. 𝐓𝐡𝐫𝐞𝐞 𝐧𝐞𝐰 𝐛𝐨𝐲𝐬 𝐦𝐨𝐯𝐞 𝐭𝐨 𝐲𝐨𝐮𝐫 𝐭𝐨𝐰𝐧 𝐚𝐧𝐝 𝐨𝐧𝐞 𝐨𝐟 𝐭𝐡𝐞𝐦 𝐬𝐞𝐞𝐦𝐬 𝐭𝐨 𝐜𝐚𝐭𝐜𝐡 𝐲𝐨𝐮𝐫 𝐚𝐭𝐭𝐞𝐧𝐭𝐢𝐨𝐧. 𝐖𝐡𝐚𝐭 𝐰𝐢𝐥𝐥 𝐡𝐚𝐩𝐩𝐞𝐧?

𝐖𝐚𝐫𝐧𝐢𝐧𝐠𝐬 ⁂ 𝐜𝐮𝐫𝐬𝐢𝐧𝐠, 𝐦𝐞𝐧𝐭𝐢𝐨𝐧𝐬 𝐨𝐟 𝐟𝐢𝐠𝐡𝐭𝐬, 𝐦𝐞𝐧𝐭𝐢𝐨𝐧𝐬 𝐨𝐟 𝐤𝐢𝐬𝐬𝐢𝐧𝐠.

Matt x reader

𝐍𝐨𝐭 𝐩𝐫𝐨𝐨𝐟𝐫𝐞𝐚𝐝*

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I woke up from my alarm. Ugh school. Summer break had already ended. Time flies when you’re having fun. I mostly hangout with Kira, Josh and Aiden. I was kinda excited to go to school again but not to see my teachers. Especially not Mr Phill, he was an annoying and boring old man. I was most excited to just get out of the house everyday and see my friends. I didn’t like being home because my parents would fight almost all the time except for when other people were around. I was never good enough for them, I never did anything good. Home didn’t feel like a home to me.

I got up out of bed and walked over to my closet to pick out an outfit. I put on some grey cargo pants and a white top. I went to the bathroom and brushed my teeth and hair and put on makeup. I liked to have my makeup kinda natural but still glowy. You could still see my freckles really well because of the sunny weather. I put in my earrings and a silver necklace with a small shark charm. I have always loved the sea since I was a little kid and was most fascinated by sharks. When I saw them I wasn’t scared like most people, I would just admire them. I loved aquariums but my parents wouldn’t let me get one, not even for some small fishes. We did have a pool in the backyard so sometimes I would just imagine swimming with sharks. I never told anyone about my obsession with sharks, I was scared they would find it weird or frightening. I didn’t make it too obvious, just the necklace and a small shark figurine on my desk. I could talk hours about the ocean, to myself.

I walked downstairs and sat down to eat. I put some cereal in my bowl and poured milk in top of it. My dad had already left for work and my mom was still asleep. I was an only child so every morning I would be alone. I liked the peace, no fighting and screaming. I didn’t even understand why they were still together, I think my mother is too scared to leave. They have been together for more than half of their lives. They didn’t know what life was like without each other anymore. I finished my breakfast when I heard a horn outside. Josh was here to pick me up.

I walked up to the passenger side and opened the door. “Hey, ready for the first day of senior year?” Josh asked. “I guess.” I answered. “You guess.” He repeated laughing. Josh has been my best friend since kindergarten. I could tell him everything, I trusted him the most out of everyone. Kira and Aiden were sitting in the backseat. They have been dating for a few months now and couldn’t leave each other’s side. “Are you guys ready?” I asked turning my head to the backseat. “No.” Aiden said. Kira agreed. I left out a small chuckle. The whole ride to school we just listened to music and talked. Circles by post Malone was now playing. I always loved that song. We arrived at school and I let out a small sigh. Josh looked over at me. “You good?” He asked. “Yeah.” I smiled. “Just a bit nervous.” “Oh okay, alright let’s go.” Josh said. We got out of the car. Me and Kira went to the bathroom real quick and Josh and Aiden already walked up to class.

