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Jayden ☆ he/him ☆ 18
Nikolai Gogol (BSD) selfshipper non-sharing ♡
basic dni criteria (racism, homophobia, ableism etc.) + proshippers/comshippers dni❕

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introduction...
my strawpage 🍓
Jayden ☆ he/him ☆ 18
Nikolai Gogol (BSD) selfshipper non-sharing ♡
basic dni criteria (racism, homophobia, ableism etc.) + proshippers/comshippers dni❕
A finished Nikolai
Why's it kinda go hard tho
Harukawa art style study with Nikolai! ☆~(^◇^~)
So many Nikolais….
I hate the idea that nikolai would pull pranks and stuff and destroy the sly casino cos i’ve seen so many people add that as like a funny thing he would do when they’re writing but like. NOOOOOO i will die on this hill bro nikolai would CHERISH the sky casino because he would be able to be in the sky and look out the window and stuff and imagine himself as a bird and yeah no i dont think he would try and blow up the casino or whatever. pulling pranks on sigma? Hell yeah he would, but not the casino.
Idk if I like how this turned out, but Fyodor and Sigma turned out oh so pretty so it’s alright!!
soooooooo we all agree that nikolai made his outfit right???? Since he can canonically sew???? Please tell me im not the only one who thinks this?????
Fluffy
I genuinely haven’t really any found social media platform yet where I can comfortably talk about my love for Nikolai 😭 I hope I can love mail here soon again
by the way , your f/o would never let you feel lonely .
for yumeshippers who often feel alone , left out , ignored , or anything of the sort . ♡
spent nights in your room crying alone with nobody to comfort you ? those nights dont happen anymore <3 your f/o sits besides you on the floor , holding you and letting you cry. they'll whisper sweet words to you and rub your back in small circles. theyll sit and listen and hold your hand as they do so. your sadness isn't invisible anymore , you dont need to hide it or feel lonely. they're there to cheer you up , always.
ever found yourself sitting alone at lunch, at an event, or anything else ? your f/o immediately finds you and starts talking to you excitedly. they sit down next to you and suddenly you dont feel like youre in a bubble. they'll eat lunch with you , or dance with you , or talk with you , or whatever else for as long as they can. they love your presence and its easy to tell they want to be with you in that moment
do you get pushed out of circles of people, ignored in convos, etc ? your f/o notices when it happens. maybe you've gone off to sit against a wall, understanding when you're not wanted. they notice you sitting alone and they'll come find you. maybe they notice how the circle slowly encloses and how you're pushed out , or how you've slowly gone quiet. they make a point to include you, asking you your thoughts and encouraging you to keep saying what you were saying before. no matter what , they're more interested in talking to you than anyone else in the room. you're not a discarded friend to them , you're someone they adore and want to hear more from.
ever been part of a friend group but not IN one , feeling like you dont belong or you're just the floater friend ? well, your f/o never makes you feel like that. with them, you're an integral part of the group. whether its just the two of you, or many people, they notice when you're gone, when you're off, when you're quiet. you're important in their group, you're wanted there. you're not just someone who's fun sometimes to them , you are a core part of the friend group and they will always choose you first.
if you have a group project , your f/o seeks you out in the room first. when your teacher announces that you get to choose your partners, they silently give you a look that says "me and you ?" , and they mean it. when youre able to go choose your partners, they instantly run to your desk. no more hesitantly asking groups if you can join , no more pairing up with the kids who look at you weird , no more feeling like a sore thumb in the project. they're choosing you first for every single thing. you work together like equals, and they value your opinion. it's not awkward anymore with them.
your f/o always seeks you out in a room. they'll always choose you first for everything. you'll always have a best friend, a partner, someone to sit with, someone to talk to, someone who cares. youre not alone anymore and they make sure of that. no more long nights crying yourself to sleep. no more wishing you had real friends. no more feeling left out of groups. no more awkward conversations, or deflated silences, or sentences that trail off. they're here , they're listening, and they care. you are not alone anymore ♡
shadow milk doubles , proship/darkship/adjacent dni ! ! your f/o loves you so much and always has you on their mind ゚+. ♡゚(´▽`人)
The power of having an "it's complicated" phase with your f/o where you're both dancing around defining your relationship but the tension is so thick everyone else can see it
ur f/o would never ever judge you or shame u for any accommodations and help you need
they will encourage u to take the steps u need to make your life easier and to do it at your own pace too. they will help you if you want them to and yes even when they have to go out of their way to do something. for you they'd do it a million times over
if you want help because there are some things you haven't learned how to do or won't be able to do at all they will be at your side. yes, even if it's something most people your age can do already! who cares your life is your own and you are yourself and your f/o loves u for it!
Just so you know, you don't need to change for your f/o to like, love, or appreciate you. They already do.
shippers who have moles on their face or their body PLEASE imagine your f/o mapping them out gently, counting them, tracing lines to connect moles that are close to each other or circling it gently … oh my goodness!
Imagine your f/o who doesn't believe in soulmates telling you something along the lines of "I didn't need fate to guide me into loving you"
They fell for you completely on their own accord <3
Your f/o being so excited to introduce you to people! They love being seen with you and showing you off!
Your f/o noticing your shift in mood and immediately knowing how to help
Your f/o watching you do something you enjoy with nothing but love in their eyes