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Send Questions for Gothshy that I can draw answers to!

I need to start doing my own art of her again.

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Just remember to direct it to Gothshy so I know you want some art for the answer and it’s for her.

Like:

“Gothshy: what’s your favorite ___?”

Otherwise I’ll think it’s a question for me!

#reblog #text #gothshy #art prompts

Send Questions for Gothshy that I can draw answers to!

I need to start doing my own art of her again.

#♤#text #gothshy #art prompts

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#reblog #gallery #aesthetic #{ ᴀʀᴛsʏ ǫᴜᴇᴜᴇ ɴᴀᴍᴇ }

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The Halloween hoarding has begun 💀

#reblog #gallery #cute #{ ᴀʀᴛsʏ ǫᴜᴇᴜᴇ ɴᴀᴍᴇ }

I will try to art some Gothshy tonight!

#update

I got one of those chains that are like “send to 20 people and good news will come your way.” This one said things about Jesus and God but that’s besides the point. A number I didn’t recognize sent it to me and I just ignored it.

But now my phone is blowing up with the people in the chain bickering and snarking at one another. Had to go and turn notifications for that chain of messages off because wow.

#no tag reblogs please

feel wee’st bit hypo-manic.

nothing to panic about. i just feel rushed and a surge of restless energy and want to do everything all at once. heartbeat rapid and there’s a sense of urgency. being messaged, even by just two people makes me feel hurried to answer both and like i’m failing them if i take more than a few seconds to reply. these things aren’t the usual. NOT while i’m on my treatment. but the thing is i’m getting things done. i’m doing my chores. i’m making changes. you all see that here with the blog move and making my environment less stressful with filtering followers. so it’s all too familiar. the phase of hypo-mania. where i’ve got all the energy to do ALL THE THINGS and it feels like there’s no downside except the things i’ve listed above. what i’m afraid of is slipping into full mania. problem is you don’t know when you’re manic. others have to tell you. you lack the self-perception to see these things.

but here i am now. still have to write and do art and some other stuff. but i will get it done. i’ve gotten everything else done today. which is huge for me. i’ve been depressive and tied down by it for so long. barely able to do the daily minimum of what makes a person “normal” and functional. i’m ashamed. i’m deeply ashamed actually. at how i live. i can barely make myself shower. i cannot clean. i do the best i can by throwing away the trash and trying to make it look neater. cooking? forget it. exercising? going for a walk, it’s like everything keeps getting in the way. this a prolonged depressive episode. but the fact that i’m doing things now and feeling even the tiniest bit up is huge.

#blah blah blah #personal #journal #tw mental illness