“So you excited to be a senior?” Kira asked. “Yeah I guess, but I kinda like being at school with you guys.” I replied. She agreed. “It’s kinda sad that after this year we won’t be going here again.” Kira said. “Yeah but luckily we still have a year and stop now before I cry.” We laugh. “Okay, okay alright let’s go to class. We don’t wanna be late the first day.” Kira said. We walked to class and sat down in the middle. “Okay welcome class, are you ready for senior year?” The teacher asked. No one reacted. “We also have some new students joining us.” Three boys walked into class, they looked alike but there were still some differences. I looked at all three of them but my eyes stayed on one of them. He had dark brown hair which fell over his forehead, he had these magnificent blue eyes and pink lips. He had tattoos on both of his arms and that outfit that damn outfit. He was wearing blue jeans and a black t shirt. I scanned him head to toe when I noticed his earrings, we were wearing the same ones. The Vivienne Westwood planet studs. I didn’t realize I was staring until all of the sudden I made eye contact with him. I quickly looked away and pulled my hair from behind my ear and let it fall in front of my face. I felt my face getting red as I tried looking back. He was still looking at me, I felt his gaze, it was strong. I quickly looked over at Kira. “Yo they are hot.” She whispered. “Kira you can’t say that, you have a boyfriend.” She scoffed and looked back at the teacher. “Boys please introduce yourselves.” “Hi I’m Nick Sturniolo.” One of them says. He also had some tattoos and a nose ring. “Im Chris Sturniolo.” Another one says. He had no tattoos. “I’m Matt Sturniolo.” The last boy said. So his name is Matt. “Hi boys, welcome to class.” They nodded as they walked to their seats. Matt sat in front of me on the right. I stared at his back for almost the whole class until we got assigned an assignment. I quickly looked over at Kira. “What do we need to do?” I asked her. She laughed. “Were you to busy staring?” She asked. “No I-I wasn’t, shut up.” I said feeling myself get a bit red. “Alright well we need to read the first chapter and then answer question 1-20.” She said. “Oh okay thanks.”

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We were sitting at lunch and I still couldn’t stop thinking about him, Matt. “Yo y/n, you coming This Saturday?” Aiden asked. I snapped out of my thoughts and looked up. “Mmh what.” He smiled. “Are you coming this Saturday ?” “What’s Saturday?” I asked. “Jake’s party, he invited all seniors.” Aiden said. “Uhm sure I’ll come.” I said. “Yayy!” Kira said as she hugged me. I smiled at her. I looked around the cafeteria and saw him again, Matt sitting with his brothers. I have never had a boyfriend, I have never kissed or anything else. I have never really liked anyone nor loved anyone. Of coarse I love my friends and I do love my parents but not in that way not love love. But why did he stay in my mind what was different about him? I decided to just try and ignore it but could I?

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After school Josh dropped me off at my house. I walked up to the door and reached for my keys. I could already hear the screaming through the door. I unlocked the door and walked in. It went quiet. “Hey honey how was school?” My mom asked. “Fine.” I said. Before I knew it, the yelling started again. I ran up to my room and slammed the door. I put down my bag and turned on my box. Again by Noah Cyrus and xxxtentacion played throughout the speakers. When music was on I could just forget about my problems and enjoy the sound of it. I couldn’t hear the yelling anymore and I opened my phone. I sat down on my bed and I clicked on instagram. Before I knew it I had typed in his name, Matt Sturniolo I tapped on search and clicked on the first profile that popped up. It was him. He had a few posts, I scrolled through them. I jumped as my mom barged into my room. My phone flew out of my hands. “Y/n put that music down right now!” I just looked at her. “Why are you on your phone, don’t you have homework.” She asked with a mad look on her face. She would always find a reason to get mad at me after she just fought with my dad. “Can’t I relax for a bit, geez.” I said. “Don’t give me an attitude now young lady, go on make your homework.” She walked out of my room. I sighed as I reached for my phone who was now laying beside me. “SHIT!” I said out loud.

I slammed my hand on my mouth. I had accidentally liked his post, probably when my mom barged in. I quickly unliked it and hopefully he didn’t see the notification. I felt so embarrassed. What if he noticed? I put on my headphones since there was complaints about the loud music. I started making my homework but I couldn’t focus that well. I kept thinking about me accidentally liking his post. He also definitely saw me staring at him today at class. I opened my phone again. Phew, no instagram notifications. I left out a small sigh. I quickly clicked away his profile and deleted my search history. I decided to text Josh.

To Josh

Hey watcha doing?

From Josh

Hi just watching some TikTok, you?

To Josh

Idk I tried making the homework but can’t really focus lol

From Josh

Oh why’s that? Do you want me to send you the answers or come over and help?

