𝐇𝐈𝐒 𝐃𝐄𝐅𝐈𝐀𝐍𝐂𝐄

i     am     a        [    SOLO    ]        once     again   !

[greyturned]

heavily canon divergent and laregly headcanon based portrayal of BEN SOLO  /  KYLO REN from the Star Wars Skywalker Saga,  Episodes VII - IX.  diverging during the bridge scene in Episode VII.  aka AU where Ben returned home with Han.  takes influence from comics and novels.  TLJ and TROS rewritten.  est December 2020.  redeemed by Harley.  NON-RP BLOGS DNI!​

a study in redemption,  the horrors of war,  the dark’s cold embrace,  breaking free of the chains,  coming home,  the loss and recovery of one's humanity,  the cycles of abuse and torment,  broken and lost souls,  and what lies beneath the surface.

drafts: 23      memes: 42      starters: 2     queue: 0      updated 9/10

google docs  -  please read bio / divergence before interacting prompts  -  open to mutuals only, save for ooc or headcanon memes self promo  -  current version interest tracker  -  for plotting ease affiliated with  -  @solesnati​

also found at:    luke skywalker,    cal kestis,    moff gideon,    multimuse

[greyturned]

rising out of my grave to crash out because WE COULDVE HAD IT AAAALLLLLLL

[greyturned]

Goddamnit not James Earl Jones too 😭😭😭

[greyturned]

...peaks head in

bruh

I know it's been a hot minute since I've been here, rip. I'm sorry for all the radio silence these last few months. Work and school have kept me somewhat busy, but when I'm not, I'm usually drained. and honestly? I've just not been that motivated to return to Tumblr. it's nothing against any of you, i miss writing with you guys and i poke in from time to time to see how you're doing, I've just not had the spoons to be on the site in a while. And while I've missed writing, I've also gotten back into reading, and my tbr is as long as i am tall, so there's that lol.

I don't want to make any promises, bc while this semester is looking to be a bit easier on me - I am looking to find a new job and leave my current one, but if anything happens, it won't be till the summer. I would like to try to be here and write from time to time tho, bc I miss my boy and I miss my plots and I miss all you wonderful beans. That might not be right away, as my new semester is still fresh and already jumbled with the weather canceling our second week back, but hopefully soon. I think it's gone unspoken, but my hiatus has and still remains in effect regardless.

I hope all of you are doing well and had a good holiday, and are staying warm and safe with the weird weather lately! And I hope to see y'all again soon!

[greyturned]

My cat is so photogenic 😭

[pwawr]

girls be like “he’s my baby” and it’s literally a grown man who's commit several felonies

[i-am-not-a-guardian-deactivated]

if you would be so kind as to reblog this if you feel insecure about your writing skills.

[greyturned]

TOL AND SMOL PROMPTS / accepting @untales sent: [  PULL  ]  for the shorter muse to tug the taller one down by the collar to kiss them.  / from poe, obvs 😌

HIS LIPS HAD CURVED INTO A SMILE BEFORE POE HAD managed to get him halfway there, shoulders shaking with a quiet chuckle as he allowed himself to bend at the waist to humor the smaller man. the height difference between them often amused him in times like this, when the pilot got impatient or was too stubborn to ask him to do what he wanted. this wasn't the first time Poe had pulled him down like this, Ben doubted it would be the last, and he wasn't upset by it. in fact, there was a joke on the tip of the force user's tongue, but he saved it for another time. hands came up to hold a slim waist, pulling the older man close so he could practically curl around him as he returned the kiss. those hands then slipped around to press against the small of Poe's back. ❝ well, hello to you too. ❞

[greyturned]

@hen1chaer --- jaina solo

she still doesn't trust ben kylo, ren, whatever he calls himself more than she could throw him. mom and dad might. little ani doesn't even remember him and looks at him in awe, a novelty, and even more upsetting is that allana has the same look in her eyes when she discovered she has another uncle. it isn't like jaina and the general, or mom, deliberately hid ben-or-kylo-or-him or his existence, but the story is the same they say about jacen: he's lost. now he's found, apparently; the prodigal son returns. she surveys him with a discerning eye as she leans against the wall, arms crossed over her chest, and blatantly ignores her mother's pleading brown eyes to be nice as if she's seven and she's upset that her big brother took the last sweetmallow. poe is her big brother. poe has been her big brother for the past seven years, more so, with his goofy grins and ability to bring a smile to that broody face of hers. most of all, he didn't leave; he stayed and protected her, stood up for her, while her other two ... one is dead; the other is skulking about the falcon as if nothing changed. father not daddy. or dad. mother might forgive him because he's the love of her life, and little ani doesn't know him well enough to be angry, but she remembers. gives her a wide berth outside, showing ani and allana how to do repairs on the ship, and when her mother leaves does she peer at him from where she leans. she wishes poe was here, but he has his own things to work through. ❛❛ you look better with a mask.  ❜❜

THE CONTEMPT IN THE AIR IS THICK, AS IT HAS BEEN since he first stepped off the Falcon after the events of Starkiller Base. hers is the strongest of them all --- whether that be because she hates him that much, or their inescapable connection, he wasn't sure --- and sits like an over-fed bantha between them. perhaps, no doubt, the only thing preserving the peace is the General in the room with them. this was her idea, Kylo was certain. neither he nor Jaina would've come together willingly, for their own reasons.

