Leave me alone

"If it's not the end of the world, why do you bother me? Hell even if we were facing apocalypse ... I'd only make it happen faster. So, why don't you just leave me alone, human?" Tracking: godsheretic Crossover friendly M!A friendly AU friendly

[catastrophicallybroken]

I need you. Completely. Entirely. Just you. From head to toe. Inside and out. Your heart is beautiful and I’m completely in love with you, In every single way. I’ll want you every day forever.

(via catastrophicallybroken)

[xh-aunting]

I haven’t taken a single easy breath since you’ve been gone, because I’d rather die from your last remaining touch, than be left in a world without your smile on my lips.

I’m so fucking sorry (via crowntheloganx)

[vaccaant]

i destroy everything i touch. i’m sorry.

[imsorryforthedustywords]

Dusty Words

Promises seemed to be so much You didn’t have to act so tough But that never surprised me I miss you standing by me.

But it’s no fault of yours. I’m sorry for the dusty words.

I Should of told you sooner How you brightened up my day. I’m always at a loss for words with so much left to say.

But it’s not fault of yours. I’m sorry for the dusty words.

Knowing you, I’m a better person for it. And I’m writing this because I should have known better than to have ruined it.

But it’s no fault of yours. I’m sorry for the dusty words.

I never should have climbed down from the pedestal I was placed on. And now I realize how much I hurt you, every second you choose to be gone.

But it’s no fault of yours. I’m sorry for the dusty words.

You always said you’ve lived a full, long life with no regrets to think of. But there’s a million things I’d say and change, if given the chance even just once.

But it’s no fault of yours. I was supposed to be one of the few people who didn’t hurt you.

But it is no fault of yours, I’m living with this grief I’ve caused myself.

It’s no fault of yours, that I lost the one person I would die for.

You know, It’s no fault of yours. It rests squarely in my hands. I’d take away the hurt, the pain, if I was only given the chance.

But, There I go again. I’ve said too much, my friend. It’s been bottled up so long, I do apologize for the dust.

[yanilavigne]

[danicalifoornia-deactivated2022]

[alone-in-the-darkness-forever]

Trust me, believe me - I am sorry .. on We Heart It - http://weheartit.com/entry/130475306

[idrawsilver]

so true

[angie16mc]

[gods-heretic]

Important PSA

I can’t continue this blog or any other. I’m sorry for anyone who is currently RPing with me, was looking forward to it or just followed me. This place has nothing left for me but memories. I don't know if I return. If you want to know more read under the cut, but you'll find no relief. This is my final decision and even if I return, I'll have changed.

I’m sorry I have made a grave mistake that can’t possibly be redone and while I think it doesn’t concern you, you at least have the right to roughly understand why I leave.

I am a huge idiot who wanted attention. Wanted to be interesting and lied because of that. It was a single lie and it was even partly true, but it was a lie nonetheless and right now it might be the most foolish, asinine thing I’ve ever done and will probably ever do.

If everything starts with a lie, there’s a point where you can’t return anymore. You have to go on because there is no way out. With this I have hurt a person who liked me while I promised that I wouldn’t do that.

I’m typing this as everything crumbles but please, my dear reader, don’t worry about me. I’m not going to do anything foolish. I would never think of taking the easy way out. I am not going to get a depression. I am sad and will stay so for a long time, but I won’t do anything foolish.

I have probably just destroyed everything. And if it would only affect me I could live with that but this mistake was severe and I’m sorry. It doesn't matter what I say, I can't change the past.

I won’t forgive myself for being the asshole I was. I’ve always been introvert and social inept but I never made such a bullshit. I don't even know how I could let it come that far.

I’m sorry for anyone I hurt. If it helps in the last, everything but this one lie was spoken truthfully but it’s too much of a deception. I wish I could go back and change thst little detail, but I can't and am deeply sorry.

You know that feeling when you’ve broken the vase your grandmother loved because it was invaluable? Fuck that. It doesn’t even remotely compare.

But the worst part is not that I made myself unhappy. I have my experience with that and will go on. But I hurt a person who cared for me and I become nauseous at the thought. In fact I was unable to write this in one session because of the nausea.

I deeply and sincerely apologize. But congratulations, you have probably been following the biggest idiot on this site.

I’m sorry but please take this as an example and learn from it. Rather be boring and honest. You build everything on a lie and everything will crumble. Don’t think your smart enough. I am intelligent. Well above average if you can believe it, but that didn't keep me from acting like an idiot. Lies always outgrow us.

Even if it is a single one.

I apologize.

[scxrycarrie-achieve-deactivated]

Don’t tell            { me }                  I’m not a                         m o n s t e r.                              I know the                                      { truth } 

[ai-in-the-white-coat-blog-deact]

Secret Services

[ai-in-the-white-coat-blog-deact]

His movement shook her out of her thoughts. She frowned a little and looked up at him.

