It'd be hard for him to start a relationship with someone he hasn't known since kids, he would think they have mean and bad intentions. He's more of a friends to lovers person.
Toby is so fucking emotional i feel like he would be really fucking mean in a fight and cry like a baby for forgiveness like 5-10 minutes after the fight ended, he doesn't mean to be mean but he gets so carried away its really hard to be nice when he's in a fight.
He's inmensely scared you'll leave him so he's always the first one to apologize even if it isn't his fault. After a fight and if you dont accept ur apologies he'll feel like shit for the rest of the day, week, or month depends on when you forgive him.
He loves it when you paint his nails, he thinks its cute when you do it. He specially likes it when it's black or dark green nail polish but his favorite is your favorite color!
He LOVES psysical touch. He'll always try to touch you, not always in a sexual way it really doesn't matter. It could be ur finger, hand or arm he just loves you and wants to feel you, he wants to feel like you're real and he's not just dreaming. He doesn't really like it when you sneak up to him and surprise hug him or anything similar, he basically dislikes being surprised out of nowhere. He'd only accept your hugs if he's hugging you, you calmly hug him, you ask him for permission.
He wouldn't be able to be with a partner that drinks too much, it makes him inmensely uncomfortable and he rathers not being with someone like that.
He likes to piss you off, he thinks its hilarious. He'd do something you told him to and then say he didn't do it for example, he'd hang the clothes you need for tomorrow to dry and when you ask him if he did it he'd say no, just to annoy you. He would also caress your face and subtly slip a finger in ur nose or ear.
Toby would love to collect stuff from ur body like hair, nails, blood he'd love to have a piece of ur skin but he wouldn't force you to Cut a piece or do anything you dont want to in general. He would definitely have a box with things from u.
Thats all!! Sorry if these are short lol these are my first headcanons😭 also english isn't my first languange sorry if anything is bad writen. Feel free to send requests!!!👽💕💕
I really don't think I'll ever understand what happened with the creepypasta fandom post 2020, why does everyone care about realism now? I understand it's fun to think of these characters as they'd actually be instead of what they are in a fandom sense but just because you enjoy one thing does not mean you have to shit on someone else for enjoying the opposite.
Creativity doesn't have a limit! If you want to draw or enjoy jeff the killer as a 30 or 40 something year old grown man go ahead!!! But don't rain on someone else's parade because they prefer the nostalgia of him being a teenager or in his early 20s and lives at the creepypasta mansion and whatever
⦻ He's possessive af, he hates seeing you with other proxies, he wants that attention. Your attention. So he will walk up and wrap his arm around your shoulder and pull you close, or annoy you until you pay attention to him.
⦻ Play with his hair, he LOVES it, doesn't matter if it's just messing it up or brushing it, he still loves it (his hair is greasy af so be warned)
⦻ Not much of a PDI type of guy, but if you want he'll do small things, like interlocking pinkies or let you hold onto his arm, play with his hair a bit, small stuff.
⦻ Likes going on missions with you, makes him feel comfortable, doesn't mind sharing kills either, but don't take too many, murder is his outlet after all!
⦻ Likes cuddling with you in private, pampering and praising you while holding you close.
⦻ When he has sudden memories of the fire, he will look for you, he feels panicked and having you near calms his nerves, even if he'll never admit it.
⚠️ ⦻ If you SH and he finds you he will patch you up, no questions, just silently helping you, if you want to talk about it he'll listen and hold you close to him. Seeing you bleed makes him fear losing you.
⦻ If you let him, he will do your makeup, his emo ass absolutely knows how to at least do a half-assed smokey eye and he's definitely willing to use you as a test dummy for his makeup, no bright colors though, this guy is allergic to bright makeup.
⦻ He loves kissing your stomach, no matter the size, this man LOVES kissing it and he will randomly lay his head on your lap, and if you pet his head? This man melts.
⦻ This man loves praise, he's a touch starved man with trauma, so any (in private) contact or praise will have him in a good mood, though he won't let his grumpy ass show it.
Headcanons about Jeff the killer dating a cannibal s/o?
Jeff the Killer x Cannibal!reader headcanons
Author notes ; I hope you don't mind that I made the reader gender neutral!
