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𝚈𝙾𝚄𝚁 𝚅𝙸𝚂𝙸𝙾𝙽𝚂 𝙰𝚁𝙴 𝙰 𝙶𝙸𝙵𝚃 𝙵𝚁𝙾𝙼 𝙶𝙾𝙳 [ . . . ] independent, extremely private original character, josephine d’arcourt inspired by vera farmiga’s portrayal of lorraine warren. established in july of 2021. loved by jess. / carrd , promos ( x , x , x ) . / mun is 21+.
❝I can fix it.❞
' that's quite alright, dear. ' she smiles warmly, clearly unphased by the chips of broken porcelain on the ground. wordlessly, she disappears, before reemerging with a broom in manicured hands, ' it was old anyway— prob'ly picked it up at a church sale before the kids were born. nothin’ to worry about. '
ofmalice !
minerva’s eyes flutter shut. that ache, that sick pit in the bottom of her stomach, growing ever larger. a small shake coming to her frame. as things she’s never said aloud finally fall past her lips to the one person she knew would believe her — which was almost worse.
for minerva had tried for so long to believe it wasn’t real. yet here it was. it was almost as if jo was holding a mirror, minerva having to gaze into it and face the truth. face the past, really. face the visions and nightmares that had been plaguing at her since youth; almost clawing at her from the inside out for release. something inside her becoming too powerful to ignore. she opens her mouth to speak, but nothing more than a breath emerges. nothing minerva could even begin to say could convey the thoughts pouring and racing through her mind and out her veins. a cold mixture of fear and longing.
“I want to understand it, but I’m scared.” she whispers finally. lithe hand lifts the almost finished cigarette to crimson lips, finally looking to jo again. a timely plume of thick, dragon-like smoke emerging before she speaks again, shoulders lifting, “what if I … what happens … — what happens if I can’t stop it? whatever it even is? what if we’re wrong?”
her noses scrunches just a touch, not enough for the other woman to notice, as she waves a lingering cloud from in front of her face. there was a part of her that empathized with minerva. jo was no god, but she was gifted a divine power. perhaps there had been a time when she was afraid of it, but she can’t remember it now. faith had led josephine on the righteous path, and she’d always walked it with purpose, head held high despite the stones cast by others.
‘ do you trust her ? ’ she tilts her head, brows furrowed deep with worry.
she can’t say she was fond of the plan her daughter - in - law and husband had come up with. in fact, she hates it. her concern ran further than she would admit, though. her doubts could very well be one of the things standing between minerva and maleficent, and she couldn’t have that. she couldn’t be responsible. all she could do, was equip min with whatever wisdom she could offer.
‘ that’s the only way you’ll be able to do anything. you’re going to have to test your faith in a way you never have before. everything has built up to this, min. ’
ofmalice !
another day, another short-lipped argument with ev. they were always about next to nothing, some days it wasn’t even worth it. but others, minerva’s patience was too wore thin for her to ignore it. the principle of the matter. they’d never change. ev certainly never would, that was the very basis of their relationship. a day without some sort of quip would fall in tandem with rain in hell.
minerva’s hands arch up into claws and a loud huff comes from her frame. pure exasperation. the sound of the screen door slamming an unsurprising addition to the moment. their fights functioned like clockwork. this time, however, minerva hadn’t noticed that they’d been standing in front of the kitchen doorway. in clear view of the one woman neither would have willingly fought in front of had they not been pre-occupied. it’s evident when the speech causes minerva to jump.she settles fast. almost relieved it’d been jo, and not anyone else. though she can’t help the bit of a blush that crosses pale features.
“ she’s — she’s ev. ” that’s the best way minerva could phrase it. the only way, really. she laughs, head resting onto palm immediately, taking seat across from jo. the thought of ev as a child was so foreign to her. “ I love her so much, but my gods — she’s exhausting at times. ”
she sips her tea thoughtfully, listening— actually listening, not just pretending to, and she wonders where it came from, and when it happened. true, she knows her daughter’s grief well, she’d watch the worst of it play out before her very eyes. she wonders, though, when the light had died. it saddens her, but only so much, for as fast as she watched that light die, she’s watched it grow brighter, brighter every day. a sight she can thank no one else but minerva for.
