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eg : a study in grief, loss, surviving, and sainthood. anti - plec, anti - l.j.s. & anti - de.lena. headcanon - based with show influences. est. 2021 / resurrected 2023 by anna.

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life has been crazy

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the trifecta : elena's relationships with bonnie & caroline

while caroline, bonnie, and elena exist as a trinitarian friend group, their individual relationships vary wildly.

bonnie and elena's relationship is very close knit. bonnie was elena's real first friend. they navigated elementary school and part of middle school together before caroline came into the picture. so they've always had a bond that is incredibly close. they've seen each other at their worst and their best. they've had countless sleep overs and days trips to the library. while they come for different family dynamics, elena have always felt a level of ease around bonnie and vis versa. bonnie is the level headed friend that elena needs, acting as a guidepost when her emotions get the better of her, and elena is able to push bonnie out of her comfort zone, calling her to a deeper level of knowing herself.

caroline and elena's relationship initially started off as more of a rivalry ( and sometimes still presents this way today ). whether it comes for elena's innate need to be seen as valuable ( especially after the birth of jeremy, she felt a little displaced for a while ) or caroline's passion to win at everything, the two of them initially butted heads. over the years, their friendship has developed into a sort of easy push and pull. where bonnie keeps elena steady, caroline pulls her up into the clouds when she needs it. and elena is caroline's ever present conscience.

the three of them together though? it's a fucking masterpiece of teenage friendship.

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elena ultimately blames herself for the death of her parents. no amount of telling her otherwise will convince her. it's an unshakeable conviction she carries around with her. it isolates her, specifically, from jeremy and her aunt jenna.

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pool, samia / tvd 3x22

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caroline never does sympathy quite right. it always comes out too loud, too stiff— plastic despite her sincere attempts. bonnie's always been better at that quiet kind of understanding. caroline has only ever been good at the anger, the revenge. sometimes she wishes elena would just ask for blood, caroline thinks that might be the only thing she could give her right. “ it is definitely not fine. ” and there are a million ways she could ruin carter mayfield. his sister is on the cheer team. caroline has access to his house. his family. she pencils in planning out his retribution for some time after 8pm. right now elena needs something else... bonnie, probably. but she's stuck with caroline instead. “ don't you ever just feel like giving them a good punch in the face? that's the only way you can ever get through to boys sometimes, you know. and you won't even get in trouble for it! no one's going to want to give the— ” orphan a detention “ —i mean, you like just got back. you've got at least a three day window where none of teachers are going to bother you. you should take advantage of it when you can. ”

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elena finds her eyes drifting from the crowd of student to her companion. best friend #2. it's not a secret bonnie is closer to her than caroline is, but elena does her best to avoid broaching that subject at all costs. caroline is ... caroline whether it's raining or a bright sunny day. that's what elena loves about her. " yeah i guess i sometimes do, but ... " that wouldn't change anything. besides, elena just wants everything to go back to normal. or as normal as it can be. and that means no acts of violence, " we can't stoop to their level. just because i have a grief pass doesn't mean i can't get suspended. " with what feels like an enormous amount of effort, elena moves away from bonnie's car, her right hand resting on the messenger bag strap that is digging into her shoulder. fuck mr. tanner's extensive history reading list. " and us being friends doesn't keep you from ending up in hot water. the team needs you this year. they can't lose anybody else. "

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@5eriously asked: ❛ you want me to shut him up for you? ❜

elena presses her hands deeper into her jacket pockets. she finds a hole in the left one, pointer finger snagging on the fabric. " no, caroline. it's fine. just let him leave. " the brunette leans against the side of bonnie's car, doe eyes watching the teenage boy sulk into the on-coming crowd of freshmen when he finally understands that he's not going to get a rise out of her. " he's just being dumb. someone probably dared him to say it. " hey elena! how're you parents? oh, wait ... they're dead. " besides, if you start something, they're just going to keep coming back. "

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elena refuses to get into any and all cars after the accident. instead, she walks to school and everywhere else. jeremy jokes she's like the u.s. postal service: rain, snow, or sunshine, she'll get to where she needs to be.

