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An Update & Answers to Frequently Asked Questions

Hi, it's been years! Sporadic inquiries over the last few years about my whereabouts led me to writing this post. My life has changed drastically since. Here are some of the answers you were looking for.

Will you be making custom content for the Sims 4 again?

Short answer: No. I got a copyright strike on my Google Drive which I think means I am not allowed to anymore. Don't get me wrong, when I used to actively share them I made sure I complied with every law. I guess I didn't know any better. Not only do I no longer share them I don't make anything new just for myself either. I enjoy playing with sims who don't wear these types of clothes nowadays.

Do you still hate yourself?

Never to the extent from when I made these posts. My physical health was seriously deteriorating and I finally had enough. I got plastic surgery which is the reason I no longer hold the deepest contempt towards myself. Funny thing is I lost friends because of it. Guess I deserved no friends for being fugly but also I don't deserve any because I dared to do something for myself they don't approve of. Sadly I met too many wastes of skins who resent anyone different doing just fine. These narcissists won't stop until they are the only righteous people in the world. I am still far from competent but there are things I cannot change about myself such as facial muscles or most bones. Hopefully I will be able make more improvements in the future.

Are you still too ugly to wear Balenciaga?

(Okay, no one asked me this but I'm not gonna change the format mid-post.) I look uglier than anyone in anything. Thanks to plastic surgery I finally had the courage to wear designers I deeply respect and it turned out fine. I guess the statement is still true but I try to live the life I want to live regardless.

Anything else you want to add?

Honestly, my custom contents weren't that good. I forgot what the terms were but most of them lacked shadow maps and the texture and the mesh for each of them were subpar. Despite me being just a random person on the internet, I found posts looking for me in so many Sims communities and concerns for my well being which I deeply appreciate.

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The Sims 4 Custom Contents By GreenApple18r

It’s been a long while, Tumblr. I have seen numerous posts looking for my contents in every social platfrom I’m on which led me to writing this post. You can find them all here:

Part 1

Part 2

Please repost this for visibility. If you’re feeling so generous or wish to keep up with my personal life please drop me a follow on Twitter.

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Do not fucking tell me to love myself

To tell someone this crap who is suffering from being unattractive is like Marie Antoinette telling those in huger “Just have cake! Find a way to bake some”. Don’t say it like it’s something achievable. Why is it so hard for you hypocrites to admit ugly people have disadvantages in life?

It is fucking difficult for 1 person to say something different from what the other 99 people are saying. Ugly people had to go through numerous rejections in social and love life and even bullying in some cases. Imagine yourself as a new employee who somehow ended up in a board meeting. Executives and the CEO agreed on something. Could you dare to suggest something different? Do you still insist on me denying everything I have experienced in life and lying to myself?

Most importantly, I know how people are. Of course, confidence can help when socializing. However, if someone ever finds an ugly man, whose looks are far from conventional beauty, being confident in his appearance, they will not think he is anything but delusional. So stop abusing the word confidence.

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Farewell

I’m sorry to share the sad news that I will eventually stop creating custom contents for the Sims 4. Read below for details if you are interested.

As hinted on some of my posts including this one, viewing photos of high fashion clothes and replicating it had unhealthy aspects for me. Doing so constantly reminded me that I am too ugly to ever wear them. However, I tried to ignore it because I loved fashion so much and making ccs was the best way for me to enjoy and love fashion. I desperately hoped this moment wouldn’t come this soon. But it’s time that I made a tough decision.

I am the type of person who prefers hearing bad news first before good news, so here is the happy part. I am overwhelmed by the love from TS4 community. Role-playing blogs are very interesting and I have always look forwarded to read what happens next. There are so many highly skilled cc creators that provide their followers with impeccable ccs. I received so many thank you messages that I am not sure if I deserve that many haha.

When I first decided to start making ccs in 2015, I was heavily depressed. Not only that I suffered from an unknown medical condition, I was also socially destroyed. This girl spread mean rumors about me at school. I lost all my friends. This reminded me of the only truth I tried so hard not to think of for years: I was ugly and incapable.

I actually cried multiple times when other simblrs started to notice me and send me kind messages. That feeling that I am a human being capable of doing something worthwhile is unexplainably wonderful. So thank you for helping me become someone that’s worth it. I wish you good luck with your career, relationship with people you love and everything you are passionate about.

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When you’re too ugly to wear Balenciaga