What was I made for~ &Team
In which a nightmare brings K's insecurities to life
Kx&team Kxreader, reader is tenth member of &team, female reader use of her/girl found family, angst/hurt comfort
Authors Note: I am finally writing again, honestly this idea has been in my head for so long, based around the Yukiakari music video, mentions of blood, death, sickness, lore accurate K like someone give that boy a hug, also first time writing &team please be nice
Kei can’t quite remember where he is, his senses overwelmed with the smell of blood. He has to move he knows he does, has to follow the scent make sure that no one from the pack is hurt. It seems however his legs don’t want to work, as if they are protecting him from what lays beyond the barriers of the trees.
“Kei? Kei hyung, alpha where are you?”
Taki, that’s Taki’s vocie screaming for him from beyond the trees. Kei runs through the snow not caring about the branches he smashes through. When he breaks through the clearing he is almost sick, his body falling to the ground the snow crushing below him.
The scene in front of him is worse then he imagined, blood was polling around two bodies that lay in the snow.
Harua is laying face down in the snow, his neck is slashed and his body frozen, Taki is clawing at the snow as if trying to drag his body closer to Kei, his face is scared along with a slash across his neck mirroring the mark on Harua.
Kei feels a sob wanting to escape his body, he scrambles forward in the snow trying to reach for Taki’s hand.
“There’s no point”
Kei is ready to protest to whoever is behind him, but when he looks at Taki again the boy is frozen, face smushed against the snow the blood on his face slowly drying in the cold.
NO, the wolf inside him screams, how could you let this happen? It repeats over and over as Kei stares at the two bodies in front of him, his pack members, his younger brothers dead.
“Some alpha you are”
The voice behind him taunts, he wants to scream, wants to explain that he didn’t know. But, the only sound he can make are horrid sobs that echo though the woods.
He hears footsteps behind him, the person getting closer and closer until a shadow is cast over him.
When Kei looks up he is met with a girl looking down on him, Y/N, she’s okay he thinks alive maybe the others surivied as well.
“Y/N, please I”
Before Kei can finish he is pulled to his feet by the girl, her eyes now glowing gold, he can feel her claws clinging onto his arm.
“You were supposed to protect them, you are supposed to be a leader, an alpah and you let them all die”
“No it was like I was frozen, I didn’t mean for Harua and Taki”
“What about the others?”
Before Kei could also what she means, his head is being turned back to the scene behind him. He tries to protest, but then he seems them.
There are more bodies in the ground, each off them torn and bloodied, the rest of the pack all dead. Kei feels the urge to throw up and scream at the same time, it couldn’t be ture, how could he how could they.
“Your pack is dead becauase you failed to protect them, just how you failed to protect your last pack and you let your alpha die for you”
Kei felt his body go rigged, before he could argue or attack the version of the girl in front of him, claws gripped the back of his neck.
He could feel the blood trickle down his back, body swaying before finally collapsing into the snow, everything going black.
Kei jolts awake, the tent he is in lit by a few laters placed around sleeping bodies, he brings is hands up to his mouth trying not to let another sob escape him.
He feels arms wrap around him, his nose filled with a mixture of scents and his ears filled with sounds of heartbeats.
His pack were okay, they were alive.
“You had a nightmare Kei, it’s okay you are safe”
Ej’s voice rises above the heartbeats, the pack leaders voice brining a sense of comfort to Kei.
“I’m okay hyung so is Harua everyone is okay”
Taki’s voice makes Kei want to sob again, he can feel the younger boy curl into his side, trying to wrap the alpha up in his scent.
Kei talks to them about the nightmare as Fuma urges it might help. He talks about finding Harua and Taki dead on the ground, he talks about Y/N blaming him and calling him out as a bad alpha, he expllains seeing the dead bodies of the rest of the pack in the snow.
The change in scent floods his nose as the members feel sadness for the dream he experienced, the younger members curling further into him to try and comfort.
“I’m sorry”
Kei whispers out, he has never wanted to burden the pack members with his fears, the alpha in him wanting to be strong.
“You can lean on us Kei hyung, you don’t always have to be strong"
He nods letting the silence settle over the tent, he watches as Yuma’s eyes struggle to stay open, despite protests he urges the members to go back to sleep knowing that tomorrow would be another long day.
One by one the members pull alway from the pack huddle, each whispering words of love to Kei before retreating back to their sleeping bags.
Y/N is the last to move, she is sat cross legged in front of him, her own eyes filled with tears.
“You know what dream me said wasn’t true right?”
Of course Kei knows that, knows that Y/N has been by his side for so long, but his insecurities had reflected through her in his dream.
“I know, but there is a part of me that feels that, not from you but inside my own head. That I am not a good alpha, that I am the reason my old pack died, that I may cause the down fall of this pack as well”
“Kei, you are one of the strongest people I know, you have never once failed this pack as an alpha or as yourself, it’s rare for you to talk about your old pack and what happened, but none of that was your fault, you should’t feel guilty for surviving, if you didn’t then we would of never of met you and this pack would not be the same”
Kei reached for the girl, pulling her closer to him until she fell to his side.
With her steady heartbeat mixed with the sound of the other pack members Kei could slowly feel himself relax once more, no matter what was to come he knows he has his pack by his side.