Contains; mentions of gore, cannibalism (obviously), suggestive themes
Holy shit, he was not prepared to randomly see you in the forest at 3AM eating another human being against a tree
He finds your diet disgusting for at least a few months before he starts asking questions like "What does it taste like?" And "How do you find human meat appealing?"
Finds you hot in blood, will instantly pop a boner
Once, he tried to eat the human meat that you cooked for him. He didn't find it all that good, but he will be bragging about it to the rest of the proxies in the mansion as if the rest of them haven't done it before
He will ask to record you eating a human for Twitter purposes
When you guys are out in public, he'll tease you about it by saying things like, "Would you eat that guy over there for me?" And point to a random man
Thinks you're a major creep for the rest of the relationship but will respect and admire you more
.. might or might not try to have sex with you as soon as you get home from eating so he could pound you into the mattress while you're covered in blood. Yeah it's getting everywhere. But hey, Jeff likes it messy
He will see you and Eyeless Jack somewhat bonding over the fact that you both are cannibals and get instantly jealous. He'll probably think he's not "cool enough for you"
Which leads him to try to eat more human meat, which also leads to him vomiting for 2 days straight afterwards
Even though he respects you a little more now, he's somewhat anxious that you'll eat him when he's sleeping or something
A = Affection (How affectionate are they? How do they show affection?)
Oh, you’re never getting away. I said it before, Jeff doesn’t really get many chances to make friends, much less get a partner with his… lifestyle. As soon as he becomes aware and open to the idea of affection he’s constantly giving it, and constantly demanding it. Something something velcro bf.
B = Best friend (What would they be like as a best friend? How would the friendship start?)
Ehhhhh. He’s a good friend, to a certain extent. I mean, emotional support? Genuine love and affection? Unlikely unless you’ve been putting up with him for years. If you have, you’re still the target of a lot of cruel pranks, but he’s come to rely on you and lets you do the same in return.
C = Cuddles (Do they like to cuddle? How would they cuddle?)
Well, as long as nobodies around? Stuck to you like glue. He personally favors you on top of him like a weighted blanket while he sleeps after a long night of very normal and legal hobbies 👀 Rarely initiates, but he never refuses it if you offer. Or just throw yourself at him with no warning.
D = Domestic (Do they want to settle down? How are they at cooking and cleaning?)
Ah, well… he can’t really do that. Just because the hype over him has died down since he first snapped doesn’t mean he can ever live a normal life. He’s moving between places every few months evading, well, everyone but you really. Although, if you have a home that’s not dead slap in the middle of a city… he wouldn’t mind treating that as a base of sorts. But if you want to keep that home, don’t let him near the stove. He’ll burn it down. Or the cleaning supplies! He’ll make new elements to add to the periodic table… please don’t leave your Jeff unsupervised.
E = Ending (If they had to break up with their partner, how would they do it?)
Depends how far you are in the relationship/circumstances. If you’ve been a thing for less than a year, or you betrayed him in some way, he’ll take little to no issue in killing you. Maybe he’ll be attached enough at that point to make it quick and painless, but that’s the best you’ll get. Now if it’s been longer or you didn’t try to sell him out or anything, he’ll just full ghost. He can’t bring himself to kill someone he loves, but he’s also no good with emotions. No closure, reason, goodbye… one day you’ll just wake up and never see him again.
F = Fiance(e) (How do they feel about commitment? How quick would they want to get married?)
Well, marriage is kind off the table unless you jump through a few flaming hoops. As for commitment… that’s a tricky one. He likes to ignore his emotions, and his needs, and anything that makes life too complicated. But, even as a deranged murderer, he’s still human in some sense of the word. He’ll never admit it and might disappear for a few weeks if you bring it up, but yeah, if you’re reeeeaaaalllyy worth it, he can try to get over that little fear and stick by you.
G = Gentle (How gentle are they, both physically and emotionally?)
Oof… he’s got the potential. I mean, look at it logically. He went psycho killer at 13-14, right? And I imagine him early-mid twenties for this. That’s a lot of years where he hasn’t felt love or affection. Does he want it? Yes. Does he want to give it back? Also yes. Is he any good at that? No! But he’s really trying to. He’ll come around to being gentle physically somewhat quick, but emotionally would take a lot of work.
