❝ but you do … ❝ alana remarked , tone barely audible as she looked down at her hands . she wasn’t sure what to tell him , after all , they’ve had this conversation on more than a c o u p l e accounts & time & time again , nothing has changed . in truth , she was not only tired of hiding & pretending he didn’t mean anything to her , she was also tired of trying , when in the end , it all came to an abrupt end . the words that came out of his mouth next were perhaps something she saw coming , e x p e c t i n g some form of rebuttal , which explained why she remained silent , seemingly unbothered by them . plump lips puckered up , thinking over the many s c e n a r i o s in her head that would usually follow if she agreed to his terms again . another heartbreak was definitely one them . yet , she could feel the s h i f t in the energy around them , despite the fact her head & her heart were at war . ❝ how ? how do we do that ? ❝ she finally asked , ocean-blue hues locking with his in the end . but then came those three words , hiting her like a rock , collapsing onto her lungs as the air got s u c k e d right out of them . shock & disbelief both washed over her , staring at him as if he said something utterly ludacris , which , to be honest , definitely kind of felt like . ❝ you love me ? ❝ she repeated , for a moment genuinely considering her mind was playing tricks , that he couldn’t possibly m e a n them . in a matter of a moment , her hands were around his handsome features , cupping his face . ❝ you’re not just saying that ? you’re not drunk ? ❝ perhaps to anyone else her questions would be comical , but in her mind , they were anything but . she wanted to make sure it wasn’t the alcohol talking or his desire to have her w a r m his bed at night . she wanted to make sure he would remember this in the morning . ❝ ‘cause i … ❝ she was ready to continue , after all , it hasn’t been the first time s h e has said those words , but it definitely felt as if it was . ❝ i can’t get you out of my head . i tried , y’know ? i really tried , but i can’t . ‘cause without you nothing feels right , it’s like i can’t breathe if you’re not here & i … i love you , i’m in love with you & it scares me just how much , ❝
he didn’t get attached to anyone, that was clearly seen, even before him &. alana became whatever they are —— he’s never allowed himself to give himself fully to anyone &. for a short while he believed that the same thing would happen with alana, that he could just hook up with her &. that would be it —— but what he didn’t know is that she would be the one to bring down all those walls that he had spent years building. with just a touch, it was over &. it scared him how much power she had over him ❝ I love you . ❞ he repeated, a low chuckle escapes past his brims as she inquired him on his state of mind ❝ I’ve said it plenty of times, you were sleeping though ——- ❞ he had numerous times confessed things to her, telling her how she was the only one who saw him for who he was . his hands are cupping her face as he searches into her hues, lost at sea as he always was. ❝ I want you ——- I want it all, the ups &. the downs &. even the the bad parts, Im not going anywhere, I’m here ——- I love you alana ——- I want to marry you &. have gorgeous hard headed babies &. l ive the rest of our lives together ——— no more running, no more hiding . ❞ it was a lot to digest, it was a lot for him &. he knew that for her, it was so much more. he leans in &. pressed a small peck to her lips ❝ I’m sorry —— ❞ his words on how he wasn’t going to apologize are retracted ❝ I’m sorry for making you feel like you weren’t enough ——- you’re more than enough . you don’t get it ——- in months of us starting, you started to change me &. it scared the living shit out of me —— I couldn’t comprehend how someone so different &. hard headed could have me head over heels ….. I want it all, I want you &. only you . ❞