Iâm worried | Yeon Si-eun x reader
Summary: Si-eun always was and will be afraid of something happening to Y/n.
Warnings: swearing, fighting, angst, fluff, comfort, parental conflict.
Notes: Letâs pretend Si-eun didnât get hit by the truckđ„°đ„°
It all started when you were little. Your and Si-eunâs mom were good friends, so of course they would bring you to their house when they met up.
At first Si-eun didnât exactly like you, he felt like he was forced to hang out with you. Your character was too much for him, always talking, always asking questions.
It always amazed you how Si-eun was so smart, way above his age kids in studies. As long as you have known him, he always had his head in his books.
And gradually, he started to engage with you more, answering your asked questions in detail, helping you understand questions you couldnât get the hang of.
You started nagging your mom, âWhen can we go see Si-eun?â âCan we go out with them today?â. As you both grew, you grew closer. He started opening up to you, little by little. At that moment you felt so close to him, how such a boy, who buried his emotions so deep in himself, could unbury them with you.
He sometimes talked to you about his parents, how they were always arguing and yelling at each other. In a way, he felt like it was his fault. Even if he didnât show it, he was very sensitive and took everything to heart.
And with every deep talk with him, you would stay by his side, listening to him. He was always an observer, listener and not a talker so you would make him feel free to talk with you whenever about whatever.
And when his parents split up, your moms werenât as close, not meeting up for their weekly coffee, only catching up once in a while. But you and Si-eun stayed close, the closest you have been.
He always cared for you, just as much as you did for him. You showed it more, but you could see right through him. When you were having a bad day, stressing over school he would always try to cheer you up somehow, or at least be by your side.
Even through texts he could sense something is wrong. You didnât want to interfere with his studies because you knew how important it was for him. But at moments he didnât even care. He even skipped cram school sometimes for you, which surprised even you.
You unraveled feelings from so deep in him that without you, he knew he wouldnât have even know to feel them. You were the first one to confess, even though you were scared. Maybe you caught the signs wrong, maybe he felt like you were just a shoulder to lean on, and a person to laugh with, nothing more.
But you were so wrong. That day he asked you to be his girlfriend.
You couldnât be happier, you didnât know what would you do without him. Your parents were also happy, mostly because he helped you with school work, but also because they saw how much you cared for each other.
When you met his friends for the first time, they almost thought Si-eun was joking about having a girlfriend, it didnât seem like him at all.
But with his new friends, he started getting into fights. You were worried for him. When he didnât want to go home, dark and almost unwelcoming, he came to your house. Bruises were on his face, cuts on his lips.
You would take care of him. âSi-eun what happened now? Are you okayâ you said, stepping aside to let him in. âI got into a fight againâ he quietly said, looking down. âCome hereâ you hugged him hard.
You never scolded him for getting into fights, people were cruel and were asking for it these days. You understood where he was coming from.
You were now both on your bed, changed as he laid on it, head on your lap. You carefully cleaned his wounds, putting a bandaid on. âYou know, I think I should study to become a nurse at this pointâ you said, laughing.
He also cracked a smile, he knew a medical degree would suit you, you cared for people a lot. You stood up, trash from the bandaids in your hand. âIâll be right back, Iâm going to take a showerâ you announced, turning away.
He laid in your quiet room, his outside clothes neatly folded on your desk, your almost finished homework spread out beside it. He sat on your table, look down at it. He couldnât help but smile, your homework was done perfectly, just how he explained it to you a couple days ago.
He felt your phone ring, who could be calling you at this hour? He took it in his hand as an unsaved number was on the screen. His guts told him to answer it, so he did.
âY/n?â He stayed silent. âItâs Young-bin, tell your little boyfriend to not throw a fit like that again, you should teach him better, huh? You donât want him hurt, do you?â The boy on the other line continued, Si-eunâs hand gripping the phone from anger. âTeach him better, youâre going to pay for what he and his friends didâ
He listened, anger filling him. âLeave her aloneâ he said, hanging up. He blocked the number, deleting the call from the call history and putting the phone where it was.
At this point Yeong-bin knew Si-eunâs weak spots. Si-eun couldnât shake off the fact that you were the next target.
You opened the door, him looking up at you. âYou tired?â you asked him as he nodded, hands on his lap. You sat on your bed, pulling the blanket over you, of course making space for him.
He got in next to you, hugging you close. You smiled to yourself, whispering âgoodnightâ closing your eyes. He didnât say anything back, just hugging you tighter. He was sleepy at all now, all he could think was punching Young-bin so hard he wouldnât even think of you again.
