An Important Vent about my crk au:
Now before I get the full details, I am not discontinuing my Cookie Run Kingdom au. I'm still fully passionate about it and will still continue to write it and draw art of it. Though I do want to say that I will be taking a break from the ask blog after I finish Chapter 3 of the prologue "For Better or For Worse" so I have more time to focus on the current and main parts of my crk au.
Now with that out of the way, I want to discuss why I'm making this post. This is mainly about my rather rough relationship with a certain blogger that took interest in my crk au. I will not state their name and to anyone who has an idea of who I'm talking about, I ask you to not state their name in any reblogs or comments under this post. As I do not want any harassment or threats sent their way, this is not what this post is about.
Originally when I first posted about my crk au, it caught the attention of this person and they sent an idea in my ask box, and I thought it was kind of them. I was still in the extreme rough drafts and outlines of my au at this point, so I was grateful for the suggestion and even suggested that they should write their own au sometime as I also wanted to support and encourage fellow writers and creatives in the Crk fandom with my au. Eventually, we became mutuals and privately chatted about ideas for the story of my crk au.
It was nice talking to someone about my crk au, as I was quite nervous about posting any of my ideas out in the internet in general since this is my first time ever having a social media account where I post stuff and my drawings. But anyway, things took a turn when we were talking about fanmade first cookies for my au. Apart of the suggestion about making first cookies that were parents to gingerbrave gang, I was intrigued but not full behind the idea. So I only took parts of the whole suggestion and added my own ideas (this is how my ocs First Flora, First Cheese, Giselle, Adeline, and Sage were created). But that's when they started to act weird, they keep suggesting that I implement their whole idea into my au and framed in a way that implied my way of only taking pieces of it and putting my own ideas into it was poor writing. Even made a reblog post of my headcanons for the First Cookies, stating their own headcanons for them and the whole idea they suggest to me and framed it in a light that it was completely canon to my au, when it wasn't. That's when I first blocked them, but then I realized that I should've clarified my boundaries and my thoughts instead of blocking them. So I unblocked them and we talked it over, looking back at it I should've kept them blocked because they kept repeating this behavior over and over again.
The first time I noticed this repeated behavior is when they privately told me that storylines for Nutmeg Tiger, Black Sapphire, Candy Apple, Pavlova, Salt Cellar, and Kouign-Amann were "plotholes" even though the story was and still is in progress. I'm not going to post the full process of my story because I want the story itself to write it. I told them this and we did get into a bit of an arguement but we apologized and decided to take a break from each other.
Here's a bit of screenshots of how the conversation went (with their name cropped out since I don't want any harassment sent their way, and I've already blocked them for good as I'll explain later in this post):
I will admit that there were a few faults at my end such as my tone which I later reclarified how I felt and apologized for sounding too accusatory when I didn't mean to. But we went a separate ways and they stopped send me ideas. Or so I thought.
On my ask blog @bubblygum-crkauasks, I recognized their style of writing on a few anonymous asks. Though I will admit it is pretty hypocritical I did answer some but I only did it since some were actual questions about my au and I saw it as the same gist as always that I was allowed to use it or not use it, or take some pieces and mix my own thoughts with it. But then that behavior of being upset than there idea wasn't fully implemented into my au started popping up again. A prime example of this is from the comment they gave for this post from my ask blog where you can also see the reasons on why I didn't like that in my reply under the same post.
But the major problem is not it this behavior keep repeating on my ask blog now, I got many asks complaining that I should've done something different based off things that are in their own ideas rather than what was actually established in my au or getting many repeated questions I should "really" implement this after not answering the first suggestion because I didn't want it. While these were all anonymous, like I said before I recognized the same style and tone of writing since I used to privately chat with them long ago. On an additional note, a different kind of anonymous asker came around, not to actually ask a question or suggest something about my au but rather tell me about a fan story that this person (that I'm talking in this post) made and most likely wanted my validation and attention so they can call it canon to my au.
All of this got tiring real fast, it made me so frustrated, drained, paranoid, and even anxious whenever these kind of questions came into my ask blog's inbox. It made me think back and forth about closing the ask blog for a long time and I was slowly even starting to lose interest in my au. But I kept telling myself that if I just edit some responses, check their blog, and delete those kind of questions I'll be fine.
But then they made a crk fanfic idea post, and the last idea was a blatant rip-off of my au. Now, before you call me overreactive, I know the idea of a crk au having a new set of ancients and/or the Beasts having children isn't exclusively my idea there are plently of crk aus that use this premise. But this last idea was an practically an exact copy of my au but with their ideas that I didn't go with.
As shown in the screenshot below:
And the thing is they mentioned me in their post, and the only reason they don't see it as stealing is because they gave some ideas for my au. I absolutely do not find this as a justification nor okay at all. This crossed the line and I while I love that people find my au interesting and that they also would like some of their ideas to be implemented, I also want there to be boundaries place and respect for my own ideas if I don't go with an idea.
Now to truly show my frustrated feelings, I find it very ironic that:
1. This person said they were okay if I didn't go with one of their ideas/
2. That they clarified that weren't trying to steal my au when I didn't convey the right tone when shared my issues with some of their behavior.
Only to do the opposite of the first thing and practically do the second thing.
Now, I know that not everyone is going to like this post and some may even call me ungrateful and overdramatic for blocking them when they didn't do anything that was extremely wrong like harassing me or stalking me. But I genuinely do not want this person to be involved or know anymore about my au anymore. It caused so much unnecessary stress to my mental health and even began sour my attitude towards my own au.