H = Hugs (Do they like hugs? How often do they do it? What are their hugs like?)
He likes bear hugs, the type where the air is squeezed out of you and ribs nearly crack. On you of course, he’d start fighting it like a wild cat if you tried the same. Prefers quick hugs if he isn’t initiating.
I = I love you (How fast do they say the L-word?)
Either immediately or it takes him so long it’s worrying when he finally says it, no in between. He tends to fall into an obsession of sorts if he was to go so far as to consider you date worthy, but with the fear of commitment he might wait a long while until it feels safe to say it.
J = Jealousy (How jealous do they get? What do they do when they’re jealous?)
Varies on your lifestyle. If you’re a “normie” he gets jealous of EVERYONE. Friends, past lovers, neighbors, pets… probably the air you breathe lol. The narcissism is still there; he’s hot, strong, perfect, of course you love him. But he can’t give you that normal life style, and that’s what worries him. He’s afraid you’ll think it’s too strenuous with him and cheat. Now if you’re a killer, monster, whatever, he still has his moments, but it’s rare and easy for him to get over. You’re on the same paths, so he only takes a problem if you stare at someone for too long. In both situations though, if he thinks someone else is about to ruin what he has, they’re dead within 12 hours.
K = Kisses (What are their kisses like? Where do they like to kiss you? Where do they like to be kissed?)
Light, ticklish surprise kisses if he’s tired or somehow calm. They’re rare, but he loves the way your shoulders hunch up defensively when he trails them on the back of your neck, dragging his nails along your arm/waist. Usually they’re a lot rougher. They’re just like him; sudden, powerful, and warm. These ones… tend to lead to something else, but it’s also usually his welcome home kiss after he’s been waiting on you.
L = Little ones (How are they around children?)
Ummm… 😭 probably avoids them at all costs honestly. Or bullies the hell out of em if he can’t escape. If it’s like a situation where you have a kid already, guardian for your little sib etc, he might be more tolerant, but there would still be a petty rivalry. Long story short, he kinda hates em.
M = Morning (How are mornings spent with them?)
Will literally body slam you back into bed if you try to get up before he’s ready. Running, killing and the scars in his body are all a bit strenuous, so once he falls asleep next to you he never wants it to end. The pain is dulled and you’re right in front of him, kind of forced to admire how beautiful he is, could there ever be a more perfect situation?
N = Night (How are nights spent with them?)
He’s like a cat, he won’t let you sleep. If you try, he’ll roll his body on top of yours and just start blasting music from YOUR phone, like an asshole. Once you’re convinced to do an all nighter though, it’s all video games and him shit talking his own dead victims. Sometimes, if you go to cook or bake something he’ll try to help, but it all ends in disaster. Best to just let him treat you like a jungle gym, it’s the least destructive he’ll be in that situation.
O = Open (When would they start revealing things about themselves? Do they say everything all at once or wait a while to reveal things slowly?)
Okay, again, this can go two ways. He’s a complicated-not-complicated man. It’s not like he can hide his identity from you with the scarring and whatnot. Most likely scenario is after having befriended him in someway, he says everything all at once, before you start dating. He wants to see how you handle it, if you’ll run, if you already knew, if it somehow changed your opinion of him. Less likely, and I don’t know how this one would happen exactly, but he might wait a long while just to make sure you really will stay. Whether it’s right away or far later, it’s one last effort/checkbox to see if you’re worth his time.
P = Patience (How easily angered are they?)
Very easily angered. Come on. It’s Jeff. Although, one plus side is that he won’t take it out on you. He might scream and yell at you, especially if you’re the cause of the issue somehow, but once he realizes it’s hurting your feelings or just making you pissed too, he scampers off to do some killing and let off steam. (pssst i wrote how he comes back after events like that in my old jtk headcanons post)
Q = Quizzes (How much would they remember about you? Do they remember every little detail you mention in passing, or do they kind of forget everything?)
