I'm Lexi (she/her). 28 and never fuckin' learned how to be normal about hockey. Ask box is always open, as are DMs.
The Highlights:
: ĢĢā Pens girl above all
: ĢĢā Indigenous hockey is my thing
Writing:
: ĢĢā AO3
Recent Works:
: ĢĢā search for the bone - sc87/nm29 (13.2k)
: ĢĢā let all mortal flesh (keep silence) - em71/ec59 (6.6k)
: ĢĢā howl for the sound of it - sc87/nm29 (10k)
: ĢĢā creme tangerine and montelimar - em71/kk97 (2k)
: ĢĢā not the thread, nor the needle. - sc87/kl58/nm29 (2.2k)
: ĢĢā the final bloom - maf29 (1.6k)
Longfic:
: ĢĢā rome is also built on ruins (on-going wip)
Series:
: ĢĢā Wild Animals I Have Known (3/4 parts complete)
- Sid/Ovi
- Sid/Geno
- Sid/Mikko
- Sid/Ovi/Geno (WIP)
: ĢĢā Nobody's Business but Ours (2/3 parts complete)
- Sid/Geno
- Sid/Kris
- Infidelity
: ĢĢā Big Game Mitch Marner (2/? parts complete)
- Sid/Mitch
- Canadian National Team Antics
: ĢĢāTO1U Prompt Fills
- Sid/EK (Scandinavian folklore - vampire/zombies)
- Nate/Mikko (Drunk language learning and flirting)
- Will/Mack (Percy Jackson AU)
- Arber Xhekaj/Josh Anderson (fallen angel)
- Boko Imama/Anthony Duclair (friends to lovers)
š„ŗ that mike lange story. But also those tags #sid loooves christmas #he loves giving presents #looks good in red #piles on the pounds fast #post hockey career as santa šššš½šš½
he loves his mementos and presents and is COMMITTED to them. scrapbooking. matching jackets. little pills with hidden motivational messages~*~ his love language is gifts and neck smooches and stalking geno. relevant right now are some anecdotes i sent a friend earlier this year for dorky sid gifts fic fodder:
1.Ā Crosby's constant thoughtfulness would be impressive from anyone, much less someone of his stature.
"Sid always texts me happy birthday, he's always asking me like, how's Russia?"Ā Evgeni MalkinĀ said. "We talk and message all summer. He asks me how my skates are. He knows, like, everything. He follows my Instagram, I think (laughs)."
In addition to having a handle on those little details, Crosby is constantly providing those around him with memories and mementos. If the team is on the road and goes, say, sightseeing or to a sporting event and takes a group photo, Crosby will later send a framed copy to everyone.
When Ron Hextall and Brian Burke watched their first Penguins game in person, Crosby is the one who approached head equipment manager Dana Heinze and asked for two used game pucks to give to the new GM and president of hockey ops.Ā
After the Penguins won in 2009, Crosby had jackets made for the three players on the team who had scored a Cup-clinching goal in Game 7: Talbot (Pittsburgh), Ruslan Fedotenko (Tampa Bay) and Mike Rupp (New Jersey).
"They were blue jackets with gold buttons, and each one had a patch on it that said 'GWG Game 7,'" Talbot said. "At one of our first team meals the next season, he presented us with the jackets and did a big ceremony with the music and stuff. We had a private room in the restaurant. I still have the jacket."
-The Consummate Teammate, Captain and Ambassador, Feb 2021
2.Ā Merz:Ā My first interaction with Sid was when we were on the bench, guys were talking about a teammate, and the first thing this 15-year-old says is, āHey, guys. Letās keep everything positive. Donāt talk about your teammates that way.ā
Salcido:Ā When we were getting ready for nationals, he found these little pills that you could put a hidden message inside. They unscrewed, and inside was a tiny scroll. He gave one to every teammate. ⦠He had everyone fill one out. He didnāt tell anyone what to write, but he made it known that we all knew what the goal was: winning nationals. So we wrote on our scrolls, rolled them up and put them in the pill thing. We kept them with us everywhere we went.
-āIs this real?ā: Stories of Sidney Crosbyās year at a Minnesota prep school, May 2020
3. OnĀ āButterfly Boyā Jonathan Pitre:
Though the Senators are his team, Sidney Crosby has always been Jonnyās favourite player. After the TSN documentary airs, Tina gets a call from the Penguins. Sid needs Jonnyās measurements. He wants to have a suit made for him by his personal tailor, Domenico Vacca.
āItās the kindest, sweetest gesture,ā Tina says. āSid heard that Jonny went to a lot of games, so he wants him to look like heās one of the guys.ā
āI want him to feel like a pro,ā Crosby says. āHereās a guy who is going through something so painful, and his first thought is always, āHow can I help others?ā When I was young, Iād watch on TV the players coming to the rink in their suits. That was a cool part of being an NHL player. I want him to feel that, to make it as real as possible for him.ā
Tina tries to discreetly measure Jonny while sheās changing his dressings. But heās way too smart for that.
āUm, Mom, why are you measuring me? Am I going for surgery again?ā he asks.
