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I’ve seen you bare faced with your pimple marks and dark bags under your eyes. I’ve seen how hard you try to turn those pair of light glow from lifeless to sparkly. I’ve been seeing how it reflects your emotions. I’ve seen you smile and frown. I’ve seen you laugh and cry so hard. I’ve seen your bare parts —and everything about you is beautiful.

I’m not quite sure if you noticed, but I was there when the world turned its back to you. I was there when they have loved you and I was still there when they ended up leaving you. I was the first one who recognized your genuine smile from fake ones.

I am your number one fan. I was the one who praised you when they’ve given you insults and harsh evaluations. I was the one who you needed the most ever since and I was just waiting for you to finally acknowledge me as your fall back, your confidant, your bestfriend who reminded you that life is still a bed of rose even when it offers you thorns. Believe it or not, I carried the same burden you had. I cried the most when you were on your down fall.

Remember when your heart got broken by the people you’ve trusted the most? I was the one who suffered on your behalf. That time when you went through hell, I’ve knelt my knees and prayed with you too. I never left you. I kept on telling you to win the battle and choose to live your life. I told you to keep moving when you fall. I was the one who never get tired on reminding you that you are strong enough.

Even when you think you’re fat, even when you worry about the numbers on your vital stat, even with your tanned skin, even when you’re too short, even when you’re lacking, even when you’re being emotional, crying over nonsense and petty things, even when they speak and think bad about you, even when some refused to listen to you first, even when you think you are not good enough for people to stay, even when you think you’re unlovable and ugly, even when you think no one will stay and fight for you, even if you think I will leave you soon, —I love you, wholeheartedly.

Through dust and diamonds, all this time, I am with you.

This world will never be fair but remember to have some grace on yourseld too —the same grace that you give to others, give that to yourself too. Be kind to yourself, keep going, keep fighting, win this battle. When you are hurting, I am too.

Life will throw you rocks and even if you get hurt over and over, hold on, trust and love more. Life will give you storms, but learn to dance with the rain. Always choose to love and forgive more.

Do not be too hard on yourself. Do not try to handle everything because , you are just a human —and humans get tired. You are allowed to rest. No matter what you’ve gone through, I will be beside you. I will protect you. I will cry and will be happy with you.I will celebrate in your victories. I will genuinely love and care for you.

And, I will never let you lose me.

I will never let you give up on me.

Dear Self,

You are loved.

[escafeism]

“Don’t be afraid to move forward in life. Do not insist on holding onto the past and the pain that comes along with it just to keep his memories on the surface of your heart. You’re just leading yourself into a bigger agony. I know you are happy and very thankful you were able to make those beautiful and indelible memories but it’s time for you to move on and grow. It’s not an abandonment, you’re not forgetting the past. You're just choosing what’s still worth saving for the journey, and the rest of it, you keep it somewhere in your heart — somewhere unreachable at the moment. You need to acknowledge that just like the seasons, people change and so does what their heart wants. What does your heart say now? Have you ever wondered about what it is like to start all over again the right way? Think about all of the possibilities of you having a lazy weekends, you meeting new company and finding new hobbies just like how your younger self would you want to be. The possibility is almost endless, all you need to do is remove that anchor and let the current wash you from your destined place.”

— 𝓭.𝓻.𝓷

[escafeism]

I can still clearly remember the nights I have promised myself to not indulge into the flames of love anymore, I was blinded by the thought that I won’t find someone who will reciprocate all the love I can offer —a love as passionate and real deserves an equally passionate one in return. I was blinded by the tears and was deafen by the sound of my pierced heart and tormented soul. I have already accepted the fact that there won’t be anyone who will make me realize why things in the past didn’t work out the way I wanted them to. I kept on complaining about the love I once had that felt so right but ended up so badly, it’s just so strange how you can become ugly to someone who once thought all the stars were in your eyes. I have hated the idea of being in love. I was so scared of being hurt and I don’t guarantee myself settling.

And suddenly, when I was so busy building my walls, in the most unexpected time where I was just merely standing at one corner, I knew then, it is you. It felt like heaven just opened and it’s like a match made when I realized it’s you I’ve been looking. I can’t even find words to describe what I have felt and maybe it’s not meant to be written, it’s meant to be cherished. And it wasn’t easy to fix what’s been broken, it wasn’t easy to trust again, it was never easy to trust yourself again. But if I’ve never crossed the line, I’ll lose you. The last thing I knew is I have been falling and I am finally inlove with someone which I had always feared.

I met you. You’ve been really persistent in tearing down my walls. The childish act I always rolled my eyes and flipped my hair at, I wanted all of those, I want to do it with you. I wanted holding hands, hugs from behind, midnight phone calls, movie dates and even social media pictures. Sitting next to you give me satisfaction and finally, I am happy. You made me realize why it didn’t workout before, how I even hated love and blame it for I have been badly hurt before but now it pays off. That God has been listening to my rants and I bet He even whisphered that I’m for you, and so you are mine —mine alone.

