SERAPHIM

- Deity x Fox - 23 | THEY/GODS/VAMP - Wolf x Vamp -

[godpaws]

Huff. Growl, wuufwuufwuff wuuff wuffwuff huff huff. Rolls over and paws at you and bares my teeth and bites the air in front of you.

(I love you. <3)

[two-facedgod]

I know you miss home, but try to remember everything this world has to offer - take it from a god who's been on this planet since the beginning. We've got thunderstorms, city lights, and peanut butter and jelly sandwiches. You can listen to Nirvana, eat sushi, kiss your loved ones, and read comic books. Explore the forests. Lay out on the beach and get some sun. Get lost in the urban jungle. Earth is a beautiful and terrible place - I don't want you to miss out.

[godpaws]

Got my paws dirty doing some DIY with Monster cans! I've never done it before, but figured it would be fun to do something with them all. I think it turned out white cute and charming, haha. I don't have Monster often, but when I do, I'll try to remember to cut the cans up as needed to keep adding more to these. I saved some tabs too, but I don't know exactly what to do with those. A necklace, maybe?

If anyone knows the tab meanings, I got 3 kisses and 1 hug. LOL, so cute.

I love being alternative, and being fun with it.

[two-facedgod]

Alterhumanity really is an iceberg. Like at the surface you have your wolf therians, otherhearted, angelkin, etc., which people are generally aware of... but if you dig deep enough and long enough you'll find blogs for people who don't exist, unknown gods with two faces and too many eyes, and tropical centipedes in human form.

I mean I just love it.

[godpaws]

And this isn’t even to explain how those “surface” ones have intense layers within them, too. Ones who are more or less shapeshifters simply appearing as those animals, ones who are of breeds long thought to be gone or don’t exist in Earthly writing, ones of species that many have never heard of, crossbreeds and forms of something divine landing in the overall shape of something ‘familiar’ (like me). Angels of rungs and choirs unheard of, names purely made from the realms they come from. They are’t such “surface” things at all. There is so much variety, nuance, and deepness in it all.

It’s all wonderful, it’s such a community of beings to live forever.

[almosthumanbutnotquite]

Remember!!!!

Get up and stretch your paws, talons, claws etc

Drink some water! All creatures gotta drink

Eat some yummy food and fill your stomach!

Rest when you need, all creatures need to rest

It’s okay to have bad days!

Take your meds if needed!

You are your kin/theriotype!

If you need a break, Take it!!!

Happy days to all you creatures out there!

[the-ever-swirling-storm]

one does not realize the extent of their dysphoria until they have been to lay in the rain and remembered that this form is simply a container for sensations.

i have been myself, in my many shapes, and i will be again. but for now i am held within this vessel to experience things that i ordinarily cannot, both joyous and wretched.

[godpaws]

Sometimes I feel like sleeping without a blanket is like being in nature, within my controlled den. If my den is to be safest and ideal, I should be just as comfy napping without a blanket too. Also it makes me feel more animalistic, like I have chosen this batch of land to rest upon. I lie down my weary head and will doze, imagining the feel of grass on my fur and the sunlight as my cover.

[motherofmisfits]

It's interesting how a lot of people who hate deitykins, godkins, divinekins, etc always default to calling them egotistical.

To them, the identity has to be about being self-centered. And first off, I don't see what's wrong with that. Whether they identify that way because they are "self-centered", or they have a disorder that makes them identify as or feel like a God, or any other reason, that's valid. What does it matter? Reasons do not mean action. Why they identify that way is not guaranteeing how they will act. So why assume they must be "evil" and "manipulative"?

Second off, at least in my experience, I feel quite the opposite way. My deitykin identity makes me feel worse about myself oftentimes. (As in how I experience it, not the act of identifying with that label.)

Because all I can think as I look at the state of the world is- "If I just had my powers, if I just had my deity abilities, I could fix it. I could help so many people. I could save so many. I could make it better."

And maybe by definition that is egotistical. To think I alone can change the world. But it isn't in the way people assume it would be. I don't feel pride. Just guilt. Guilt at not being able to do what I could if I was my deity self. I don't identify as a deity because I think so highly of myself. Instead, sometimes I feel so low about myself because I'm a deity. Because I'm a deity who can't do anything godlike.

If that sounds "evil", then that's fine.

Besides, as I said, I think it's fine if those who identify with such labels do so for "evil" reasons.

It's just so interesting and one of the many ways you can see a disconnect from those forming such harsh opinions and those who actually identify as such.

[godpaws]

Godpaws approved. <33333

[godpaws]

Strange ??? phantom shift ??? I am and have been a wolf today, albiet a little blurry about it all, but still wolf. Yet for some reason I just had a phantom limb feeling of my ears, so tall and pointed, black like the rest of me. But typically, when I am in my fox form do I have excessively long, pointed ears. In wolf, it's fairly smaller and round, more akin to the ones that live on Earth.

Head tilt... what was that? Maybe it was some odd mixture of the two? I really do not think I have pointy ears such as that as a wolf...?? Am I shifting and it's taking forever to transition from wolf to fox?

[godpaws]

I wish there was more of a way to react in a canine way with the body I operate in. Many times I wish to bury my muzzle into my paws, huff and snarl softly to show distaste and frustration, but I am at work, or in public with others. There is no good equivalent other than glaring, and I already have an awful ARF (angry resting face, so many times humans ask if I'm okay or mad at something). But I want to swish my tail in annoyance, I want to bare my teeth at things I dislike, I want to smack my paws and sneeze for attention, I want to growl with my chest and it be enough for others to know to step back.

Aahhhjhgnnmmm. Huffs and lies my snout on my paws. Godwolf is not very happy.

[godpaws]

Wolf typing messag with pawss. More at 11

[godpaws]

I can feel myself so bristled. Everything is on edge, and won’t calm down. My tail is a mess, wrapped half around me. I can’t lie down, I can’t be comfortable. I sit here upright, my ears pinned to my head. I just don’t want to deal with feeling like this anymore. I want to go home.

[godpaws]

Wishing I had fleshy, skin-like bat wings, instead of feathered. Usually, vampires are associated with those, and sometimes I feel less of an 'obvious' vampire for having feathered wings. I could change my form to have those types, but it's been a habit for my form to always adopt feathered ones, and a conscious effort to change them. Still, I love to surround myself with bat-like wings, via images, emotes, and even wear items featuring bat wing items. Just to get the point across.

[godpaws]

Have always had the most annoying tic… but something I notice is that I always shake my head and huff, like a wolf, after. It’s so silly. Sometimes it sucks, especially when it happens often in a row… but if I can humor my experience a little to feel more okay with it, then I always will. *Tail wag.

[godpaws]

I miss my wings. I miss my wings. I miss my wings. I miss my wings. I miss my wings. I miss my wings. I miss my wings. I miss my wings. I miss my wings. I miss my wings. I miss my wings. I miss my wings. I miss my wings. I miss my wings. I miss my wings. I miss my wings.

[godpaws]

God is a rabid beast and that God is I.

[godpaws]

I feel like I am in and out of self awareness. This dissociation is killing me. Nothing feels like a thing, but I know I am unhappy with this.

Already, am I unnatural in a human body. This experience just exacerbates that, makes it so much worse. I just want to crawl out of this body I don't even inhabit and then go into the forests around me. Venture for a rock, a fallen stump, anything to lie on. And rest. Look at the stars and moon, and admire where I once was.

God is not from here. And they need to go back. Please, let the discomfort end.