Okay.

[gravediggings]

It’s okay, though. I know moments felt tender and things were so different and new.

[gravediggings]

Guess I should say I learned from the best that violence & avoiding subjects is always the solution. Guess I should say I was bound to fail from the start.

[neckkiss]

via weheartit

[stckwll]

[danger]

[baudelairesspleen]

And I will wait for you.

Fyodor Dostoevsky, The Brothers Karamazov | Caravaggio, Bacchus/The Lute Player/Saint Jerome Writing/Young Sick Bacchus (details)

[danger]

[gravediggings]

When did I get so good at disappearing?

[caitmceniff-deactivated20190131]

[gravediggings]

You make glad I exist.

[eus-deactivated20150315]

[refiningfire]

[gravediggings]

And me? I feel lifeless. My body moves in ways I do not recognize or condone, it is alive and doing as it pleases. But me? I am tired. I am lifeless. I’ve been strung along too many times and I can’t count all the the ways that I’ve learned harshness on my fingers and toes. It’s never been enough for my mind to just accept that this is where I am. My head needs to wrap itself around the fact that I am much more than just me now, but it’s something I can’t even begin to understand. I want to be better, but this isn’t just about me. Center stage, lights blaring, a whole world of eyes on me. This is not just about me anymore.

[gravediggings]

I feel hollow. There’s a few thoughts and emotions that remain from previous versions of me, thoughts and emotions that will not fade or dim.

[thatgalpal]

[gravediggings]

I thought I’d never have to see your face again! I’m going to break my hand.

[gravediggings]

I don’t even know how to function as a normal being holy fuck?