‘ she’s . . . somethin’, that’s for sure. ’ she offers her a lighthearted smile, hoped to kill the frustration in the air with a simple joke. charlie was better at that than she was, though. instead, she focuses on the matter at hand. ‘ what was it about this time ? i’m no ‘ love guru ’, but i did marry the first man i ever dated and it’s worked out damn well for me so far. ’ her free hand rises to gesture quotation marks, a little laugh falling from her lips, warm and kind.
ANIMAL LAND by Alyssa Salomon
‘ take my hand, take my whole life too. ’
ofmalice !
@godfavored / @atrohphy ; ‘ my, what a peculiar place to have a party. ’
minerva was almost embarrassed by the way she jumps. the sound of the car door opening frightening more than she would have expected, even with the comforting voice that follows. immediately her sleeves are bunched into her grasp, wiping away the tears that had pooled along her cheeks. “ the hottest party in tangipahoa parish. ” minerva laughs sadly, regretting how she sniffles after.
she felt ridiculous. deeming herself like a child who’d had their feelings hurt. but since day one, eliza’s comments had dug deeper and deeper. she’d kept a straight face for jo’s sake. instinctively scared to rock the boat; to cause any trouble within the family she’d been so graciously welcomed into. there was only so much twisting of the knife that minerva could endure before she began to bleed. “ I’ll be back in a second, I’m sorry. ”
‘ well, honey, if you told us it was the hottest party in tangipahoa parish, we would all believe you. unless it was a thursday. that’s when we do the church potluck, and that is a party, babygirl. ’ she’s pointing at her, poking her shoulder lightly in emphasis on party. despite the spirited look playing in her eyes, she becomes a bit more sullen as she continues, ‘ i’m so sorry about all of that. it’s not fair to you, sweetheart. ’
ofmalice !
it was turning out to be another sleepless night. not the kind that came with new parenthood. they’d experienced a lot of those over the previous year, but this was different. minerva’s mind racing as she stares at a speck on the wall. listening to the soft sounds of ev and ro sleeping next to her. the distant hall clock ticking fading in and out. minerva finally peels herself from under the covers, and stands with a stretch. moving across the carpet with a quiet sense of purpose. her visions had grown tenfold since jo’s reappearance in their lives. something minerva was still grappling with. the gifts she possessed had always been a private affair, almost. something she was able to let bubble beneath the surface. jo had changed all of that. both for the better — and for the difficult.
it’s then that she hears the splash. attention brought to the window, minerva’s senses flare and burn at the sight before her: a child. in the lake, flailing its limbs as it struggles. she barely comprehends as she turns, breaking into a sprint — no, a full fledged run. moving through the old house, bare feet meet grass with a slam of the screen door behind her. there’s no question. no hesitation. minerva ripping her shirt from her frame, preparing herself for the embrace of cold water.
she hadn’t heard jo’s cries and pleads. everything, down to the wind, had been tuned out in an instant. a gasp rips from minerva’s frame as she’s seized. “ jo, stop ! jo, he’s … ” her eyes turn to the lake once again. still water. not even a single ripple. and it’s only then that minerva’s frame sinks back a bit, almost in horror. it takes what strength she had left for knees not to buckle beneath her. jo’s words finally register. it isn’t real. it was no longer flashes within her mind, shadows at the corners of her eyes — they were becoming much more than that. and the very thought made minerva’s stomach sick. oh, how the tides had turned. literally.
minerva’s chest begins to heave, shaking hands meeting jo’s elbows. “ he — I heard, I … I saw … ” a sentence can barely be formed. her body aches from the run as the adrenaline begins to subside. eyes meeting that of her mother-in-law’s for answers. for something. “ … jo? ”
‘ come inside, honey. please ? it’s cold out here and you’re half - naked. ’ she’s taking her own robe off, well more clothed beneath it than her daughter had been without it. hands make quick work of wrapping it around minerva, one hanging behind after the work was done to gently run through the younger woman’s hair.