It would take awhile for anything to stick. When you first met, he couldn’t even remember your name. He’s very self centered and thinks it all should be about him, but at the point of dating some things just subconsciously stay stuck in his memory. And then there’s a few he consciously makes the effort to remember. Soon after, your body, your brain, your speech patterns are practically burned into his memory.
R = Remember (What is their favorite moment in your relationship?)
It’s a bit shallow, but his first favorite is when you first met. He always likes seeing how people perceive him, gauging the expressions on their faces. Everything had flickered so fast across yours, it made him laugh that he could immediately take so much space in someone’s mind. So yeah, he stayed for the ego boost from that maybe.
His second favorite is his first kiss with you. But he’ll never tell anyone that, especially not you.
S = Security (How protective are they? How would they protect you? How would they like to be protected?)
Ough…that’s a tough one…
But these are relationship headcanons so-
He would be very protective. It doesn’t matter if you’re secretly worse. Sometimes when he’s up at night and couldn’t get you to stay up, he stares and realizes you’re kind of all he’s got. If anyone wants to get in the way of your happiness (especially with him), he’ll gut them and bring the heart to you like a fucked up cat.
He likes it when you cover for him. If you’re out in public and someone seems to be catching onto him, he appreciates when you pull his hood down further and/or make a scene so he can slip away.
T = Try (How much effort would they put into dates, anniversaries, gifts, everyday tasks?)
The only thing he would do out of free will is the anniversary celebration. He’s not stupid, he knows most couples are supposed to celebrate that or whatever. He’ll steal snacks or cool expensive shit from his victims homes and bring those to you on the date, but probably won’t say that it’s for that exactly… he rarely gives gifts any other time though, so it’s not difficult to guess why he did it that day of all days.
U = Ugly (What would be some bad habits of theirs?)
A bit of a slob, and expects you to clean up after him. If you yell at and sass him enough he’ll make an effort to be cleaner, but hey, nobody’s perfect. (He’d argue against that but whatever). Also no regard for the cleanliness of your bathroom because if he’s in a bad mental state, he’ll recut his smile scars, leaving his blood splattered in there.
V = Vanity (How concerned are they with their looks?)
As long as his smile scars aren’t completely healed and faded, he considers himself absolutely stunning, so apart from that he doesn’t worry about it too much. Appreciates when you try to get him in on the face care routine or wash his hair, it’s one of the only activities you can do with him where he’s not squirming around and shadow boxing you the whole time.
W = Whole (Would they feel incomplete without you?)
Ok so again, a year or less he won’t really give a fuck. He’s very hesitant to get emotionally attached, but he’s not immune to it. If he’s been with you long enough you’re a part of his routine in some way or another, weeks spent away from you feel like torture. You’ve gotten accustomed to taking calls from random numbers, since it’s usually him calling from a stolen phone to make sure you’re still alive, maybe drop a quiet “love you”.
X = Xtra (A random headcanon for them.)
A new type of felony was established because of him. Nobody else is yet to commit it. Will you ever get to know what fucked up shit he did to get that? No.
Y = Yuck (What are some things they wouldn’t like, either in general or in a partner?)
He HATES it when people constantly argue with him or are total killjoys. He’ll admit to a certain extent he’s a little wild and impulsive, but people who constantly want to stay in line and follow the rules piss him off.
Z = Zzz (What is a sleep habits of theirs?)
He talks in his sleep! Ask him questions, sometimes you’ll get half coherent answers.
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THIS TOOK SO LONG hope it was enjoyable though! Jeff is currently kind of like. the main love interest in my fanfic. FOR NOW. but yeah i did this to help make it easier to write him for myself. Ummm request open!
Reading Jeff the Killer fanfictions is so much funnier when you remember that he has no eyelids. So reading any kiss scene with jtk all I hear is that part in grenade by Bruno mars “Had your eyes wide open, why were they open?”
Now I’m just thinking of how awkward it would actually be
A = Affection (How affectionate are they? How do they show affection?)
Oh, you’re never getting away. I said it before, Jeff doesn’t really get many chances to make friends, much less get a partner with his… lifestyle. As soon as he becomes aware and open to the idea of affection he’s constantly giving it, and constantly demanding it. Something something velcro bf.
B = Best friend (What would they be like as a best friend? How would the friendship start?)