Jacen's death had affected him similarly, more than he'd expected, more than his mentor had been pleased with. it'd cut him from across countless stars, the death of the one person who might've understood him, who might've stood with him. who wouldn't have abandoned him. Kylo was sure he'd hear it from their mother if she knew, but a large part of him placed the blame on her. on all of them, really. on Solo, who was never there for either of them. the General, Jaina. Anakin was too small to bear the blame, but the boy wouldn't understand. neither would the girl.

it felt like he was brought into a stranger's house, and the doubt of whether what he was doing was right or not crept back up. they all shared the faces of people that once cared, but too much had happened, too much time. they were impossible to ignore, Solo and the General trying to reason with him and the children following him with their eyes everywhere he went. Kylo wasn't sure what to do about them, the brother who barely remembered him and the niece he never knew he had. Jaina was the only one he hadn't needed to worry about, until now. when the General left to no doubt try to force something between them.

dark eyes narrowed from where he stood beside the gaming table, arms folded across his chest. ❝ and you look better on your wanted holo. ❞

[leneemusing]

‘TOL AND SMOL’ PROMPTS

feel free to combine these with dialogue whether it’s something you make up or from other memes your partner has reblogged. 

[ BEND ]  for the shorter muse to tug the taller muse down so they can kiss their forehead. 

[ LEAN ]  for the taller muse to lean down to kiss the shorter muse’s forehead. 

[ LIFT ]  for taller muse to lift up the smaller one and sit them on a surface where they can be eye level. 

[ CLIMB ]  for the shorter muse to find somewhere to perch so they can be eye level with taller muse. 

[ INTERRUPT ]  for shorter muse to stop during the middle of a conversation and stand on a chair/sit on a table so they can be eye level with the taller one. 

[ GIVE ]  for the taller muse to place their jacket around the shorter muse’s shoulders,  the garment essentially ‘swallowing them whole.’

[ TAKE ]  for the taller muse to find the shorter one has ‘borrowed’ a shirt/sweater/jacket etc.  which is oversized on them.  

[ GO ]  for the taller muse to pick up the shorter one and carry them away from a potential/just started fight. 

[ RIDE ]  for the taller muse to give the shorter one a piggyback ride so they don’t have to keep up. 

[ SEE ]  for shorter muse to insist on getting to ride on the taller one’s shoulders.  

[ FIND ]  for the taller muse to lift the shorter one by the waist so they can reach something. 

[ EMBRACE ]  for the taller muse to lift the shorter muse off the ground when they hug. 

[ CATCH ]  for the shorter muse to run and jump into the taller muse’s arms. 

[ CARESS ]  for the taller muse to pick up the shorter one to kiss them. 

[ GIVE ]  for the shorter muse to stand or climb to sit on a higher surface to demand a kiss from the taller one. 

[  PULL  ]  for the shorter muse to tug the taller one down by the collar to kiss them. 

[ URGE ]  for the taller muse to tilt the shorter one’s chin up so they can look at their face. 

[ LOWER ]  for the taller muse to kneel in front of the shorter one so they’re less intimidating. 

[ HELP ]  for the taller muse to use the advantage of their stature to shield the shorter one from something. 

[ AID ]  for the taller muse to pick up the shorter one to lift them over something  (  stairs,  while hiking, a large puddle etc.  ). 

[ INSIST ]  for the shorter muse to guide the taller one to sit so they don’t have to keep looking up. 

[ COMFORT ]  for the taller muse to tuck their chin atop the shorter one’s head while they hug. 

[ MELT ]  for the taller muse to lean down so they can bury their face into the shorter one’s shoulder. 

[ GENTLE ]  for the smaller muse to hug the taller one while they are seated so the taller one can hide their face against them. 

[ BLOCK ]  for the taller muse to stand in front of the shorter one to prevent them from having to see something. 

[ CUDDLE ]  for the taller muse to the big spoon. 

[ HELD ]  for the shorter muse to be the big spoon. 

[ TENDER ]  for the taller muse to kiss the shorter one’s head while they embrace. 

[ GENTLE ]  for the shorter muse to kiss the taller one’s chest while they hug. 

[ REST ]  for the shorter muse to lean forward and press their forehead against the tall one’s chest/shoulder while they stand in front of each other. 

[ TOUCH ]  for the taller muse to lean down and press their forehead to the shorter one’s. 

[ PRESS ]  for the shorter muse to take hold of the taller one’s face to pull them down so they can press their foreheads together. 

[ GAZE ]  taller muse is sitting and the shorter one who is standing in front of them takes their face into their hands while they talk. 

[falllingthroughspace]

[monismemes]

Send me 📏 (ruler) + your muses height and I'll compare them to mine!

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[greyturned]

*sprinkles some love and positive vibes onto the dash* i hope all you lovelies are doing well, i miss you all and i miss writing. I'm still on a semi-indefinite hiatus and i can see that holding as we get through midterms. but also, with this promotion at work, i can see adjusting to it being exhausting too. so! I'm still more active on Discord if anyone would like to write and plot there, and i might pop in here a time or two to say hi or throw memes at people, but this low activity will continue until further notice. I'm also in the meantime working on a super secret ( not ) project of throwing all the s.tar wars muses from my gen multi and a couple from single blogs ( not Ben or Luke ) onto a new, entirely sw based multiuse. it'll be a slow process but I've already got a muse list up so?? progress. anyway, i hope everyone has a good week, remember to drink some water, and remember that you're amazing!

[catpop12343]

Every now and then I add a new guy to my collection of fucked up little men

[cloudyfacewithjam]

[transarsonist]

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[greyturned]

what if jacen syndulla, ben solo, and grogu were friends