To Josh

No you don’t need to do that I can do it

From Josh

Y/n please just let me help you’re my best friend

To Josh

Okay fine please send them

From josh

Np 🤗

*Josh send 4 photos*

To Josh

Ily thanksss🫶🏻

I finished the homework thanks to Josh’s answers. I am so thankful to have him as my best friend. He was always there for me. “Dinner’s ready!” I hear my mom yelling from downstairs. Ugh I kinda liked the peace in my room. I walked downstairs and sat down. “What are we eating?” I asked. “Just some pizza.” My mom answered. “Oh okay.” I answered. I was kinda excited to eat pizza until I saw what was on the table. “What is that?” I asked. “Pizza.” My mom answered. “Well it doesn’t look like it.” I said. “Eat or eat nothing.” My mom answered. On the table was a green round thing with cheese and weird greenies on it, It was probably one of those *healthy* recipes my mom found online. I ate the ‘pizza’ and acted like I liked it. I didn’t want my mom to get mad at me again. After dinner I went up to my room again and laid down on my bed. Before I knew it I was thinking about him again. Why did I keep thinking about him. I never thought about a boy so much and not like this. Not about how fine he was, about his gaze passing mine, about his eyes, about his tattoos or about his lips. Damn those lips. They were a pinkish colour, I wondered what they would feel like on mine. I shrugged my head. I had never kissed how can I think about it right now, with him. I didn’t even know how to kiss. I didn’t even know him, I didn’t know Matt and I didn’t know what he was like. Maybe he was a player, maybe he wasn’t even nice. I jumped out of my thoughts as I heard my phone ring. I picked it up.

*Incoming call Kira🤓🩷*

I picked up.

“Heyy” Kira said. “Heyy” I said back. “Watcha doing, I’m bored.” Kira said. “Nothing really just chilling on my phone.” I said. I couldn’t tell her that I was thinking about Matt, the new boy. “Owh wanna do something?” She asked. “Wanna come over and go for a swim?” I asked. “Hell yes, be there in 15.” Kira said. I hung up the phone and walked over to my closet to grab a bikini. I grabbed a baby blue bikini and put it on. Blue was my favorite color of coarse, blue just like the ocean. I put my hair in a bun and grabbed an towel. I already walked to the backyard and placed down my towel on a chair. I sat down waiting for Kira. I turned on my box and soft rap music was playing through it. After a while Kira finally arrived. “Hey girl.” She said as she already jumped in the pool. I let out a laugh. “Hey to you too.” “Come in.” Kira said. I jumped in and made a small squeal. The water was cold on my skin. “Geez it’s freezing.” I said. “Don’t be such an pussy.” Kira said. Kira was part of the swimming team from our school so she was used to cold water. We swam together and just talked for a while. “I’m getting out, it’s too cold.” I said. Kira scoffed. “Well I’m staying for a bit.” I walked back over to my chair as I saw some familiar faces in the corner of my eye. I looked over to the left through my gate and I saw them walking. The triplets were walking past my house! I felt goosebumps come over me as I saw that Matt his eyes were on me. I was in my bikini and he saw me! He looked so good. He was wearing a red hat backwards with his hair falling at the sides. He also had a white t shirt and red shorts that matched the hat. I loved that color red, it was a dark red color. I almost folded at the sight of him. I saw that he had a small smirk on his face. I led out a little smile as I walked to my chair.

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Quiet 12

P1 P2 P3 P4 P5 P6 P7 P8 P9 P10 P11

pairing: y/n and Matt sturniolo

summary: a girl with a lot of baggage and a boy with even more try to help put each others pieces back together one by one. A story about a girl who’s broken and a boy who doesn’t talk

warnings: mentions of drinking, suggestive, mentions of being drunk

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"Wednesday" I stated. Matt glanced up at me hesitantly. I shifted next to him. "I upset you" I breathed. He looked back down. I tilted my head to look at his face. His eyes glanced over at me reluctantly, like he didn’t want to look at me.

"Can you tell me why?" I whispered. He took in a breath and looked away from me. "Chris made it pretty clear, I upset you" I spoke again remembering the way he screamed at me in the parking lot. I swallowed.

Matt looked down.

"Tell me Matt" I pleaded desperate to get an answer out of him. His face twisted and he opened his mouth and closed it along with his eyes. He softly shook his head.

I sighed of defeat and turned away from him. Matt looked over at me.

I just glanced down at my book, forgoing the entire conversation. I can't be sorry if I didn't know what I did. Matt wouldn't even tell me.

He reached over and wrote on his notebook. I looked over.

You and Jake, are you guys together?

I stared down at the sentence. Matt didn't look up at me. All he did was stare at the sentence that he wrote. I licked my lips and looked down at the page.

"I don't know Matt. He-" I took in a breath. "I don't know what we are" I mumbled. He looked up to me, I stared back down at my book. He pursed his lips and wrote again on the page.

for someone who doesn't know, he sure does like to kiss you a lot

I looked down at the words before I looked up at Matt. He stared at me. I smacked my lips before turning back to my book.

"Before you ask" I spoke. "That's all we did--kiss." I spoke honestly. It's all that happened. Just a lot of kissing. Matt stared at me before going back to the page.

I wasn't going to ask

I blinked down at the words and I just turned.

"He's nicer than you think you know. He's...." I set down my book. Matt had his eyes trained on me.