behind that motherly instinct, though, her heart was racing, thumping loudly against her ribcage and echoing in her ears. it had been so long since he’d paid their family a visit. he’d stuck around after taking her youngest son, but they thought he was gone. father richard said he — it didn’t matter, though. at least, that was what she thought. she knows what minerva had seen was real, her family knew that more than anything.
her gaze turns up, a sigh releasing from her chest as she pulls minerva into another hug, cradling her head against her shoulder. something catches her eye, though, in her bedroom window. it was charlie, looking down at them, awful concerned at what he was seeing. their eyes meet momentarily, a nod exchanged between them before he walks off. min didn’t need the whole family up and worried right now. she needed her mama, goddamn it. he knew that, and so he sat in his chair upstairs and waited for her to return, though he worried what he would hear when that moment came.
in the meantime, jo pulls away, keeping an arm around her shoulders as she shifts to min’s side. she’s nudging gently towards the porch, the light on in the kitchen— waiting for them.
thinkin about how, starting thursday, i’ll be only working one job again.
*eyes emoji*
@godfavored sent: ❛ makin’ me crazy from mornin’ to evenin’. ❜
beavis stands there for a moment, unsure of what to do. usually, he breaks things on purpose and he gets kicked out—fair enough. he can’t argue with that logic, but this was totally on accident and he’s afraid he’s in for it now. ‘ i’m sorry! ’ it’s one thing to suffer the consequences he brings on himself, but an entirely different thing when it’s unintentional. ‘ it was just so, like, slippery that i just— ’ bending over, he begins picking up the pieces. he cannot go to another foster home again.
neverscored !
beavis stands there for a moment, unsure of what to do. usually, he breaks things on purpose and he gets kicked out—fair enough. he can’t argue with that logic, but this was totally on accident and he’s afraid he’s in for it now. ‘ i’m sorry! ’ it’s one thing to suffer the consequences he brings on himself, but an entirely different thing when it’s unintentional. ‘ it was just so, like, slippery that i just— ’ bending over, he begins picking up the pieces. he cannot go to another foster home again.
‘ oh, hon, i was just messin’ with ya. ’ she didn’t expect that reaction, much accustomed to her own childrens’ reaction to their banter. an apologetic hand rests on his shoulder momentarily, a signal to halt what he was doing. ‘ don’t worry about that, i can clean it up. i don’t want you to cut yourself. ’ no time is wasted in grabbing the broom and dustpan, just a few steps out of arms reach as she starts slowly sweeping up the debris. ‘ it’s just a plate. nothin’ worth gettin’ upset over, huh ? ’
‘ take my hand, take my whole life too. ’
As much as I hate this website sometimes, I’m so grateful that it allowed me to meet people I never would’ve crossed paths with in real life.
𝐇𝐀𝐋𝐒𝐄𝐘'𝐒 — 𝐈𝐅 𝐈 𝐂𝐀𝐍'𝐓 𝐇𝐀𝐕𝐄 𝐋𝐎𝐕𝐄, 𝐈 𝐖𝐀𝐍𝐓 𝐏𝐎𝐖𝐄𝐑 ( 𝟐𝟎𝟐𝟏 ) / feel free to change pronouns as you see fit !
