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ariana, 22

[uglygoalie]

the is the official fine line vibe check. i do not take constructive criticism.

[lebleurenard-deactivated2021062]

Moodboard requested by @p-andore

[goldensatellites]

I helped my brother pick out some poetry books for his girlfriend's birthday and this was one of them. This was also a great excuse for me to finally buy it as well! . . . . . . #poetry #softmagic #explorepage #instapoet #motivation #endthesilence #womenofcolorwriters #selfiesunday #writing https://www.instagram.com/p/B0wwHObnhhO/?igshid=xjmj828vid4k

[goldensatellites]

I just want it to be fall already 😥 . . . . . . . . #vsco #aesthetic #vscogirl #yellow #theme #artjournalpages #artjournaling #autumn #fall #tumblr https://www.instagram.com/p/B0t2DZTFSuc/?igshid=ygqr625a1mna

[goldensatellites]

✳️ I hope this semester gives me and my friends the chance to experience life as ourselves. ✳️ // I wrote this while thinking about the fact that I feel like an entirely different person when I'm not depressed. So I'm hoping that I can keep working on my mental health in order for me to be the best version of myself possible and not the version that I've been the last few years. The same goes for all of my friends that I know are also struggling with their mental health too. I hope the universe treats us kindly so we can spend more time laughing and growing together. 💓 . . . . . . #artjournaling #collage #yellow #theme #artjournalpages #artjournalspread #trusttheuniverse #astrology #aesthetic #mentalhealth #mentaltlhealthawareness https://www.instagram.com/p/B0r4lWzlnz9/?igshid=r09q7bs79ha6

[goldensatellites]

the smallest things make me happy like sunshine and coffee and chilly mornings in the middle of summer. ☕ gonna go journal before my therapy appointment, let's see if I don't cry today hahaha. . . . . . . . #morningcoffee #coffee #starbucks #aesthetic #goldenhour #johnmayer #journaling https://www.instagram.com/p/B0n_VGJF39A/?igshid=pn7s2ktoobfy

[goldensatellites]

Illness anxiety is a bitch. // For me it means that I am aware of the fact that im having irrational thoughts but regardless, I still believe something is wrong with my body. It's been about a year since all of this started. Some days it appears as passing thoughts like "do I have a uti or am I just peeing a lot bc I drank a ton of water today?" On really bad days I'll believe im going to die because something feels wrong and no doctor is going to take me seriously enough to be able to diagnose me. // In January I thought I want going to be able to go back to college bc I had a doctor's appointment and was getting ready to be told I'd have to go to the hospital bc something was wrong. It's funny to me now, but it's honestly really scary in that moment because this was something I was 100% convinced was gonna happen. // Right now I'm somewhere in the middle. I have symptoms that can probably be attributed to something relatively normal and common, but bc of this anxiety, I still think that something worse must be going on. I don't know how to draw a line in my mind between what's a rational and irrational worry to have. But what I can do is stop myself when I'm having those thoughts, take a deep breath, and tell myself that as long as I can breathe I am okay. I try to remind myself of small things that ground me in reality and not in all the "what ifs". The one in the picture is what I wrote to myself today. . . . . #bulletjournal #bujo #mentalhealth #anxiety https://www.instagram.com/p/B0mjJ_nFO7h/?igshid=1oxxz274eyxim

[goldensatellites]

buenos dias ❇️ https://www.instagram.com/p/B0lcDP6HPYB/?igshid=2se2idozxcw0

[goldensatellites]

this band, this album, & their lyrics - have, and continue to, remind me that I am okay. 🌻 . . . . . . . . #artjournalpages #vsco #themaine #youareok #spotify #journaling #creativejournaling #photography #glitter #bujo #bujocommunity #artjournaling #explorepage https://www.instagram.com/p/B0kPZw3lkuN/?igshid=1xjmmm0s4hfl7