"He's not like his friends" I shook my head. Matt sighed and looked down before writing one last thing.

I'll have to take your word for it

I bit my lip and turned away wanting this conversation to end. I tapped my finger against the book over and over, reading none of the words on the page.

"So the party..." I whispered without looking up. He glanced over to me. "Are you gonna come?" I asked raising my head.

I could have sworn when the words left my mouth he looked sick to his stomach. Like a million thoughts filled behind his eyes. He pulled his bottom lip into his mouth and he looked down at his page.

"You don't have to---" I shook my head. "I can just..." I sighed. "Come over after" I suggested. He looked up at me and closed his eyes.

He shook his head.

I stared at him and he glared down at his page before shaking his head again. It only took a few seconds before he grabbed his things and stood up and left.

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I pulled my skirt down feeling as if my legs were too much on display. I'd stared myself in the mirror for what felt like an hour. Attempting to find my nicest clothes that would match what everyone else might be wearing at the party.

Here I was at 17 and I had no idea what people wore to parties. I'd never been to one before. I wrapped my arms around myself.

I wondered what my mom would think in these moments. If she'd be proud of me for putting myself out there. For going to party. With a boy. I chuckled to myself.

I nodded in the mirror.

You look fine Y/n. You look pretty.

My mom's voice came through and I smiled and that was enough to grab my stuff and walk out the door to the party. If even Matt wasn't coming with me. I could do this. Still I paused before reaching for the doorknob. I shook my head.

And I walked in.

I took in a breath as I attempting to move out of the way of people. I ducked and turned apologizing as I walked through the room trying to find a familiar face. So far I saw no one.

Until I felt someone wrap their arm around my waist over my exposed stomach. Their face was pressed into my neck, kissing softly.

"You made it"

I chuckled and turned until we faced each other. Jake's eyelids were drooped and he held one arm out that held his drink.

"Hi" I whispered. "Hi" He breathed back pressing his lips to mine. I kissed him softly before parting from him. He pulled at my side.

"Come on, everyone's over here" He said motioning behind me. I nodded as he replaced his grip on my side, to my hand and dragged me through the crowd.

People glanced at us. I met some of their eyes. Some whispered, some people's eyes widened. I ducked my head down and squeezed Jake's hand tighter. We finally made it into the living room before I saw everyone sitting looking around.

I smiled and waved as I stood next to Jake.

"Jake I was wondering where you ran off too" Tyler turned to look at us. Jake looked down at me.

"Sit with me" He mumbled down to me. I nodded as I looked up at him. We moved to the couch before I sat down next to him.

He smiled and his hand found it's place on the inside of my leg, pulling it towards him. I closed my legs quickly so that I wasn't exposed to those sitting around us. I felt my face heaten.

"You look cute"

I turned and met Lacey's stare. She was sitting on Gavin's lap. I averted my eyes from widening. She wasn't smiling, she just stared as she sipped from her drink.

"Thank you" I breathed straighting out my top. Her eyes glanced down to Jake's hand on my leg. She pursed her lip and dropped her drink from her lips.

"You drink?" She asked.

I blinked at her before shaking my head. She stared and her eyes glanced over me. Jake leaned in me.

"Do you want me to get you a drink Y/n?" He said softly. I looked over at him.

"No, I'm okay right now" I smiled softly. He nodded and shifted his shoulder behind mine so that I was leaning against his chest slightly. I sighed.

"I wanna play a game" Lacey stood from her seat on Gavin. Gavin groaned. "You always wanna play a game, come back and sit" He reached for her. She ripped from his touch. I swallowed and closed my eyes.

Nadia sat up from where she sat.

"Game! Yay! Tyler game" She reached and pulled Tyler's attention. Tyler slowly turned to Nadia, blinking slowly. Jake sighed and leaned against me.

"They're all wasted. Don't pay attention" He mumbled into my ear. I turned and looked at him. "Are you?" I whispered. "Drunk?” I glanced over his eyes.

“—Or wasted I mean" I stumbled over my words. He sighed and set down his drink.

"I've had a few drink, I'm fine" He smiled pressing his lips against my face. I let out a breath and nodded feeling a sickening feeing in my stomach. I don’t know what I was thinking.

"Game. You in skinny?" Lacey tilted her head at me. My gut clenched. Nadia hit her. "You promised" She snapped glaring at her. I looked between them feeling frozen in my skin.

"It was a joke" She chuckled. "You knew it was a joke right?" She turned to me and raised her eyebrows. Everyone turned to me. I forced a smile.

Friends, Friends, Friends.

"Y-Yeah" I nodded. Lacey nodded and turned back to the table. Jake took in a breathed and gripped my leg.

