Dear A,
How did you make it possible for me to love you as much as I do? It baffles me to this day but you manage to tackle this feat. You’ve broaden so many horizons for me, I can’t possibly list all of them. The biggest impact that you’ve had on me was to make me feel like I can find love and be loved. You made me feel less lonely in this vast world. Being with you is addicting. Now, I can’t imagine my life without you.
Alas, I have things in my mind I’ve been hiding from you. My inaudible revelations are difficult for me to put into words. I harbor many uneasy feelings that I experience daily. I fear unleashing them will lead to inevitable fights. I fear my confession will be used as ammunition against me in the future. Or lead you to cultivate your own ill feelings towards me.
For now, accept my silence and my distance as I decipher a way to soften the potential impact of my revelations.