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dear diary : nobody tells you grief fucks up your morning routine.

one day you're the most popular girl in school with a ten-step skincare routine and the next you're rolling out of bed five minutes before home room starts.

the worst part is waking up. for a few seconds after i open my eyes, everything feels normal. normal like before. i can hear dad rattling around in the kitchen and mom knocking on jeremy's door. everything is the way it's supposed to be.

but then it hits me. that suffocating blanket of grief comes crashing down from my bedroom ceiling and i realize the house is so quiet i can hear my heartbeat pounding in my chest. the house never used to be this quiet.

i'm late for homeroom again.

[nightprompts]

&. 𝐡𝐨𝐫𝐫𝐨𝐫 𝐭𝐡𝐞𝐦𝐞𝐝 𝐬𝐞𝐧𝐭𝐞𝐧𝐜𝐞 𝐬𝐭𝐚𝐫𝐭𝐞𝐫𝐬.

(  various  non - halloween  themed  dialogue  prompts  for  all  your  slashers,  final  girls,  and  other  horrors  beyond  your  comprehension.  trigger  warning  for  dark  themes.  feel  free  to  edit  as  you  seem  fit.  ) 

❛ it’s the silence that scares me. ❜

❛ i’m every nightmare you ever had. ❜

❛ i want to see your true face. ❜

❛ one way or another, you’re going to die tonight. ❜

❛ just because you don’t see it, doesn’t mean it’s not already here. ❜

❛ by the time anyone finds your body, they won’t be able to identify it. ❜

❛ you’re playing a dangerous game here, girl. ❜

❛ i’m playing the villain, just like you wanted. ❜

❛ i won’t give up on you, i know you’re worth it! ❜

❛ scream all you want. no one will hear you. ❜

❛ what are you going to do to me? ❜

❛ there you are, my darling! ❜

❛ i knew you would come back to me. ❜

❛ don’t you want to be consumed by what loves you? ❜

❛ i’m going to send you back to hell where you came from! ❜

❛ you can’t keep me here forever! ❜

❛ how are you still alive? i killed you! ❜

❛ sometimes human spaces make inhuman monsters. ❜

❛ please. why don’t you just let me go? ❜

❛ this missing poster has your face on it. ❜

❛ that wasn’t so bad, was it? ❜

❛ what’s wrong, you don’t trust me? ❜

❛ i know a lot about you. more than you think. ❜

❛ you want me to shut him up for you? ❜

❛ we could have been beautiful together. ❜

❛ when you think you’re alone, someone watches. ❜

❛ rest while you can, because i will hunt you and eat you whole. ❜

❛ what you want is very wrong. ❜

❛ you look so pretty all tied up like this. ❜

❛ what, you like to watch? you goddamn sicko. ❜

❛ god isn’t here. god doesn’t even know about this place. ❜

❛ there is something at work in my soul which i do not understand. ❜

❛ i am the devil, and i am here to do the devil’s work. ❜

❛ you know what they say, an eye for an eye. ❜

❛ why don’t you scream for me? ❜

❛ are you… smelling me? ❜

❛ we’re going to die out here. ❜

❛ i’m not afraid of anything. not anymore. ❜

❛ we will be what everyone wants to be. perfect. ❜

❛ no offense, but i think you might be just a little too crazy for me. ❜

❛ we all go a little mad sometimes. ❜

❛ the harder i try to escape, the further i get into this awful place. ❜

❛ this was not how it was supposed to go! ❜

❛ this is the end of your little game. i win. ❜

❛ don’t leave me! i can’t be alone! ❜

❛ no one is coming for you. ❜

❛ you hide. and i’ll try to find you. sound fun? ❜

❛ fuck this place. seriously, just fuck this place. ❜

❛ what’s the matter, honey? you’ve barely touched your dinner. ❜

❛ don’t be afraid. dying is much easier than living. ❜

❛ i won’t let them kill you. i won’t let them even touch you. ❜

❛ let’s get you some clothes before i get too turned on. ❜

❛ you weren’t putting that tongue to use anyway. ❜

❛ shall i drink your blood fresh, or slice your neck and spill it out first? ❜

❛ dying keeps moving lower on the list of worst things that could happen to me. ❜