"Yeah-Yeah Lacey stop being such a cunt and play the game huh?" He snapped at her. She glared up at him. They stared at each other for a minute.

"Fine, hand me the deck" She glared at Jake, holding her hand out for Gavin. Gavin sighed and bend down before handing her a deck of cards.

"What game is this?" I asked turning to Jake. Jake kept glaring at Lacey. Lacey slapped down the deck of cards.

"Easy" Lacey snapped my attention. "Grab a card, read what it says, do it or drink" She smiled. I blinked at her before snapping out of it and nodding.

"Ladies go first" She slid the deck to me. I blinked up at Jake and he just looked at me, as everyone did. I swallowed as I reached down and picked up the first one on top.

My eyes glanced over it.

"Tell a secret, or drink."

I felt sick. I looked up at Lacey. She smiled and raised her eyebrows. I looked over at Jake as I set down the card. "Well?" Lacey crossed her arms over her chest. I looked at the ground.

"Um.." I thought. A secret? I looked up at the drinks layed against the table in front of us. Each one looking less appetizing than the next.

"It doesn't have to be a huge one, Y/n" Jake leaned into me. I tapped my foot and nodded.

"I--" I shook my head. "I--accidently killed my hamspter when I was 7" I nodded remembering the first thing I could. They blinked at me. Lacey shook her head and Nadia chuckled.

"Damn" Tyler chuckled. "Boring" Lacey announced before picking up at card herself and sighing as her eyes glanced over the words.

"Kiss someone you've previously hooked up with or drink" She read. Her eyes looked up at mine. She smiled before she stood and walked over to where I was sitting. My eyes widened before she leaned down and then I realized who she was going for.

"Lace-" Jake mumbled before she pressed her lips to his, while his hand still rested on my legs. My eyes widened and I felt my heart start to beat as I stared at their lips connected.

Jake?

They’d hooked up?

I looked away from them as she parted and chuckled.

Jake looked down at me. I didn't look up at him suddenly feeling sick to my stomach. I looked up at Nadia who looked sadly at me. I pulled my leg from his touch and Jake sighed.

"Y/n" He breathed trying to get my attention.

I’d knew Lacey had just done it to embarrass me, and it worked. I just don’t know why Jake never mentioned it before.

"Who's next?" Lacey smiled. Nadia leaned forward before taking a card.

The game went on like this. Jake stopped trying to get my attention and I just listened and watched as Nadia gave Tyler a lap dance, Jake downed a shot, and Tyler and Gavin wrestled on the ground.

"Your turn" Lacey pushed the card towards me. I sighed before picking up another card. I clenched my jaw as I started to read the card.

"Take off your shirt or drink" I read. Tyler leaned back. "This should be good" He chuckled. Jake glared at him. I pursed my lips as Lacey held back a laugh. I placed the card down before reaching for the bottle in front of me.

"Cop-out" Lacey mumbled. I glared at her before bringing the bottle up to my lips. At first it didn't taste like anything as I drank it like water, it going down so easily.

"Not----that much" Jake grabbed the bottle from me.

Then it burned.

I coughed as the foul tasted hit me like a ton of bricks. I leaned forward as my hand came to my throat, attempting to wipe away the burning from the outside.

Jake put his hand on my back.

"Are you okay?" He breathed. I sat up and looked at everyone'e eyes on me. "I'm fine" I snapped. He sighed and took his hand off my back.

Lacey wasn't winning. I wasn't going to let her. She could try to embarrass me with this cards all night, but I was just going to drink every time.

-

I was smiling. Genuinely smiling. It felt so good. I giggled as Jake leaned over me as I layed against the couch.

Everyone forgot about the game a few minutes ago.Lacey pre-occupied with Gavin and Nadia with Tyler, their conversations drowing out through everyone else in the house.

"There are a lot of people in your house" I giggled. He nodded and smiled. "There is" He smiled and nodded. I sighed and closed my eyes. Everything felt like it was fuzzing, like the muscles under my skin were bubbling, keeping me warm.

"Are you okay?" His hand came over my hip. I nodded and smiled, my eyes still closed.

"'M happy" I chuckled blinking my eyes open. "Your happy?" He asked chuckling. I nodded as I looked up at him.

"I couldn't stop thinking about you today" Jake breathed as he looked down at me. I smiled and pointed to myself. "Me?" I chuckled. He nodded and closed his eyes. I sighed and looked off.

“I wish Matt was here, he would like feeling this--I feel free" I said as I spread my arms out. Jake pursed his lips and looked down at me.

"You know he's into you right?"

I looked up at him. "Matt?" I asked my eyes widening. He nodded. I shook my head and giggled. Everything just felt funny.

"No-Matt he's....not into anything" I chuckled shaking my head. Jake stared down at me.

