228, 64 to go!

Just trying to become healthier really. This girl can. Links in the lime. x

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I need long messy kisses and totally innocent hugs right now. 

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It takes guts to share beginning pictures! Good luck on your journey!

Thank you! 🙈☺️ xx

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23/7 the beginning of becoming healthier hahaha that sounds like a film opening

(after I hit post on these I’m just gonna shut the laptop and back away for a very long time)

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As of tomorrow I’m going to continue with my food diaries! I’ve been very lax mainly because I had so many deadlines and distractions (and excuses). But I’m really on the ball now. I’m still trying to eat cleaner, I’ll start up my twogrand again and start posting my food diaries again. Also a little update- this week I started running! I’ve been a handful of times now and I’m actually really enjoying it. My body’s been stiff, but I think that’s a good thing, like physical change. I need to somehow record my runs to see how I can improve and push myself, I’m going to look into apps or those fitness bands or something so that I can maybe record my progress.

My thing for today on this blog was to upload some current photos of myself so I know how I look at the beginning and can see any changes. I’ve had a couple of body dysmorphia issues in the past where I’ve exercised and saw no difference where others did, so I’m just trying to nip that in the bud. I’m absolutely terrified of posting photos of myself while I look as I do, but these photos are for me. Not anyone else.

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I've been trying to eat a lot cleaner recently and I'm shocked at how less sluggish I feel. I might do a 100% clean 10 days or two weeks and then try doing the 80-20 plan. Natural food tastes so much better, and I caan feel it doing me better too :)

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Today went reasonably okay :) pretty balanced day, could’ve potentially ate more vegetables

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Friday

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Sunday

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Saturday

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If anyone has twogrande I’ve been putting all my food logs etc. on there! :) lucylound is my user I’ll be posting the last 3 days shortly!

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For the majority this week has been a massive slip up, but I just got twogrand and I'm feeling hella motivated.

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I can't believe I had never made a smoothie until a couple of weeks ago. Now I have them for breakfast pretty often and they're so filling :3

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As if I've lost 4 pounds this week :o

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Day 5 Why do you really want to lose this weight? Are you doing it for you? The reason I posted my last post was because I read this question, and that sort of brushed up upon the ‘why’. I am losing weight for me, no one else. I want to be healthier and consequently happier. I feel like my lack of sight (? read previous post) is something that I’m really kicking myself for, and I owe it to my past, present and future self to reach my goals. Day 6 Do you binge? If so, explain why you do? I do binge, and I’ve never admitted to it. There’s something really comforting about being alone and having a great amount of food and idek what that means or why I do it. I haven’t done this for a week now, but I did have a stage when I really wasn’t happy with a situation so I would be binging like maybe twice a day. Day 7 Do your parents know you’re trying to lose weight? Do they care? They know but I’ve downplayed it a lot. They care far too much, they both often will ‘diet’ for maybe a month after gaining the weight that they lose, but they do it in a very unhealthy way tht I am not on board with. Day 8 Your workout routine Well. This is the part I haven’t actually put into action yet besides the fact I meditate/do yoga for less than an hour a day. I will get into a routine for sure though

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Okay so, this photo was probably taken about 2007 and I was a lot younger than I am now, and undoubtedly still growing. Even then though I had very specific people telling me I was overweight, and that I need to lose a few. Looking back though I was just a healthy, pretty slim fella. Now, I actually am overweight and this sounds really stupid but I actually look the size that I’ve thought I’ve looked for years. I’m so annoyed at myself that I never saw my body for what it was at the time, and this goes for every year from this photo up until about two years ago. I don’t know if that’s an actual thing, or if there’s a word for seeing yourself wrong but I’m not bothered about that. I’m just trying to be sort of ‘regular’ and healthy again. My aims not a number, my blog title’s just a goal because then I can see the weekly progression as the numbers hopefully go down for motivation. I’m feeling pretty good about changing my lifestyle, even though I feel like an absolute pillock looking back at photos.

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Gone a little bit off track the past few days, mainly due to family birthday celebrations! All's well though, started today off with a tuna bagel for brunch and I'm undecided what the rest of the day will be like. Hoping we have enough stuff in the fridge for a veg stir fry or a salad :)

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