āNo, no!ā Tina replies, trying to reassure him and come up with a good lie, all in the same breath. āThe doctor needs them just to make sure they have proper dressings next time you are in.ā
A few weeks later, the sharp navy blue suit shows up at their front door, along with a couple of ties, an autographed stick and a handwritten letter from Sid.Ā
āHis eyes just light up,ā Tina says. āJonny always liked to be well-dressed, and he just loves having his own suit. It fits perfectly. He looks so good in it.ā
-Beauties by James Duthie (2020)
4. Pascal DupuisĀ inspired his Pittsburgh Penguins teammates on their run to the Stanley Cup, andĀ Sidney CrosbyĀ found a special way of driving that message home.
Dupuis retired in December with lingering health concerns because of blood clots. Despite his NHL playing days coming to an end, the veteran forward remained an integral part of the Penguins and was in uniform to hoist the Cup after Pittsburgh's six-game win against the San Jose Sharks in the Stanley Cup Final.
On Sunday, Dupuis brought the Cup home one last time as a player to share a special day with his family, friends and hometown fans.
"Yes, it does feel bittersweet a little bit," Dupuis said. "You get the Cup, you want to celebrate. But at the same time I got a gift by the mail [Saturday]. Basically, it's a book of all the pictures of all the good stuff we went through. It came from Nova Scotia, so you guys can figure out who it came from (Crosby), but he couldn't give it to me during the season, he saw me skating a little bit.
"And he sent it [Saturday], before my day with the Cup, so he knew what he was doing to get me right here," Dupuis said, putting his fist over his heart.
-Pascal Dupuis shares Stanley Cup with family, friends, Aug 2016
5.Ā In 2011, Crosby was out of the lineup with a concussion, and the Penguins made their annual visit to Childrenās Hospital.
Crosby got along so well with one boy there and was so touched that he later asked Bullano to go back... just the two of them, no cameras, no attention.
When Bullano and Crosby met for the follow-up visit, Crosby appeared clutching a pair of Toys āRā Us bags, filled with a Transformer toy the two had discussed.
āHe literally bought every type of this toy they make,ā Bullano said. ā[Crosby] had never seen it before and thought it was so cool.
āThere are no pictures of this. Thereās no video. He was laying in the bed with the kid. They were just playing. We were there for over two hours. I got to know the mom really well because we were just sitting there.
āThe kid had no idea. Didnāt expect it. They had no idea he was coming. We got there and he said, āHey buddy. hope you donāt mind that I came back.ā The kid couldnāt believe it.
ā[Crosbyās] crazy cool about stuff like that.ā
Whatās crazy is trying to recount the many times stuff like this has happened with Crosby:
⢠The Little Penguins Learn to Play program has been around for nine seasons, outfitting now 1,200 kids with free head-to-toe hockey equipment. Not only does Crosby serve as the face of the program ā which the NHL has now adopted ā but he helps fund it, too.
āThereās an awareness of what a person in his position can bring,ā Penguins vice president of communications Tom McMillan said. āI think he activates that as much as anybody Iāve seen during his playing career.ā
⢠After a recent practice, Crosby noticed a local family in the Penguins dressing room, approached them, introduced himself, learned their story and wound up giving them a signed stick.
Nobody asked Crosby to do that, and he wanted zero credit when discussing it a couple days later.
āFor people who have the opportunity to come in here, people dealing with certain things, if you can brighten their day a bit or spend some time with them, itās something thatās special for all of us,ā Crosby said.
⢠A few years ago, through a team charity event, Crosby befriended a 4-year-old Amish boy with cancer. Crosby remarked to Bullano how much he loved talking to the boy because of how engaging the boy was and how he wasnāt consumed with technology. Crosby even tried to visit the boy but learned he had passed away.
⢠He learns the first and last names of the kids who attend his hockey school in Cole Harbour, Nova Scotia.
āTwo kids came from Japan its first year,ā Bullano recalled. āHe was so blown away by that. He couldnāt wait to meet them.ā
⢠Earlier this season, the Penguins welcomed Grant Chupinka, 24-year-old cancer patient, into the dressing room. Crosby chatted up Grant and his parents, Steve and Kim.
He spent his usual time ā about two or three times the requirement. Gave the tour. Then found out the Chupinkas didnāt have tickets for that nightās game and decided he would pay for them to go.
āIām sure he could just give them an autographed puck or something, but he takes his time to go out and see them and talk to them and get to know them,ā Brian Dumoulin said. āIt speaks volumes for him and who he is as a person.ā
Spend any length of time with Crosby during his visits with those less fortunate, and a few things become obvious.
One, Crosby is really good at these. Smooth but not in a slimy way. Sweet. You know how when youāre around someone talking and they go out of their way to make eye contact with everyone around? Thatās Crosby.
Heās also humble, always introducing himself like those heās meeting donāt already know. Holding a hand is no issue. And Crosby is the rare 20-something pro athlete without kids who acts every bit like he does.
āIt is not an easy situation to talk to someone with terminal cancer,ā McMillan said. āA lot of people couldnāt do that. He has an amazing ability to do that and make that person feel good.ā
Crosby has welcomed several Make-a-Wish kids and tries, if at all possible, to schedule such events for practice days ā to maximize the time heās able to spend.