Being with you is a roller coaster ride, we may have lapses but I could only see myself with you. I allowed you to be my person, yes it’s refreshing, fun and exciting. I don’t call it “fairytale”, I believe ours is an answered prayer.

🥀j.a

[escafeism]

You are my perfect irony and my favorite oxymoron. I love the way you talk but I hate the way you speak. I love the way you’re weak because I can share you my strength but I hate the way that you are because sometimes I needed you to fight. I love the way you smile, you are captivating, but I hate the way that you do because that little curve makes me fall for you—over and over again. I love the way that you move because you’re recklessly adorable, but I hate the fact that I’ll never get the chance to watch you move towards me again. I love all the things about you but I hate the fact that you’re now away from me. Loving you is painfully beautiful. And I wouldn’t trade that for anything else. You are a museum full of art. You are my wonderwall. And being with you is a rollercoaster ride: scary but surely an adventure.

[escafeism]

I tried so hard not to listen to the demons who were with me every night. I tried so hard to remove the arms that wrapped in me as they were giving me temporary comfort. I tried so hard not to listen to them whispering how awful I am and how am I not suppose to be loved. I tried so hard not to find peace in their existence, but honey, in them it felt like home. It’s a false company, I know. But I fell in love with destruction.

[escafeism]

She was the naive kid I knew.

She was always seeking for adventures and was looking for new things to excite her —you can not stop her, nobody can. She was carefree and enjoyed going out her way. She’s young but she mastered the cycle of letting people go. She forgives and forgets a lot —you can not even fathom how she can contain huge kindness in her heart. Life isn’t always fair, most of the time it will give you thorns instead of roses. Until this day happened, the little girl was playing outside and a storm came unexpectedly. Caught off guard, the kid has no where to go. She tried fighting the storm, she tried pushing back the waves, she tried stopping the wind but the storm wouldn’t just pass, slowly, the storm consumed the little girl’s faith.

Then she gave up —she grew tired of trying because the wind seemed to grow more excruciating, the skies became more bumptious. She stopped fighting. She turned her back against everyone. She locked herself and nobody saw her again. I tried saving her, tried looking for her but efforts are all in vain. The thought that I may not be able to see her again breaks me even more.

There’s a void inside my chest caused by the longing for this little girl —she was my inner child, my little self who couldn’t stand the storm of this cruel world.

🥀j.a

[escafeism]

You cannot do that. You cannot just make someone fall in love with you. You cannot just gain her trust. You cannot just let her tear down her walls. You cannot just let her break her rules. And make a strong person open up, and let you see her dark side, and leave her because you cannot handle her infirmity. You cannot just hurt someone who finally become brave enough to recognize weakness and in need. Because it took her years to built herself up, and who are you to break her down? Yes. She is a mess too. But aren’t we all?

[escafeism]

It’s okay that sometimes you feel so lost, unworthy of loved, messed up, and wanting to isolate yourself for awhile. Sometimes we needed to detached ourselves to people and things that are not good for our mental health in order to find ourselves. Nothing is more beautiful than someone who knows where he/she stands. It’s okay that sometimes you chose yourself more than anything or anyone—because it is normal for you to give the love you’re longing to receive to yourself. It’s okay.

What’s not okay is letting yourself be alone for so long. It is a mark of independence—but we’re not suppose to live alone. Being alone is a choice, and loneliness cannot be aided if the walls were built around your heart.

It’s okay that sometimes you lose yourself and have the time of adventure to find it. But what’s not okay is for you to stay that way. You needed someone too. Maybe not in the same way that you wanted it. But if you are going to be mindful and look around the people in your life—they love you. Because no matter how much you leave, you still deserve to be loved. You are worth it. And it is okay.

[escafeism]

She looks strong but she is falling apart, she doesn’t want to say anything. She wanted someone to hold her but she is too stubborn to ask. She’s slowly reaching the point where she doesn’t even understand her worth, she wants to be accepted but she keeps on receiving harsh evaluations. She’s tired and slowly dying. She has mastered the art of faking smile and letting go of people —even her self. Cold blood started running through her veins, her eyes speaks sadness, sorrow finds home in her soul. She pretended like she doesn’t care but she had one of the purest heart, a heart that deserved nothing but love. She cared about the people she loved, because she knew how it felt like to be unwanted. But no one cared about her, nobody knew how she smiled during the day and cried herself to sleep every night.

She is in a room full of people yet she still feels alone.

🥀j.a

[escafeism]

“Love instill courage.

Even in the darkest of our days where we seem to be so hopeless to move on to life, love is still the answer. Sometimes, we are so blinded by our brokenness that we often did not see the life at the bigger picture. Sometimes, we are so entitled with our feelings such as pain that we often forgot that we got the ability to change our emotional course.

Breathe, honey. If you’ll gonna be mindful of the love from the people around you, you’ll gonna notice how big it is that it’ll resonate in you and touch your heart. People around you love you so much and so hard that it hurts them seeing you in agony.

Clear your eyes. If you look at the optimistic side, and understand that you matter too, you’ll gonna have all the strength that you need. Reconnect, that is the greatest form of human interaction.