THE TRADITION
❛ she’s easy on the eyes. ❜
❛ her soul is black and it’s a fact. ❜
❛ so take what you want, take what you can, take what you please. ❜
❛ ask for forgiveness, never permission. ❜
❛ It’s in the blood and this is tradition. ❜
❛ they dress her up in golden crowns, her smile hides a lie. ❜
❛ you can take it back it’s good as gone. ❜
❛ this is your soul, i hope what’s left will last all summer long. ❜
❛ they said that boys were boys but they were wrong. ❜
BELLS IN SANTE FE
❛ don’t call me by my name, all of this is temporary. ❜
❛ watch as i step away, for your sake. ❜
❛ maybe i can hold you in the dark. ❜
❛ leaving through the door without a word. you won’t even notice, little bird. ❜
❛ better off dead, so i reckon i’m heading to hell instead. ❜
❛ don’t wait for me, it’s not a happy ending. ❜
❛ to sort out all his bullshit, to figurе out the treason ❜
❛ jesus, you’ve got better lips than judas. ❜
❛ i could give you bad one, otherwise i’m useless. ❜
❛ ‘cause who the fuck would choose this? ❜
EASIER THAN LYING
❛ i’m only whatever you make me. ❜
❛ you make me more and more a villain every day. ❜
❛ you don’t know you reap, you sow. ❜
❛ whatever you give to me from yourself you take. ❜
❛ well if you’re a hater then hate the creator, it’s in your image i’m made. ❜
❛ ‘cause i’ll hang myself if you’d give me rope. ❜
❛ i got so much faith and lost all hope. ❜
❛ one eye broken and one eye bruised, ‘cause I gave myself away for you. ❜
❛ you liar, you don’t love me too. ❜
❛ my heart is massive but it’s empty. ❜
❛ gasping for some real attention, some undivided hypertension. ❜
❛ losing you is easier than lying to myself. ❜
LILITH
❛ i’m perfection when it comes to first impressions. ❜
❛ you got me thinkin’ that i was too mean. ❜
❛ everything that I say I believe. ❜
❛ tuck a knife with my heart up my sleeve. ❜
❛ i am disruptive, i’ve been corrupted. ❜
❛ by now I don’t need a fuckin’ introduction. ❜
❛ you know I get too caught up in the moment. ❜
❛ i can’t call it love if i show it. ❜
❛ i just fuck things up if you notice. ❜
❛ have you noticed? tell me, have you noticed? ❜
❛ now i’m wondering if i ever wanted to hold you. ❜
❛ you’d let anybody with a body control you, and you know it too. ❜
❛ the more that you have, the more that they’ll take. ❜
GIRL IS A GUN
❛ i’m not your daydream, i won’t have your baby. ❜
❛ it’s a shot in the dark, i’m not a walk in the park. ❜
❛ this girl is a gun, and we been havin’ some fun. ❜
❛ i can show you if you turn the lights on. ❜
❛ i keep waitin’ for love to come and swallow me up. ❜
❛ I feel better when the boys stop callin’. ❜
❛ this girl is a gun, before you know it, it’s done. ❜
❛ god is a gun, he can have what he wants. ❜
❛ let me show you how to touch my trigger. ❜
❛ makin’ me crazy from mornin’ to evenin’. ❜
❛ i can’t not take it, i love it, i break it. ❜
❛ it’s never enough, so I’m givin’ you up. ❜
YOU ASKED FOR THIS
❛ i don’t know what you want from me. ❜
❛ now what the fuck does all this mean? ❜
❛ my tears are falling flawlessly now. ❜
❛ go on and be a big girl, you asked for this now. ❜
❛ who the hell is in your bed? ❜
❛ you gotta kiss goodnight and give some head. ❜
❛ i want my cake on a silver plater, i want a fistful in my hands. ❜
❛ i want a beautiful boy’s despondent laughter. ❜
❛ i wanna ruin all my plans. ❜
❛ i want a fist around my throat. ❜
❛ i wanna cry so hard, i choke. ❜
❛ i want everything i ask for. ❜
DARLING
❛ really can’t remember where i left my spine. ❜
❛ maybe I’ll be better if I take my meds. ❜
❛ darling don’t you weep, there’s a place for me. ❜
❛ somewhere we can sleep, see you in your dreams. ❜
❛ ever since i was a little girl i found this sweet. ❜
❛ all the little flowers give me something to believe in. ❜
❛ never knew the feeling of a stable home, been a couple years of living on the road. ❜
❛ only you have showed me how to love me in a life. ❜
❛ until it’s time to see the light, i’ll make my own with you each night. ❜