Ehhhhh. He’s a good friend, to a certain extent. I mean, emotional support? Genuine love and affection? Unlikely unless you’ve been putting up with him for years. If you have, you’re still the target of a lot of cruel pranks, but he’s come to rely on you and lets you do the same in return.
C = Cuddles (Do they like to cuddle? How would they cuddle?)
Well, as long as nobodies around? Stuck to you like glue. He personally favors you on top of him like a weighted blanket while he sleeps after a long night of very normal and legal hobbies 👀 Rarely initiates, but he never refuses it if you offer. Or just throw yourself at him with no warning.
D = Domestic (Do they want to settle down? How are they at cooking and cleaning?)
Ah, well… he can’t really do that. Just because the hype over him has died down since he first snapped doesn’t mean he can ever live a normal life. He’s moving between places every few months evading, well, everyone but you really. Although, if you have a home that’s not dead slap in the middle of a city… he wouldn’t mind treating that as a base of sorts. But if you want to keep that home, don’t let him near the stove. He’ll burn it down. Or the cleaning supplies! He’ll make new elements to add to the periodic table… please don’t leave your Jeff unsupervised.
E = Ending (If they had to break up with their partner, how would they do it?)
Depends how far you are in the relationship/circumstances. If you’ve been a thing for less than a year, or you betrayed him in some way, he’ll take little to no issue in killing you. Maybe he’ll be attached enough at that point to make it quick and painless, but that’s the best you’ll get. Now if it’s been longer or you didn’t try to sell him out or anything, he’ll just full ghost. He can’t bring himself to kill someone he loves, but he’s also no good with emotions. No closure, reason, goodbye… one day you’ll just wake up and never see him again.
F = Fiance(e) (How do they feel about commitment? How quick would they want to get married?)
Well, marriage is kind off the table unless you jump through a few flaming hoops. As for commitment… that’s a tricky one. He likes to ignore his emotions, and his needs, and anything that makes life too complicated. But, even as a deranged murderer, he’s still human in some sense of the word. He’ll never admit it and might disappear for a few weeks if you bring it up, but yeah, if you’re reeeeaaaalllyy worth it, he can try to get over that little fear and stick by you.
G = Gentle (How gentle are they, both physically and emotionally?)
Oof… he’s got the potential. I mean, look at it logically. He went psycho killer at 13-14, right? And I imagine him early-mid twenties for this. That’s a lot of years where he hasn’t felt love or affection. Does he want it? Yes. Does he want to give it back? Also yes. Is he any good at that? No! But he’s really trying to. He’ll come around to being gentle physically somewhat quick, but emotionally would take a lot of work.
H = Hugs (Do they like hugs? How often do they do it? What are their hugs like?)
He likes bear hugs, the type where the air is squeezed out of you and ribs nearly crack. On you of course, he’d start fighting it like a wild cat if you tried the same. Prefers quick hugs if he isn’t initiating.
I = I love you (How fast do they say the L-word?)
Either immediately or it takes him so long it’s worrying when he finally says it, no in between. He tends to fall into an obsession of sorts if he was to go so far as to consider you date worthy, but with the fear of commitment he might wait a long while until it feels safe to say it.
J = Jealousy (How jealous do they get? What do they do when they’re jealous?)
Varies on your lifestyle. If you’re a “normie” he gets jealous of EVERYONE. Friends, past lovers, neighbors, pets… probably the air you breathe lol. The narcissism is still there; he’s hot, strong, perfect, of course you love him. But he can’t give you that normal life style, and that’s what worries him. He’s afraid you’ll think it’s too strenuous with him and cheat. Now if you’re a killer, monster, whatever, he still has his moments, but it’s rare and easy for him to get over. You’re on the same paths, so he only takes a problem if you stare at someone for too long. In both situations though, if he thinks someone else is about to ruin what he has, they’re dead within 12 hours.
K = Kisses (What are their kisses like? Where do they like to kiss you? Where do they like to be kissed?)
Light, ticklish surprise kisses if he’s tired or somehow calm. They’re rare, but he loves the way your shoulders hunch up defensively when he trails them on the back of your neck, dragging his nails along your arm/waist. Usually they’re a lot rougher. They’re just like him; sudden, powerful, and warm. These ones… tend to lead to something else, but it’s also usually his welcome home kiss after he’s been waiting on you.