"He's into you. I can see it in the way he glares at me" He chuckled. I shook my head furrowing my eyebrows. "I would know Jake. He-He would have told me" I chuckled, leaning into Jake's arm. Jake's gaze just followed me.

"Alright, no more drinks for you" He brushed hair behind my ear. I rolled my eyes and pushed his arm. He smiled as he leaned over me and pressed his lips to mine softly. I smiled as I kissed him back.

"Do you wanna go upstairs? It's quieter up there, somewhere for you to lay down" He mumbled against my lips. I smiled and nodded. He smiled before leaning up and helping me up off the couch. I leaned into him as he held me up as we walked out of the room.

I felt like my body was as light as a feather. I couldn’t stop smiling. This was great. Jake was great.

I chuckled as we made it to the stairs. He held my hand as we walked up the steps. I stumbled missing one of the steps. My hand grasped the rail. Has stairs always been this hard?

"Are you okay?" He laughed pulling me up. I nodded as we continued to walk. He pulled me into this room before he closed the door.

His hands came to my waist and his lips came down on me. I kissed him back and smiled as I wrapped my arms around his neck. His hands came over my hips, gripping my skirt.

As I kissed him back, my hands coming over his hands. I knew my skirt was riding up, and I didn’t want to be on full display.

He released his grip and his hand came under my skin and he guided me towards his bed continuing to kiss me.

I laid down before he crawled over me. He smiled as he pushed his tonuge in my mouth sloppily. His hand pulled my leg up before his hand grazed my knee and trailed down my leg.

He moved his lips to my neck. I looked up at the ceiling.

"D-Did you really hook up with Lacey?" I breathed as I remembered the events from earlier. He lifted for a moment.

"It was a long time ago" He mumbled before he pressed his lips harder agaisnt my neck. I blinked at the ceiling.

"Why didn't you tell me about it?" My eyebrows furrowed. He sighed and he looked up at me. "It wasn't relevant. We weren't ever together" He explained his hand gripping my chin. I looked up at him.

"Okay?" he breathed. I nodded. His lips returned to my neck and he bit down. I swallowed as pictures of Matt's face flushed through my mind. The way his eyes looked over my neck.

He let out a hard breath before he leaned over and tightened the strings to my hoodie to conceal my neck and tapped to his own neck. The same place where a mark laid on my own neck. As if to say:

Hide your hickeys better, I can see them.

"D-Don't give me hickeys" I quickly spoke. Jake lifted his head and his hands pushed throught my hair. "Why?" He questioned staring down at me.

I don't want Matt to see them.

"My-My dad. I don't want him--to see” I shook my head and closed my eyes. He sighed before he pressed his lips back to mine. I kissed him back trying to shut off my mind. I was drunk. I didn't know what drunk felt like, but this had to be it. The room was spinning. My mind was racing.

His hands came over both my legs before he pushed up my shirt and his hand trailed under my bra. I shifted under him, just trying to focus on kissing him back. He bit down on my lip.

"You’re so.." He mumbled and his hand came over my breast. I shuttered uncomfortably under his touch. No one had ever touched me like this before. “Hot” he finished squeezing down on me. I felt my body freeze.

His hand trailed the bottom of my skirt and passed under it.

I tore my lips from his. “Jake, wait” I breathed looking up at him. He stared down at me. “Let me make you feel good” He responded shortly before kissing the side of my face. I felt my breath quicken as his hands went back behind my bra, attempting to unclip it.

"Jake" I pushed his hand away. His hand came out from under my shirt. I sat up and looked down as he climbed off me.

"What?" He asked from behind me. I swallowed and pulled my skirt down suddenly feeling sick to my stomach.

"What?" He asked again. I bit my lip and looked down shaking my head. Why am I freaking out? I was freaking out. I couldn’t do this. I was drunk. I was drunk. I was drunk.

He took in a hard breath.

"I just feel--I feel like--" I was choking on my words scared to even look back up at him. "It's a little fast for me. I-I-" Find your words. Find your words, Y/n. Don’t freak out.

"I've just drank and we shouldn't--"

"Why does that matter? Are you not not into me?" He spoke from behind me. I closed my eyes. I felt like my skin burned where he had touched me.

Plane rides, quiet nights, sleep

"I just-It's a little fast don't you think? I mean are we even together? I don’t know when we switched from friends to—" I stuttered turning and looking at him. He gapped at me and shook his head.

"We're having this conversation now?" He asked shaking his head.

"Well-I dont know? I’ve never done this. I don’t know what I’m doing” I shook my head.

"We're hooking up? Was that not what you wanted?" He said glaring at me. I could feel him start to get angry and my heart beat against my chest.

