really honestly the worst part of not having/fitting any good labels is when someone gets a little too nosy and you just sound like you're lying or being evasive. that's what i've been thinking a lot about this pride month bc my coworkers at my last job (the waitressing gig) were incredibly overfamiliar with me, to the point of sexual harrassment which never got punished, and always asking wayyyy too many personal questions. it was so awful when they'd say something to me assuming i'd be into men/a specific man/etc and i'd be like "i'm only into women" and then later they'd be like trying to get me to go to a bar or get on a dating app or something to pick up women(??? like they have any stake in what i do???) and i'd be like "no i'm not interested in dating or having sex" and they'd be like 🤨 like they thought they had me in some kind of gotcha. i just wanted to be like omfg these statements are not contradictory if (1) your third eye is open and (2) you know how to mind your own goddamn business instead of being a peeping tom. i don't want to fuck ANYBODY right now but even if i DID it would NOT be a man. and i certainly wouldn't fuck these random annoying men at a random restaurant. jesus christ. you deviate even slightly from the cisheteropatriarchal norm and suddenly everybody wants you to defend your fuckin thesis about it. i am so sick of constantly being my own sexuality's defense attorney
the next Grown Ass Man Who Should've Been Raised Better that responds to one of my own statements about my own personal romantic/sexual orientation with a stupid fucking "why?" is getting shot in the face i don't want to goddamn hear it anymore!!!!!!!!!!!