L = Little ones (How are they around children?)
Ummm… 😭 probably avoids them at all costs honestly. Or bullies the hell out of em if he can’t escape. If it’s like a situation where you have a kid already, guardian for your little sib etc, he might be more tolerant, but there would still be a petty rivalry. Long story short, he kinda hates em.
M = Morning (How are mornings spent with them?)
Will literally body slam you back into bed if you try to get up before he’s ready. Running, killing and the scars in his body are all a bit strenuous, so once he falls asleep next to you he never wants it to end. The pain is dulled and you’re right in front of him, kind of forced to admire how beautiful he is, could there ever be a more perfect situation?
N = Night (How are nights spent with them?)
He’s like a cat, he won’t let you sleep. If you try, he’ll roll his body on top of yours and just start blasting music from YOUR phone, like an asshole. Once you’re convinced to do an all nighter though, it’s all video games and him shit talking his own dead victims. Sometimes, if you go to cook or bake something he’ll try to help, but it all ends in disaster. Best to just let him treat you like a jungle gym, it’s the least destructive he’ll be in that situation.
O = Open (When would they start revealing things about themselves? Do they say everything all at once or wait a while to reveal things slowly?)
Okay, again, this can go two ways. He’s a complicated-not-complicated man. It’s not like he can hide his identity from you with the scarring and whatnot. Most likely scenario is after having befriended him in someway, he says everything all at once, before you start dating. He wants to see how you handle it, if you’ll run, if you already knew, if it somehow changed your opinion of him. Less likely, and I don’t know how this one would happen exactly, but he might wait a long while just to make sure you really will stay. Whether it’s right away or far later, it’s one last effort/checkbox to see if you’re worth his time.
P = Patience (How easily angered are they?)
Very easily angered. Come on. It’s Jeff. Although, one plus side is that he won’t take it out on you. He might scream and yell at you, especially if you’re the cause of the issue somehow, but once he realizes it’s hurting your feelings or just making you pissed too, he scampers off to do some killing and let off steam. (pssst i wrote how he comes back after events like that in my old jtk headcanons post)
Q = Quizzes (How much would they remember about you? Do they remember every little detail you mention in passing, or do they kind of forget everything?)
It would take awhile for anything to stick. When you first met, he couldn’t even remember your name. He’s very self centered and thinks it all should be about him, but at the point of dating some things just subconsciously stay stuck in his memory. And then there’s a few he consciously makes the effort to remember. Soon after, your body, your brain, your speech patterns are practically burned into his memory.
R = Remember (What is their favorite moment in your relationship?)
It’s a bit shallow, but his first favorite is when you first met. He always likes seeing how people perceive him, gauging the expressions on their faces. Everything had flickered so fast across yours, it made him laugh that he could immediately take so much space in someone’s mind. So yeah, he stayed for the ego boost from that maybe.
His second favorite is his first kiss with you. But he’ll never tell anyone that, especially not you.
S = Security (How protective are they? How would they protect you? How would they like to be protected?)
Ough…that’s a tough one…
But these are relationship headcanons so-
He would be very protective. It doesn’t matter if you’re secretly worse. Sometimes when he’s up at night and couldn’t get you to stay up, he stares and realizes you’re kind of all he’s got. If anyone wants to get in the way of your happiness (especially with him), he’ll gut them and bring the heart to you like a fucked up cat.
He likes it when you cover for him. If you’re out in public and someone seems to be catching onto him, he appreciates when you pull his hood down further and/or make a scene so he can slip away.
T = Try (How much effort would they put into dates, anniversaries, gifts, everyday tasks?)
The only thing he would do out of free will is the anniversary celebration. He’s not stupid, he knows most couples are supposed to celebrate that or whatever. He’ll steal snacks or cool expensive shit from his victims homes and bring those to you on the date, but probably won’t say that it’s for that exactly… he rarely gives gifts any other time though, so it’s not difficult to guess why he did it that day of all days.
U = Ugly (What would be some bad habits of theirs?)