I looked down and my eyes watered. "I don't know what I want right now. I—" I shook my head. He took in a breath.

Reading, books, being sober.

"Are you kidding me?” I snapped. “Not what you want?” He snapped. “Y/n, it’s not that big of a deal” He shook his head. I just stared at the ground, unable to speak

"Is it that stupid mute kid? Is that what this is about? Did he get into your head?" He threw his hands up. I shook my head.

"Matt he's--"

"I gave you an in y/n. An in to my group--to a good highschool social life, you should thank me. Now you're sick of it? Now it’s too much?" He snapped. I swallowed and shook my head.

"I didn't realize--"

"What? Did you think I just liked hearing you talk?" He snapped. I closed my eyes and my hands came over my face. Disappear, Disappear.

"Do you know how many girl want to be in your postion right now? Do you know who I am to these people?" I stayed silent as I tried to swallow the lump in my throat.

“Jake I’m sorry” I whispered quietly. He took in a breath. “I didn’t mean to make you think-“ I turned to him.

"Come back or get out" He said. I looked up at him. He stared at me with a straight face. I opened my mouth before looking back down at my shoes.

I shook my head as I stood up off the bed and held in my emotions before I shut the door and walked down the stairs. I felt my eyes fill with tears as the loud music came back over my ears.

I swallowed as I blink just trying to focus, but I couldn’t. I couldn’t focus. I couldn’t even walk down the steps without gripping the railing. I closed my eyes. Why did I do this to myself?

I pushed off the railing.

“You’re fine you’re fine” I whispered shaking my head. I pushed through people. Outside, just get outside.

I stumbled against the door harshly as I ripped it open.

Jake’s words played in my mind. The way he gripped me.

And I threw up.

-

I don't know how I got here but I did. It's like my feet knew where I was going before I did. I cried most of the way here. I knew my mascara had to be running. The walk was shorter that I remembered. But I didn’t remember most of the walking itself.

It was zigzagged and blurry.

You could have told me I teleported here and I would have believed you. Everything was still fuzzy. I hope Matt wouldn’t be mad that I was here.

Would be mad?

Tears sprung to my eyes.

Matt mad.

I knocked on the door softly. I stood back and wiped my nose as I stared at the door. My ears still buzzing from the loudness of the party I was just at. I couldn’t think. I barely had a strain of thoughts.

I knew Matt didn’t want me to come here after the party. But I couldn’t go home. I just couldn’t. I stared at the door. No one was coming. I looked down.

I couldn’t walk all the way home now, there’s no way I would make it. I knocked again, harder.

“Please Matt” I whispered. Nothing. I bit my lip and sat down leaning against the door. I sighed as I brought my hands up to my face.

Don’t cry. Don’t cry.

Why did you ever go to that party without Matt? What were you thinking? You didn’t know those people? Matt was right. God Matt was so right it hurt.

A few seconds later I felt the door open the door opened, I fell back before I looked up

Matt looked down at me, his eyes and mouth wide. I quickly sat up and stumbled up to my feet. Matt reached out and steadied me. I blinked up at him, humiliation all over my face.

I looked down.

“Please don’t be mad at me” My eyes filled with tears. He sighed and dropped his hands from me as I reached up and wiped my tears.

I looked up at him.

“I didn’t have fun at the party” I shook my head. He closed his eyes as sadness filled his face. I walked forward before pressing my head against his chest and hugging him.

He froze against me as I tried to take in a deep breath. His arms finally rested around me. He sighed as he leaned his head over mine. His hands rubbing my back.

“Matt, I’m so stupid.” I mumbled against him. He pulled me back before looking down at me. I turned away from him.

“I don’t look—-pretty right now. Don’t look at me” I said reaching up and wiping my tears. He grabbed my hands before pushing them down and his thumbs came under my eyes before wiping away the tears, replacing my owns I just looked up at him. His eyes met mine and he gave a sad smile.

I sighed and he grabbed my arm before pulling me into the house. I stumbled slightly and I reached up for his arm.

“Matt I—I don’t feel good” I whispered. His eyes widened and he held me up.

“I’m sorry” I apologized as I leaned into him. "Please tell me Chris isn't-" I hiccuped. "--Here, he'll yell. I'm tired of....yelling" I sighed as we walked through the hallway. Matt furrowed his eyebrows and looked down at me.

Matt pulled me into his room before he let me go, I fell down onto my knees and whined, like I couldn’t hold up my own body weight. Matt bent down with wide eyes before pushing my face up. His eyes scanned my face, as if checking for any injuries.

"Please don't be mad" I said closing my eyes. "I'm really--" I swallowed. "Drunk" I sighed as I laid against the floor. I blinked up at him and he took in a breath, closing his eyes as he sat down on the floor next to me.

