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Embers

In me

an anger

It lives and breathes,

it settles so sweetly

It whispers

stroking and igniting

burning so brightly.

It calls me home.

But it consumes

and scars

Leaving me broken

And bruised

Alive but dying inside,

kissed by death

but I’m still burning

All around me,

embers.

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She sunk into him

Like he was home

Like he was all

She’d ever known

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I didn't ever think there would be

A time

That I stopped

Loving you.

But I don't

Love you

Not like I did

Not obsessively

Not irrationally

Not insanely

But kindly

And honest

I just want you

To be happy.

Now.

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There's nothing

That I can do to

Bring you back to me

And

There's nothing

That I can do to

Make you admit

That I was the one.

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Loving you

Was beautiful

Mourning you

Tore me to shreds

Forgetting you

Is impossible

I wear you like

A tattoo

Over an ugly scar

A story

I don't like to tell.

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I keep you

At a distance

At

Arms length

Because you're not

Safe

And I don't trust myself

To not

Be in love with you

To not let my heart

Take lead

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I'm not afraid

Of things that go

Bump in the night.

Not afraid

Of death

Or the slip

Of time.

But I'm terrified

To put my heart

In your hands.

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Sometimes

I miss you

So much

It feels like

My soul is

Screaming

And when I dont

See you

It's like

I'm being

Silenced.

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I might be

Over you

But

You still cross my mind

Everyday

But

My heart still speeds up

At the sound of your name

But

I'm afraid to close my eyes

Knowing you'll be right there

So I tell myself

I'm over you

Its my only

Saving grace.

[gremlin-22]

It shouldn't be so

Easy

For you

It shouldn't be so

Bearble

For you

To not need me

When I

Don't know how

To breathe anymore

It shouldn't be so

Easy

Now that you

Don't get me

Anymore

But its so

Easy

For you.

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Loving you wrecked me

You lied

You pushed

You shouted and you ran

Even through

All of it

I miss you.

Terribly

More than anything else

And it makes me

Stupid.

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Loving you

Took me out

And I don't know

How to move on

I don't know how

to love again

I only feel safe

Alone.

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There was a time

I would have

Risked

Everything.

I would have laid my life

And my heart

Down.

Would have given into it

Would have let it consume me.

I was that brave

Once.

Now risk is something

I never do,

Because of you.

[gremlin-22]

Don't tell me

That I'm being

Dramatic

Emotional

Overbearing.

I'll never

Put my

Trust in you

Again

And I can't be broken

Again.

[gremlin-22]

I once

Believed

Love was forever

I believed

In one true love

Now that you're gone

I pray I am wrong

[gremlin-22]

How can you?

Tell me

You don't love me

But need me to talk

To you

Until you fall asleep.

But need to touch me

Whenever I'm close.

But need to see

My smile

To feel okay.

You broke both of our

Hearts that day.

And you don't

Even realize

That's the pain

You're feeling.

How can you still say

That you don't love me?

[gremlin-22]

Loving you

Was never shameful

Never something

I could regret

Even when you

Were gone.

But it did

Tear me up

And it did

Break me.

A small piece of me

Will always belong to you.

But at least I

Was brave enough

To never

Run away.