The next day came, you were both in bed. The birds were starting to chirp, sun rays heating up your faces. Since it was sunday, you convinced him to spend the day with you.
You both talked, he helped you finish the homework that you didnât get to yesterday. He felt joyful when he was with you, not showing it that much but you noticed.
He heard his phone buzz and he got nervous, what if it was Yeong-bin again? He looked at the message, relieved seeing Su-hoâs name come up. âDo you want to go get lunch with Su-ho and Beom-seok?â he asked, looking up at you as you were playing on your phone.
âYeah, sure we can go. But I have to get ready firstâ you said, getting up. You picked an outfit, getting an opinion from him. He kept some clothes at your house for days like these, your scent on them.
At the diner, Si-eun still couldnât stop thinking about that phone call. He held you close, from time to time looking around as paranoia filled him.
Monday came, he got up early. He put on his school uniform, leaving his house quickly. He knew the only way to get Yeong-bin alone was when he got out his house in the morning, since he transferred schools.
His feet brought him to Yeong-bins neighbourhood, he knew where he lived since he over heard him one time with his friends.
Si-eun stood behind a corner, waiting. When the guy came into view, rage filled him again. Si-eun took him by the collar, clutching it. Yeong-bin was a coward, eyes filling with fear.
âLeave her aloneâ he repeated his sentence from two days ago. Yeong-bin pushed him, trying to act all tuff. âYeah? Or what?â he provoked.
He didnât answer, just grabbed his now wrinkled collar again, smashing his face into the brick wall. âOr thisâ he said through gritted teeth as the guy tried to fight back but was unsuccessful. Si-eun kept hitting his face into the wall, blood splattering onto Yeong-bins uniform.
He finally let go, the guy dropping to his knees. Si-eun looked down, staring. He turned around as he heard him yell. âYou asshole, you will regret this.â
Beom-seok turned his back to Si-eun and Su-ho. Si-eun was transferring schools and moving in with his mom. Su-ho was in a coma.
Your heart broke at the sight of Si-eun, he didnât want to leave Su-hoâs hospital room. He cried next to you, clutching your shirt.
But apart of Si-un was relieved that you didnât get involved into this. Beom-seok left you alone. âY/n, this is my fault.â he said, sitting up right, the room quiet. âIf I got there in time, he wouldâve been fineâ he looked down.
âIf what I shouldâve been the one in a comaâ his hands balled in fists. You put your hand on his shoulder as he looked into your eyes.
âSi-eun none of this was your fault, you should know itâ âNeither of you deserved what happenedâ you glanced at Su-ho, feeling bad for both of them. âHe will be okayâ you reassured him, hand rubbing circles on his back.
You and Si-eun spent the summer together, every day. He wasnât the same as he used to be. At first he didnât even go out of his room, but you always stayed. You talked to him, brought him something to eat.
You both visited Su-ho every other day later on. Si-eun changed, but he tried to not push you away, he knew it would only make him feel worse.
Slowly he got a little better, but not quite. After all of this, he realised he should value you even more. He was moving to his momâs house, and you helped him pack.
You and your mom had helped him move, Si-eun carrying the last box. âHi Y/m/n!â âHow have you been? Itâs been agesâ Si-eunâs mom hugged your mom as you and Si-eun went into his new room.
You helped him unpack everything, making it feel like home. Or at least you tried to. You sat on the bed, exhausted. Si-un sat next to you, looking around.
âHey, itâs not so bad is it?â you look over to him. âI guess so..â he quietly said as he felt a kiss on his cheek. âAnd we wonât be that far awayâ you scanned his face, dark circles under his eyes.
You closed your eyes, resting your head on his shoulder. âLetâs take a napâ you murmured, yawning. You laid on the small bed, barely fitting both of you. He let himself close his eyes, feeling comforted and secure with you hugging him, he really needed this.
With closed eyes Si-eun softly spoke âIâm worriedâ
The school year started, and you still saw Si-eun every weekend, whether it was him coming over to you or you to him. The dark circles got worse, your heart ached. He did tell you he slept better when you were with him, so you always tried to be there as much as you could.
He still talked about Su-ho and you couldnât lie to yourself, you missed him too. His jokes were funny and he always made you blush with his comments about you and Si-eun, he was a good friend to both you and him.
He got into a little trouble here and there but most importantly - he found friends. Little by little you could see the tiniest spark come back in him. You felt happy for him.