I stared up at the ceiling. His hand came over my head as he moved the hair from my face. I swallowed as I turned and looked at him. He smiled softly. I leaned into his hand.

“I don’t know why you like me so much” I whispered. He just bit his lip. “I’m sorry for being a bad friend” I whispered. He lifted his hand from me before grabbing my arms and pulling me to a sitting position.

"I want you to talk to me" I breathed staring up at him. He just stared at me. "I just want to hear your voice Matt. I-" I felt my eyes fill up with tears.

"Just please tell me you're not mad at me." I whined. He stood up before grabbing my arms and pulling me up to my feet. I fell against him and his arms came around my waist. I sighed as I looked up at him. He stared down at me.

"I know you didn't want me to come over, but I--" I bit my lip. “I didn’t have anywhere else to go” I whispered.

"I don't like Jake anymore" I whispered shaking my head. He just looked at me. "He's not..." I closed my eyes. "He's not nice" I laid my head against him. I let out a breath.

"He's not like you" I whispered. He froze against me breifly, I barely felt it with the room going in out a focus. I groaned against him. He grabbed my waist before walking me over to his bed, I fell against the sheet.

He moved to unlace my shoes and I just watched him as the threw them on the floor. He pulled the covers over my body and looked down at me. His hand slightly went to brush the hair out of my face, but he froze.

I reached up and grabbed his hand before pressing it to my face and leaning against his warmth. He just watched me as if he was suprised from my action.

“You know what’s werid…” I whispered. He raised his eyebrows as he looked down at me. “Jake said that you were into me” I swallowed. I felt Matt’s hand freeze.

“I told him that he was crazy because—-I would know right?” I looked up at him. He didn’t react. “I feel like I would know. Because you put all your emotions on your face” I looked up at him. He turned away his cheeks pinkening.

"Do you like being my friend?" I whispered. He looked down at me for a second before nodding. I leaned against the pillow, dropping his hand from my face, but still holding it.

"He said he didn't like hearing me talk" I mumbled. Matt watched me. I closed my eyes. "He didn't want me to talk" I breathed. Matt's eyebrows furrowed.

"Do you feel that way too? Do I talk too much?" I asked my eyes filling with tears. He shook his head instantly before kneeling beside the bed. I looked at him and shook his head more. I sighed.

"Your eyes are blue" I smiled as I looked over his eyes. He smiled and shook his head.

"Sometimes when I looked at Jake's eyes--I'd imagine your eyes instead. Isn't that insane?" I asked glancing over at him. He stared blankly at me his mouth slightly parted and his eyes glanced over mine.

Our faces were inches apart. I swallowed as I stared at him feeling bubbling in my stomach. I swallowed.

"Is that insane?" I asked softer. He shook his head his eyes not leaving mine. Silence filled the room around us. I felt my heart beating hard against my chest and I felt our hands more than I should.

We just looked at each other. Like the other person was the only other one in the world. I glanced down his face. From his glasses to the tip of his nose, to his parted lips.

I just watched him and before I knew it I leaned forward slightly. As if my body was begging me to close the few inches left between us.

I felt his lips graze mine, his slightly brushing against my own. Then before they actually touched, they were gone. I froze. I blinked my eyes open. He swallowed as he pulled his hand from mine and sat back.

He pulled back. He pulled away.

We just stared at each other, like the other was as equally shocked at the others movements. His eyes wide as he looked at me. He closed his eyes and looked down as guilt filled his face.

I felt embarrassment wash over me like a truck. I felt sick to my stomach.

He pulled back from connecting our lips.

I'd tried to kiss him and he pulled back.

He hadn't wanted to kiss me.

I sat up and looked down wrapping my arms around myself, unable to look at him. I felt like I was gonna throw up again.

"I'm so sorry. I-I don't know why I did that" I shook my head turning away from him so he didn't see the tears lining my eyes. The shear embarrassment that was radiating off my face.

For a second there was silence I could feel him looking at me. I closed my eyes wanting to disappear, wanting to punch myself in the face for everything I’ve done tonight. I felt like an idiot.

He stood up before taking in a breath.

He leaned over before writing something. He set it down next to me. I avoided looking at it as he walked out of the room.

I stared down at my hands as I felt a tear fall down the bridge of my nose as I heard the door shut. I reached up and wiped it.

I finally glanced at the paper sitting there once I knew he wasn't coming back.

get some sleep y/n

I closed my eyes and turned over hugging the covers too me, hoping this night would erase from my memory by the morning as I drifted off into sleep with Matt's scent surrounding me. As I slept in his bed, under his covers, without him.

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Last part of quiet💔 I wanted and needed more

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WHAT THE FUCK IS THIS SHIT

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He looks like a dad (a hot dad)