A bit of a slob, and expects you to clean up after him. If you yell at and sass him enough he’ll make an effort to be cleaner, but hey, nobody’s perfect. (He’d argue against that but whatever). Also no regard for the cleanliness of your bathroom because if he’s in a bad mental state, he’ll recut his smile scars, leaving his blood splattered in there.
V = Vanity (How concerned are they with their looks?)
As long as his smile scars aren’t completely healed and faded, he considers himself absolutely stunning, so apart from that he doesn’t worry about it too much. Appreciates when you try to get him in on the face care routine or wash his hair, it’s one of the only activities you can do with him where he’s not squirming around and shadow boxing you the whole time.
W = Whole (Would they feel incomplete without you?)
Ok so again, a year or less he won’t really give a fuck. He’s very hesitant to get emotionally attached, but he’s not immune to it. If he’s been with you long enough you’re a part of his routine in some way or another, weeks spent away from you feel like torture. You’ve gotten accustomed to taking calls from random numbers, since it’s usually him calling from a stolen phone to make sure you’re still alive, maybe drop a quiet “love you”.
X = Xtra (A random headcanon for them.)
A new type of felony was established because of him. Nobody else is yet to commit it. Will you ever get to know what fucked up shit he did to get that? No.
Y = Yuck (What are some things they wouldn’t like, either in general or in a partner?)
He HATES it when people constantly argue with him or are total killjoys. He’ll admit to a certain extent he’s a little wild and impulsive, but people who constantly want to stay in line and follow the rules piss him off.
Z = Zzz (What is a sleep habits of theirs?)
He talks in his sleep! Ask him questions, sometimes you’ll get half coherent answers.
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THIS TOOK SO LONG hope it was enjoyable though! Jeff is currently kind of like. the main love interest in my fanfic. FOR NOW. but yeah i did this to help make it easier to write him for myself. Ummm request open!
The rain had started at a drizzle, before turning into a pounding and relentless rhythm against the windows. The only light you had was a small desk lamp, golden rays of light casting across the room, tendrils of it bending where it hit the bed and crawled further across the messy sheets before it faded.
You were sat at the edge of it, plush blankets dipping under your weight. Your hands fiddled in front of you, fighting with Toby’s hair as you attempted to twist small braids into the wild tresses.
To say it had been a long day was a veryyyy light way to put it. For weeks, maybe nearly a month now you had felt… off. You felt disconnected from yourself.
…Fuck, even saying that doesn’t feel right. You don’t know what the hell is happening, you just don’t like it.
You think Toby has noticed. He’s already nearly always with you, but he had barged in, asking (rather worriedly, you think as you smile-) if he could hang out for a bit.
Of course you allowed it. You should’ve pushed him away. You could’ve shouted, insulted him, been mean.
Killed him.
But you didn’t. Because for some stupid, stupid reason, you didn’t want to. You didn’t want to hurt this pathetic thing, you didn’t want to hurt your friend. Despite that probably being the ultimate reason for your birth.
So now you had him sat between your legs as you practically gave him a scalp massage. His eyes were closed and his breathing was slow, head lolling in whatever direction you tilted it. Like a doll beneath your hands, the cutest one you’d ever had.
You drag yourself from your thoughts, finishing a half-assed braid. It would come out in a few days, you’re sure, he always fidgets with them. For now though, it looked like a cute little tail among his brunette mane of hair.
“-‘s the theory that interests me the most. Wouldn’t it be crazy if that’s really how our universe was?” Toby rattles off, voice sleepy yet still excited.
You hadn’t been paying attention, obviously. For the last two weeks now, Toby’s favorite topic was the universe. Black holes, stars, alternate universes or whatever, he was collecting all the information he could and spouting it to you.
You liked it. Usually it made the hum of constant activity, constant thoughts, constant worry quiet, and you were able to finally release the tension in your high-strung muscles.
But everything felt like it was heavy on your shoulders tonight, like a weight was pushing your legs down deeper and deeper into thick mud you couldn’t escape.
“_______?” Toby spoke softly, voice cracking ever slightly at the end of your name as a tic made his whole body twitch.
Your eyes come down to his, soft brown and tired. Yet something unfamiliar sat underneath his gaze. Something you couldn’t detect.