If you open yourself to the possibilities again, that is courage, dear heart.”

— k.c. // love and courage

[escafeism]

i can still feel the outline of your lips and how they seared my body in every inch

i can still remember how to world continuously spun and how the traffic pissed hundreds while we set our room on fire

i am still drunk with your kisses and my darling i could tell being burned by your touch is the most delightful pain i’ve ever wanted

-m.a

[escafeism]

“You should stop thinking about what could’ve been if you stayed a bit longer. You made the right way out this time in saving the both of you by facing reality. You certainly deserve someone better. Someone who wouldn’t wait five rings to pick up your call, someone who wouldn’t wait seven missed calls and ten messages just to get back on you, someone who would hit the road at 10 o'clock in the evening because you’re having a breakdown, someone who would look at the starry heaven with you and wish for a miracle, someone who’s not afraid to love your demons and someone who would bring you light and courage when you’ve fallen between cracks. Because that’s real love and happiness shouldn’t be just one sided, sweetheart.”

— 𝓭.𝓻.𝓷 

[escafeism]

“She likes the cold night air, how the chilling breeze numbs the pain in her heart and calms her consumed mind. She likes how the light of the night sky shines brightly from the still world. Everything in her eyes is at pause at the moment. It gives her the hope that in the end, she’s going to catch up. But he loves mornings and second chances. He’s fearless, curious and he’s not afraid of the word. She only wanted the night but he wanted the world. So she climbed back up and let him go. She let him go slowly; slowly without making a sound from her breaking heart.”

— 𝓭.𝓻.𝓷

[escafeism]

Pretending is exhausting. Faking yourself that you are actually strong is tiring. Acting like you’re okay is draining. Making it seems like things don’t bother you is a lot of work. Keeping everything bottled up takes a lot of effort. Shutting everybody out and closing all your doors uses up a lot of energy.

I know you.

I can see it right through you, and I’m here to tell you that it’s alright. It’s alright to be weak. It’s alright to be vulnerable. It’s alright not to be alright. Crying doesn’t mean you are less of a person. It’s alright if you cry, and it’s alright to be angry. You don’t have to try to be invincible. You don’t have to try to mask how sad you are. You don’t have to try to cover up the pain you’re feeling. You don’t have to be someone people expect you to be. You don’t have to because you simply can’t and you are a human, a human that gets tired. Don’t be afraid to let it all out because if you don’t, you’ll slowly lose yourself and you aren’t gonna like who you become.

Breathe, little one. You are stronger than you realize.

—🥀j.a

[escafeism]

“In this world full of uncertainty, you will always be my “always”.”

— 𝓭.𝓻.𝓷  

[escafeism]

To you who is being loved by a girl with a good heart,

You always wonder why she’s so sensitive, why she is so caring and why she’s so willing to give you so much of herself without expecting anything from you.

To you who don’t work hard for the attention she gives you and just accept the love you think you are entitled to while she accepts the love she thinks she has earned,

You wonder how she accepts the apologies you don’t mean, why she forgives the mistakes you intentionally do to hurt her and how she forgets the misery you never stop bringing.

You have been loved by a girl who doesn’t just see you as a man, but a man whom she has prayed earnestly.

She has been making excuses for you when you hurt her. She has been looking past how cruel of a person you truly are because she believes that you will change that is why she’s been ignoring the idea of leaving you because she’s just not the kind of girl to give up on you —she’s not the girl who gives up on people easily. She’s the girl who is too stubborn to fight for a spot in someone else’s life even tho she forgets her self-worth.

She just has a good heart that enables her to see the good in someone and not let the imperfections determine whether or not you’re good enough for her. She firmly believes that you have a good heart and you’re capable of meeting every expectation she has because she would do the same for you —without question.

But let this sink in,

Here’s what you should be afraid of.

You should be afraid of the day a good heart gives up on you. You will be able to lose something valuable and it’ll be a little too late for regrets.

—🥀j.a

[escafeism]

Hey brave heart,

You’ve gone through a lot but in case no one has told you —you are still the rainbow at the end of the storms. Your strength is gold —and I admire you. Your heart is a diamond —and I respect you. The enemy has been doing his job to stole what has been planned for you but no matter how he try to sabotage you, he cannot just put out the light that burns within you.

You are the light at the top of the hill —a city that cannot be hidden.

All the things that you’re experiencing are the Author’s confirmation of how great He has written your story. The enemy is doing his best to destroy your purpose but he is actually doing it the wrong way. Those tests he’s giving you are ways to help you create more powerful testimonies.

Let these things that try to break you push you closer to the Healer and that you are not capable of facing the battles alone —you are meant to surrender it to the One who overcame it first. May people see that Jesus is alive in you despite the battles you are facing.

Yes, you are already healed but let the scar stay there. It will serve as a beautiful reminder how you have survived the struggle that once tried to kill you. You’re one brave Godly woman —one clothed with strength and dignity!

The world needs more woman like you.

—🥀j.a