me. My self. and I.

[ascendintomadness]

NashaMahkutHa

YDG (via ascendintomadness)

“I am the darkness”

(via ascendintomadness)

[ascendintomadness]

MahkutNasha

YDG (via ascendintomadness)

“We are the Light.”

(via ascendintomadness)

[godfrey-devyn-yamikai]

[ascendintomadness]

I am Nephilim Made Grigori. I am atomic Microbic Gigantic When I Need. I am a Titan, A force of nature, When I am Freed. Sometimes, when I am Only stretching my legs, I leave this World Utterly wrecked. Legion: We move together. My friends In here Have had to weather My falls And storms The hurricane That is Me.

YDG (Left Hand of God)

[ascendintomadness]

“I am a spiritual being who fell in love with Reason. A being of pure Passion pressed through the fine mesh of logics. I am Chaos dreaming of Order: a mere feeling whose jealousy of the rational concepts borne long after knows no bounds.”

- Envy, Benevolent And Benign Higher Beings: A Guide To Friends In Higher Places

[ascendintomadness]

“I am at once the beast, howling for your throat betwixt my teeth, and the hand which restrains that beast for love of you and yours.“ 

- Ambivalence, Benevolent and Benign Higher Beings: A Guide To Friends In Higher Places

[ascendintomadness]

Never alone

“Precious One, have they hurt You?”

“Yes.” Devyn said, weeping.

“Then I’m burning it down. All of it.”

“Are you sure that’s wise, brother?” Godfrey asked.

“Damn sure. Don’t condescend to me, Little Brother. This heart is mine to save, for better or worse.”

Devyn interjected: “please. Burn it all down.”

“Consider it done, Precious One.”

[ascendintomadness]

The flames were quite a sight to behold: jet black and yet they burned hotter than any this world had experienced before them. Yamikai was not joking, nor lying, nor hesitant: his Child was wounded: this is War. He gave no quarter. Prisoners were not the objective. Only vengeance and justice and pain and retribution and Death. Horrifying, painful, instantaneous entropy. For better or worse, they burned for their transgressions.

[ascendintomadness]

We are the Grigori, now. Take pride.

[godfrey-devyn-yamikai]

I'm calling you from the future To let you know we made a mistake And there's a fog from the past That's giving me, giving me such a headache And I'm back with a madness I'm a champion of the people who don't believe in champions I got nothing but dreams inside I got nothing but dreams

FoB

[ascendintomadness]

The folds in my brain, If seen, Would drive You insane. We’ll see. you And I, Together. Call on me, Whenever. Just do not, For the love of God, Try to figure Me out: Just focus On the art I spout. Find You, In Me. Find Us. Find We

YDG (via ascendintomadness)

[ascendintomadness]

Visit Original Link

Did my first reading. Bend an ear, if you would.

[ascendintomadness]

Apollyon, who is the key to the void:tartarus:abyss

“I will have my day in the Sun. I will bathe in the light and soak it all in until this emptiness passes: even if it means there is no more Sun to shine. I just want an ending as I was only constructed for the end of another. My core is the key. I am meant to cast the great serpent into the abysmal pit of eternal nothingness. I refuse to be what I am. I just want it to end. All of it. By any means necessary.”

-Apollyon, from “The Martyred Race”

[ascendintomadness]

I was born in the fires of necessity

I rose again and again until the flames could no longer burn my flesh. Sure, it still hurts like hell, but I’ve got my sights set on the elysian fields.

[ascendintomadness]

Magics Reborn

It could have been midnight with the way the sky blackened that day… or maybe it was. I kinda lost track of time that night and every after. The only things I can really recall vividly are the two hands in mine and the sounds of the rest of the circle, but then.. I think I.. oh god, no, not that! That snap, the vertigo I felt when the sky opened. Most of them were gone in an instant, to gods know where. And i, I was scattered.

What have we done?

[ascendintomadness]

What have I done? What am I now? If anything. Alone is the only thing I am for sure. For now.

But I won’t fade out. I won’t go quietly. Not now or ever. I. I’ll be me again, I just have to remember how.

[ascendintomadness]

The bargain and the plea

Brothers and sisters, I’ve gathered you here today because this world is wounded!

If you agree, then hear me out; otherwise, take your leave.

There was a time when we knew that we did not know. A time where we embraced myth and legend. A time where we banded together against all the darkness and tried to be the light. I fear, sometimes, that this time has passed. Things have gotten so grey because they are. Yet we still insist on black and white depictions.

Maybe if we could all just remember what the light really looked like, then we could recapture it and keep it going like we should have all along. I believe I have an idea of how to do this. Make your stand here, with me or alone, but make your stand. I think it’s more than time for myths and legends to return, and you can help…

[ascendintomadness]

Never alone

“Precious One, have they hurt You?”

“Yes.” Devyn said, weeping.

“Then I’m burning it down. All of it.”

“Are you sure that’s wise, brother?” Godfrey asked.

“Damn sure. Don’t condescend to me, Little Brother. This heart is mine to save, for better or worse.”

Devyn interjected: “please. Burn it all down.”

“Consider it done, Precious One.”

[ascendintomadness]

[Rough Draft] Part 23: down on my head

“I work all night, for one more day that I can say I’m all alone.”

I know how it looks from the outside if you don’t know my every action: “he doesn’t submit to the fascist, capatilistic bureaucracy. Where is his paper trail? Isn’t he a man?”

I am, though. I take care of the house. I work when I find it. I write as much as I can. I take care of everyone I’m able. I’m trying to reach out to other introverted artists. I’m trying to reach out to other mentally ill. I’m trying to reach out to anyone who feels alone. I’m trying, as best as I’m able. But at this rate, I’m killing myself doing it. If one more person says “well, it’s not that big of a deal, why didn’t you get it done?” I just might scream and belt it out: “Because the moment I stopped to take a breath someone called, or emailed, or txted, or cried, or hurt… or maybe I just remembered someone was in pain and reached out because I felt GUILTY for relaxing for more than 5 minutes when they are hurting!”

It’s just how I am. If I indulge my selfishness like that again, I may never find my way back. Addiction isn’t something you get over, it’s something you fight. Mental illness isn’t something you get over, it’s something you fight. The suffering of your loved ones isn’t something you get over, it’s something you fight. Every day is a struggle and I bear every burden that others will allow. So yeah, I didn’t finish the dishes, but maybe I had life or death on my mind and I was certain no one else was stepping up.

Every time I close my eyes, I feel them screaming, reaching out for help, even if no one wants to ask. Independence doesn’t mean you can’t have help. I’m always here. But stop telling me I’m wasting my life or that I’m doing nothing. I know what I’m doing and so many people in my life made me doubt myself for so long. Now that I have proof that I’m not a fluke, they still claim I’m not doing enough. I just… need a breath. Please.