You smile warmly, leaning down, body hunching over itself in a way that would be uncomfortable for most.
You pause, lips centimeters away from his. He didn’t move under you, he sat still with the eagerness of a dog. He trusted you, probably thinking you were just reaching for another small band to start another braid.
You could kiss him. His chapped lips let out a small breath, casual, smelled like the soda can he had long emptied.
Friends don’t do this.
You don’t do this. You don’t have the right to do so. He was prey. You were more than him. He was nothing.
But you don’t want to think of him that way. Your heart felt like it speed up, trying to move you away from him.
Softly, so gently and carefully, you let your lips ghost over his…
“Sorry, Toby. What was that last bit?”
Coward.
You grab a band, and it’s dark green. When you uncurl, straightening your spine to sit up again, Toby has his head still in your lap, looking up at you. He’s red in the cheeks, but his face is neutral.
He looks handsome. You’ve told him that maybe once or twice before, and you love the reaction you get from it. The way his stutter worsens, his tics rising in frequency from how nervous gets at a small compliment.
…You need to stop thinking like that.
You reach down, gently moving your hand under his head, lifting it up as you settled him. Grabbing a small tuft of hair, you begin another mini braid, twisting and pulling at his head.
But his hand comes up, brushing your hands away from him. You pull them away from his wild locs, tilting your head curiously down at him. He turns around, arm settled across your leg as he looks up at you.
His brows furrow in worry. You hate it. You hate it when anything negative happens to him, why is he worrying? Should you ask?
“Cmere,” is all he says, voice barely above a whisper.
He grabs the edge of the bed, pulling himself up…
Before draping his body on top of yours.
You fall back against the bed, arms coming up to wrap around his torso. His own scarred ones come up to play with your hair, grabbing a small strand and twirling it around his finger before moving his hand further up to thread through the messy tufts, scratching at your scalp.
It’s nice.
Friends don’t do this though, do they?
Everything felt intimate with Toby lately. When he pulled you in for a hug or leaned against you as you showed him something, you felt like…
Like a person who meant something. Like you meant something to him.
You make an uncomfortable noise at the thought. So, so many thoughts tonight to torture you.
Toby turns his head, facing into the crook of your neck and jawline. His warm breath washes over the area, spreading down your cold skin in waves. His chest rises and falls against your own, a soothing balm without you even aware of it.
Slowly you inch your hands under his hoodie, feeling at the skin of his waist. Your fingers trace over old scars, the flesh soft under your touch despite its hardships.
…And his temperature is fine.
Yeah, that’s why you’re cradling him like it’s the last time you’ll touch him. Just checking on your best friend. He needs extra care, that’s all.
No other reason.
A sensation pulls you from your thoughts, and you make a small hum in the back of your throat. Toby’s lips pressed against your neck. A small sound as he pulls away from the contact, then planting another in the same spot.
Your face flushes, and you swear your heart just exploded in your chest. You yelp, sitting up and bring your arms back to rest your weight on your elbows. Toby jerks with the movement, sitting up with you. His eyes are wide with surprise as his brows furrow again, this time in confusion.
Your eyes are wide, looking at him. They dart to his lips. Fuck. You look away, averting your gaze to the blankets below you. Some were ratty, others looked brand new. Stolen from houses of victims as gifts, Toby was always bringing you something.
He clears his throat.
“Sorry.” He mumbles, still looking down at you.
You don’t want to meet his gaze.
…
He grabs your face, albeit a little roughly, turning your head up to look at him. His eyes are pretty. The warm light from the lamp catches on them, and they remind you of sun rays with how they almost look gold.
“What’s wrong?” He asks, and it takes you a second to process he’s asking you that.
What’s wrong? Where do you even start? Everything is wrong. The world is wrong. You’re wrong. This is wrong.
Something definitely went wrong just now.
Because instead of the words “Nothing, I’m fine,” slipping from your mouth in a hushed whisper, it was:
“I think I’m in love with you.”
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Oh my god I hate this but I love him and I don’t wanna write this anymore so TO BE CONTINUED! It was supposed to be done all in one go but idk how to keep a nice pace without a cliffhanger. Oh well.
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