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I think I doubled in size 😵‍💫

#fatboy #make me huge #extremely obese #gaining weight on purpose #obese piggy #trans gainer #queer feedee #trans feedist #queer feedism

rosebelliedbunting

Stuck in bed (i mean literally stuck, even rolling over is excruciating) and frankly in a lot of pain. so im dealing with the anxiety of “what if this lasts forever” (it won’t) by once again pretending in my head that actually I’m stuck for Gigantically Fat reasons & that any second now my love will come help me turn over and bring me something yummy to snack on

rosebelliedbunting

this is why i do not respect the half-measure feedist acceptance of like, no health play/immobility/death feedism. (Not as in Everyone Has To Like These, but as in, non-feedists and even feedists who don’t accept that part of our scene.) like, I don’t have this thought fully formed but it’s. You want to disavow that kind of feedism (or whtever it is you’ve decided is Too Icky) for being “intentionally disabling yourself” and it’s like, what if I’m already fuckin disabled my dude. what if i already have heart palpitations when i go up stairs and it has nothing to do with my size. what if a power chair is already in my future. like does it not reasonably follow, that if a fat person can love the current state of their body or perhaps even aspire to have more of the socially degraded trait (fatness), that i as a fat disabled person can love the ways i am already fat and disabled and perhaps aspire to more fatness and more disability. I get that that’s not a common outlook okay! but i promise you people feel the same way about others wanting to be fat! if you can reject one societal expectation you can reject another!!

dorianbleu

This is really similar to how I look at it! I already use a mobility aid, need to sit/lie down more than I want to, and need to eat food. But what if that was for reasons I wanted and thought were hot? What if, while my body is in such levels of pain and discomfort, I got to enjoy the feeling of being soft and heavy? Not to mention that I (and a lot of others with my condition) have seen my symptoms improve the more weight I gain. Getting stuck in a doorway because it's inaccessible & too narrow for me to pass with my rollator? Fuck that, lemme get stuck because my ass is too wide