❛ i’ll kidnap all the stars and i will keep them in your eyes. ❜
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❛ i won’t die for love, but i’ve got a body here to bury. ❜
❛ the parts of myself that i’ve hated… i can’t tell which ones are mine and which I created. ❜
❛ you could have my heart and i would break it for you. ❜
❛ i try to be careful with the thing inside my chest. ❜
❛ so you can forget me , i’ll leave if you let me. ❜
❛ please don’t leave, don’t leave me in the shape you left me. ❜
❛ just leave me in the place you found me safe and soundly. ❜
HONEY
❛ she’s on the tip of my tongue, she’s on the top of my thighs. ❜
❛ open your mouth, i got a surprise. ❜
❛ all i can taste is the blood in my mouth and the bitterness in goodbye. ❜
❛ drippin’ like honеy, down the back of my throat and on the front of my mind. ❜
❛ she stings like she means it, she’s mean and she’s mine. ❜
❛ i love every second, it’s fuckin’ fantastic ❜
❛ she’s hell in a basket just makin’ a racket. ❜
❛ good things aren’t easy to get, i know that i won’t regret you. ❜
❛ between my fingers, she leaves then she lingers. ❜
WHISPERS
❛ you sabotage the things you love the most. ❜
❛ this is the voice in your head that says, “you do not want this”. ❜
❛ this is the ache that says, “you do not want him”. ❜
❛ bet I could fuck him. ❜
❛ why do you need love so badly? ❜
❛ i’ve got a monster inside me. ❜
❛ isn’t it lonely? ❜
❛ think that you know me? you think that you could if you hold me? ❜
❛ think you could try to console me, but i do not know me. ❜
I AM NOT A WOMAN, I’M A GOD
❛ i am not a woman, i’m a god. ❜
❛ i am not a martyr, i’m a problem. ❜
❛ i am not a legend, i’m a fraud. ❜
❛ keep your heart, 'cause i already got one. ❜
❛ every day i’ve got a smile where my frown goes. ❜
❛ maybe i could be a different human in a new place. ❜
❛ i just wanna feel something, tell me where to go. ❜
❛ i stay right herе 'cause i’m better all alonе. ❜
❛ i never listen but i see you with my eyes closed. ❜
❛ it really does hurt when you love someone. ❜
THE LIGHTHOUSE
❛ from a tender age i was closed with rage. ❜
❛ i went swimming with the devil at the bottom of a lake. ❜
❛ he was tall and mean with venom eyes so green. ❜
❛ i’ll allure you like a landslide and I’ll show you lovely things. ❜
❛ he kissed me on the mouth and dug his fingers in my thighs. ❜
❛ a sailor ain’t a savior 'cause they only tell you lies. ❜
❛ he’s laying in the water, begging god to let him down. ❜
❛ i showed him all my teeth and then i laughed out loud. ❜
❛ i never wanted saving, i just wanted to be found. ❜
❛ that should teach a man to mess with me. ❜
❛ i’m glad i met the devil 'cause he showed me i was weak, and a little piece of him is a little piece of me. ❜
YA’ABURNEE
❛ i can’t decide if i love you more at morning or i love you more at night. ❜
❛ the moon don’t pick sides and the sun won’t resign until you’re by my side. ❜
❛ your beauty is a blessing. ❜
❛ i never got to tell you how i lovеd the way my eyes makе yours look green. ❜
❛ i think we could live forever in each others faces. ❜
❛ if we don’t live forever maybe one day we’ll trade places. ❜
❛ darling, you will bury me before i bury you. ❜
❛ i’ll never know if there’s danger in confession. ❜
❛ it’s memory that presses like a blade against my throat. ❜
❛ or to die without revealing that you got inside my head. ❜
❛ love is just a currency so take my pockets, and take me home. ❜
❛ take my life, and take my soul, wrap me in a wedding ring. ❜
anghrist !
“ 𝐥𝐢𝐬𝐭𝐞𝐧, 𝐦𝐚’𝐚𝐦. whatever you’re thinking right now, you’re wrong. “
there is a smile, so gentle in its nature, but brimming with a worry that she can’t place. still, jo is hardly one to place judgement— it wasn’t her job. ‘ you sound mighty sure that you know what i’m thinkin’ right now. ’ she lets off a soft chuckle, a single, soft exhale of her breath, ‘ any particular reason why ? ’