Until Na Beak-jin and his union started bothering him and his friends, Hu-min, Hyun-tak and Jun-tae. His fear grew. The fear of them coming to get you.
Every buzz of your phone caught his attention, what if the union texted you? When you were together outside paranoia was swirling in his head, looking around more than he should. He kept his phone close at all times, waiting for a message from you, what if you needed his help?
Unknowingly to him, one day his nightmare came true. It was tuesday, the sun was shining and it was beautiful day out. You said goodbye to your friends and headed home. You were walking on the asphalt as a guy with glasses stopped you.
âHey beautifulâ he said, hands in his pockets as he blocked your way. You stood there confused, looking up. âCan.. Can i help you..?â you asked unsurely. He came up close to your face, inspecting every detail. A sick smile spread onto his face. âAh I can see why Si-eun took a liking to youâ
You stood frozen, even more confused. His smile didnât look welcoming at all. âMove, youâre in my wayâ you said, clutching your backpack straps. âNo need to be so rude, Y/nâ he calmly said, watching your reaction. You didnât tell him your name.
âIâm Seong-jeâ he continued, putting a cigarette in his mouth. âI came here all this way to meet you, and this how you treat me?â he grabbed your hair roughly, bring your face up to his.
He took his phone out as he opened the camera app, putting his hand up, facing the camera so both of you were in frame. âSmile, for that boyfriend of yoursâ he said, snapping the picture. His hand was in your face, confusion, fury and fear printed on your face.
âThereâ he said, his hand leaving your presence as he took the cigarette. âAs I said I only came here to say helloâ âWe will see each other soonâ he smiled with that sick grin, turning around and walking away, who was he?
Si-eunâs heart sank at the photo he received. His eyes focused on you. He could see you were in your school uniform, picture taken not far from your house. Seong-je came to you.
He felt at fault, you were unsafe because of him. Na beak-jin sent him, Si-eun knew. If he didnât take further action, he knew something worse could happen to you, his friends.
Si-eun quickly pulled his phone, calling you. âY/n are you okay?â he asked once you picked up the phone. Your voice was shaky, quiet. âYes, but what about you?? Is everything okay over thereâ you asked.
âYes, do you want me to come over?â he raised his voice, he felt so guilty. âIf you can, yeahâ you smiled to yourself.
The day came. The big fight to finally end the conflicts, to put the union to an end. With Su-hos intelligence he came up with a plan, calculated the probabilities of them winning.
Si-eun came to the fight just on his planned time, when Hu-him was already on the ground, barely breathing. Anger filled him, those deep eyes now dark, face emotionless. He took the brass knuckles out of his pocket, putting it on.
âYeon Si-eunâ Beak-jin said, face bruised up. Si-eunâs fear of you getting hurt, turned into anger. âIâm here to fight, not talkâ he contained himself, calm. Beak-jin was the first one to throw a punch, he dodged it.
Si-eun kicked him, grabbing his blazer with a strong grip. The taller one threw punches until one finally hit Si-eun. Face burning, he went to his leg, smashing it with the metal.
âYeon Si-eun!â Beak-jin screamed, kicking him. Na Beak-jin deserved to suffer. Si-eun stood up, hair messy and uniform now muddy. He punched Beak-jin, him holding up his nose.
He took Si-eun by his tie, showing no mercy. He punched and kicked him, screaming with anger. Si-eun was knocked to the ground, eyes blurry and moves sluggish.
No. He couldnât give up now, he had to stand up, for you. He got onto his feet, unsteady. His wet uniform stuck to his skin. He grabbed the otherâs hand, twisting it. His face scrunched in pain as he felt a punch knock him onto the ground.
Si-eun strangled his body with his legs, repeatedly punching his open wounds. Beak-jin couldnât even fight back anymore, eyes closed and barely any oxygen coming into his lungs.
Hu-min stood behind them, he didnât even need to intervene as they planned, this was it. They won.
Unknowingly, you had came to see him, he wasnât answering his phone and you had a gut wrenching feeling something was wrong. At first you texted Hyun-tak but when you were unsuccessful you tried contacting Jun-tae who luckily answered, texting you an address to go to.
Guys started cheering, though the union stayed silent. After a while they started leaving, Si-eun stopped. He stood alone, looking back.
Until he heard your voice. His head immediately turned to you, he felt relieved. You ran to him, as he opened his arms out for you. He has never hugged you so tight before, a smile spreading across his beaten up face, stinging.
He didnât need to worry anymore, at least for a while.