[goldensatellites]

washington d.c. - nov. 2018. . . . . . . . . . #photography #autumn #fallaesthetic #washingtondc #lightroomccmobile #pinterest #allthingskoze #aesthetic #orangetheme #artjournal (at Smithsonian's National Museum of Natural History) https://www.instagram.com/p/B0jEosPlRZG/?igshid=1g1q4hrj4e67x

[goldensatellites]

another snapshot of one of my playlists. fun fact: the song that gave me the idea to make this playlist was from the Kung Fu Panda soundtrack bc I heard it on a study playlist and immediately started to tear up lol. . . . . . . . #playlist #spotify #spotifyplaylists #summerplaylist #onerepublic #daughter #eden #artjournal #artjournalpages #bujocommunity #art #vsco #music #explorepage https://www.instagram.com/p/B0i_Z1ml1Ke/?igshid=r0wvmnmtz185

[goldensatellites]

even after all this time, I still find pieces of you scattered all around me. it's that song I hadn't heard in a while. it's a post it note I found in a book I hadn't opened in years. it's your doodles on things I forgot I had let you hold. I always knew you were the type of person who would be hard to forget. I just never knew you would - so effortlessly - make it this hard. and I definitely didn't expect that one day I'd be the one trying to forget you. . . . . . . . #poetry #igpoetry #photography #bulletjournal #bujocommunity #vsco #flowers #nature #art #artjournal #writing #journal #littleinfinitepoetry #journalspread #artjournalpages #edits https://www.instagram.com/p/B0hVyXslOW8/?igshid=1defku93r1ic0

[goldensatellites]

some of the songs on one of my favorite playlists I've made this summer. 💎 . . . . . . . . #playlist #artjournalpages #artjournal #vsco #edits #troyesivan #kingprincess #sizzyrocket #laurensanderson #fletcher #giawoods #niykeeheaton #bujocommunity #journalspread #spotify #summerplaylist https://www.instagram.com/p/B0gjLqwlH-4/?igshid=2grnpgka3rtc

[goldensatellites]

I can only stay in one place for so long before I start to take it for granted. I think that's why I'm obsessed with remembering the past. I can only really be grateful for things when I'm able to miss them. // 6.28.19 . . . . . . . . . #photography #purple #aesthetic #poetry #igpoetry #writing #journaling #artjournal #bujo #bulletjournal #sunset #explorepage #art https://www.instagram.com/p/B0gXlrDFvS4/?igshid=10mcrccp58xlt

[goldensatellites]

gentle reminders ✨ . ❇️ you can still find joy in even the smallest things . ✳️ asking for help is one thing, allowing yourself to receive it is another . ❇️ the only person saying you're not good enough is you . . . . . . . #artjournal #quotes #motivationalquotes #art #bulletjournal #bujo #explorepage #artinspo #artjournalpages #journaling #doodles #bujocommunity https://www.instagram.com/p/B0e0_mGlPjm/?igshid=1wdjh43o6d98s

[goldensatellites]

one of my favorite photos from freshman year. waking up early sometimes has its perks. . . . . . #yellow #sunrise #photography #hobby #goldenhour #bujo #journaling #art #artaccount #explorepage #nature https://www.instagram.com/p/B0eoUELlyrG/?igshid=19vcviwlpu14a

[goldensatellites]

oh hello... i haven't used this account since 2017, but I recently fell down the #artjournal hole on instagram and youtube so now I'm here, trying my hand at it. // it's not the first time I've tried to have an account where I post my art, but I'm finally ready to commit sharing my stuff (poetry, photography, journal pages). in all honesty I just got tired of being scared. scared of being judged, of not being good enough, and especially scared that no one would care. but I realized I love art and writing and photography too much to not put it out in the world even if no one is watching. // I wrote this just now, I wasn't trying to make it perfect, I just wanted to get it on paper and use my sharpies lol. . . . #art #journaling #bujo #quotes https://www.instagram.com/p/B0efV80FqOf/?igshid=14gndwad7dlf