"According to this, you have an extremely high red blood cell count. Also, since you are apparently healthy and not suffering from this, it is also to be assumed you have an advanced circulatory system. If only I could dissect you…ahem. Well, I have once more test I would like to perform."

She reached into her coat and pulled out a small pack and snapped it open, revealing a cotton swab on the end of a stick.

"I would like to swab the inside of your cheek with this, so that I may see your cells. I have a feeling a clue may lie there."

She only hoped he wouldn’t be so annoying as to bite her or the stick while she got her sample.

[gods-heretic]

"Sorry, but the dissection has to wait, you can do that once I’m dead which shouldn’t happen soon", he said with an unnoticed tinge of sadness. He’d gladly leave this life behind.

Rasar couldn’t help but furrow his brows. There were wrinkles on his forehead as he wondered at the question. That made no sense at all

"You have my blood, why do you need anything else? Shouldn’t it tell you all you need to know?"

Blood was the best source of information after all. There science was so far, yet they knew nothing

"Do as you please" , he said and opened his mouth.

[devorps-deactivated20140708]

dear current and future rp partners: i’m going to go days without replying to you, please don’t take it personally.

[gods-heretic]

Traces

[serenaceylen-deactivated2023041]

"I see," she just replied with a puff. Serena actually couldn’t see why anyone would ever possibily just do nothing but wait for something to happen. But probably, that wasn’t some rare thing, so she didn’t comment. Nay, she stayed silent for as long as she could. 

At some point though, she started wondering again how much time had they spent walking, ‘cause she was beginning to feel tired. “Hey, can we rest a bit?” she asked softly after a couple of minutes of thinking.

[gods-heretic]

Ah, that had to happen of course. Luckily she didn't see the annoyed look on his face. This was absolutely the reason why he normally worked alone. The sort of people who would keep up with him was very rare and most often those had their own intentions and would betray him without second thought.

"Sure, I promised you that", Rasar said, "let's see if we can find a somewhat dry spot down here."

Now finding a dry place in the sewers was no small challenge since they weren't intended to home people. There best chance would be to find a dead end. Sometimes they build parts that were never really used. One might have planned to build houses there once, but then maybe someone decided that it'd be better to have another parking lot.

He closed his eyes and tried to sense whether there was such a place. After all, moving water was energy so he should be able to feel a lack thereof. However, the sewers were so full of movement, life and other biological process that he couldn't find anything. His brows furrowed while he search, but after a few moment he gave up. All this time in this world had made him sluggish. He wasn't using magic anymore on a regular basis, so it wasn't surprising that he wasn't in his best form.

"If we don't find something in the next ten minutes, we'll just have to improvise."

[affectuxforti]

Send me a ( . )( . ) for my muse's reaction to seeing yours shirtless.

[gods-heretic]

Two more souls hear the heresy

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((OOC Thanks for following Rasar. I'll gladly plot something with you, but I don't really like random starters because they rarely lead to a good story. So just message me, if you want to RP and we'll find something :D))

[ai-in-the-white-coat-blog-deact]

Secret Services

[ai-in-the-white-coat-blog-deact]

Ai listened well as she continued her handiwork. All set, ready to be examined. She pulled out a freshly centrifuged tube and blinked in shock. Wait, that can’t be right…his hematocrit level was quite high. Frowning, she pulled another tube to confirm. It, too, was far over the normal 45%.

Ai smirked. Interesting.

She placed one tube back so that it wouldn’t fall over, and took the other to the microscope. She placed a drop onto a slide and then slid it under. Ai almost reeled back. It was a much busier sample than normal. Although that should have been expected…

Ai stood up and shot a look at Rasar. Well, seeing as he didn’t suffer from polycythemia, she supposed his circulatory system must be quite advanced. Honestly, if the Organization got a hold of him…although he didn’t seem like the obedient type so that might end very badly for them too.

Ai said nothing, thoughts flying.

[gods-heretic]

"Now I take it that you actually found something that’s unusual, didn’t you?", Rasar said and stood up again. The look she gave him told enough.

He walked over to her and looked at the instruments and his samples. Normally he’d be worried if someone used his blood for experiments but this was hardly a threat.

"Do you care to share your insights with me? I must confess that I’ve never had my blood analyzed with modern means before." Rasar doubted that her findings would really help him with anything. It might explain some things he suspected but it wouldn’t change the reality.

Still he was rather curious about her blood as well. He had an idea what he’d have to look for but that was a very weak idea. He ran a finger over the flawless surface of the glass marble that held her blood. He felt it vibrating under his touch, felt the resonance of her body. Yes, blood was a powerful link but he’d wait some more before he examined it. That needed his fullest attention.