Heās developed a special friendship with Patrick McIlvain, a soldier who nearly died when he took a bullet to the head in Afghanistan. McIlvain actually does physical therapy with one of Crosbyās sticks.
A former club hockey player at Cal U, McIlvain comes by every year, and the Penguins donāt even bother to tell Crosby. Either he already knows or immediately stops what heās doing to come say hello.
āHeās not doing it to leave a legacy,ā said Terry Kalna, Penguins vice president of sales and broadcasting. āHis numbers leave the legacy. Heās just a down-to-Earth, good guy.ā
Before a visit, Crosby has Bullano email him what is essentially a scouting report on who heās going to meet. He likes to learn about them, their situation and what theyāve been through. As much information as he can ingest. Crosby never just swoops in, shake a hand and leave.
āAs much as anyone has ever seen, he accepts the responsibilities of being not just a professional athlete but a star professional athlete,ā McMillan said. āHe views it as part of the job. Like coming to the morning skate. Thatās just what you do.ā
Put another way,Ā āhe owns those moments,ā says Kalna.
Said Bullano, āHeās just a good human being.ā
-When it comes to giving, Sidney Crosby does as much as he can, Feb 2017
6. When Crosby received a generous signing bonus on his Reebok deal, he wanted to share it with everyone.
āHe gave everyone on the bus gifts,āĀ says Oceanic radio commentator Michel Germain. āHim sharing his bonus with all the people heād been travelling with for two years, that impresses me greatly. I think the most important thing about Sidney Crosby is his personality and the kind of human being he is. What he exuded. The inner richness heād already developed.āĀ
-Superstitious and generous, Dec 2006
7. also this simply because it makes me ;w;
Even in defeat ā no, especially in defeat ā Sidney Crosby proved why he wears the "C" for the Penguins.
After the game, with his heart sinking and his season over, the Penguinsā captain bent over, sank to the ice to pick up the puck, took it to linesman Tony Sericolo and then skated to his teamās handshake line.
I immediately thought of a View from Ice Level Iād written on Crosby making sure a retiring official was sent away from PPG Paints Arena properly. I knew picking up the puck wasnāt for the same reason that was, but I also knew, in some way, it was connected to Crosbyās awareness and respect of the game.
āIt was for the Islanders,ā Crosby told me after the game, his eyes swollen from a first round exit ā by way of a sweep to make it worse. He told me how the winning team always wanted the puck, and it was his way of providing it for the Islanders.
Crosby looked me right in the eye as he told me this, just as he did with every other member of the media to come to him after the loss.
I could tell from those swollen eyes and the way he sat at his stall, by himself with his hands folded as he stared blankly, that Sidney Crosby is much more used to being on the receiving end of a puck when a series ends than he is at retrieving it for the winning team.
That scene. His swollen eyes. Staying in the locker room until most had left ā talking to anyone who needed him. Most of all, though, picking up the puck that prompted my question in the first place and making sure the right people got their piece of their own history.
It all adds up to one thing: In victory and in defeat, Crosby respects the game above all else ā just as heās always done.
mr gordie has randomly decided he wants to listen to russian music and keeps rolling over to ask me ādo you know this one?ā āwhat does that say?ā āwhats the letter?ā reader, I love him.
Evgeni Malkin of Team Russia and Erik Karlsson of Team Sweden were named players of the game by their respective teams in Russiaās 7-3 win over Sweden yesterday.Ā
After 13 years of this, it's still funny to me that detailing a full mental breakdown on tumblr is standard fare, but posting a nice selfie is a fraught decision.
THAT LAST CHAPTER!!! oh, gary bettman, we're really in it now...
fascinated by the truce between sid & quinn, with quinn shifting into a reluctant, despite-himself-trying-to-do-better physical/emotional caretaker mode (not that he doesn't have plenty of experience with dramatic hockey players, JACK) as sid is really struggling with the double punch of the due date getting closer & finally seeing sweet, oblivious charlie, and in some way trying to push through those feelings by making it up to quinn. it's not a romance at all but there's care (quinn) and maybe even affection (sid) slowly growing...quinn being the only one able to soothe sid out of his panic attack was so tender & sad
but also! quinn is allowed out of the house but only to the doctor or to GAMES? that must be psychologically excruciating, to be expected to sit and watch and be reminded about the light at the end of the devil's bargain he made, so close and yet so far while everyone stares and knows you're just an incubator
and it's only going to get worse from here :)))
āOh, Gary Bettman, weāre really in it nowā¦ā actually made me snort.
Iām glad you said itās not a romance because I fear I did forget to add the ānot a love storyā tag and I have been nauseated abt it bc I donāt want anyone hooked on the idea of a happily ever after btwn the two of them and thatās on me for forgetting if it does happen. I shall take it āpon the chin.
Isnāt my little dystopia so yucky!!! Thereās gotta be light & balance (care & resignation that they live together and might as well not be fucking miserable) or else itās just trauma porn. Hopefully Iām finding it!! I love that youāre enjoying it so much!!!!