You Must Have Chaos Within

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[grindingofteeth]

I hear this song and thing about so many what if’s; and I know in another universe somewhere, we share a little trailer and maybe a child. But not this universe; never in this one.

[grindingofteeth]

Sometimes I feel so close to being understood, but then the arrow missed its target and hits me straight in the chest instead.

I feel so lonely I want to drown inside my own hollowness.

[ivynightshade]

fatima aamer bilal, excerpt from moony moonless sky’s my body is a slaughterhouse.

[text id: my jugular misses your teeth.]

[grindingofteeth]

One day I’ll choke on my own tongue holding back how much I miss you.

[person918x]

B-sides and rarities: previously unreleased drafts of images I was never fully satisfied with. Now you can be dissatisfied with them too.

[grindingofteeth]

oh no. my heart is actually really fucking stupid.

[valuspina-deactivated20251027]

enemies to lovers but it’s me and myself

[grindingofteeth]

Listen, if you want to gaslight me, be my guest, but neither of us are going to like the feral animal I become to get away from you. Trust me.

[grindingofteeth]

I’m having trouble sleeping again. I forgot how cruel the nights can be.

[grindingofteeth]

tfw you realize all of the physical issues you deal with on a regular basis all connect as comorbidities of one another. autism + hEDS + pcos + hs. it literally all connects.

i’m just upset because i’m having a flare up and it’s a nasty one; i’m uncomfortable and in pain and unable to move correctly or use my fingers properly. it’s so frustrating.

[grindingofteeth]

always a sucker for a dog motif

[grindingofteeth]

was reading about birth chart placements that are dead giveaway markers for powerful witches and then looked at my own birth chart to discover i have not one, not two, but four fucking markers.

it’s time to take back my power. g-d damn.

[grindingofteeth]

and that’s not even mentioning: - my libra stellium (sun, moon, mercury) - my stellium in the 7th house (sun, mercury, jupiter - ironically the house ruled by libra, adding even more to my chart) 👀) - and a stellium in the 8th house (moon, mercury, pluto)

[grindingofteeth]

was reading about birth chart placements that are dead giveaway markers for powerful witches and then looked at my own birth chart to discover i have not one, not two, but four fucking markers.

it’s time to take back my power. g-d damn.

[illustratus]

The Temple of Poseidon with a captivating Crescent Moon and Venus, Cape Sounion, Greece

[grindingofteeth]

rejection is protection

[burtonandtaylor]

“You just do it. You force yourself to get up. You force yourself to put one foot before the other, and God damn it, you refuse to let it get to you. You fight. You cry. You curse. Then you go about the business of living. That’s how I’ve done it. There’s no other way.”

- Elizabeth Taylor

[recordplayerbabyyyy]

The Woman and the Dragon, Apocalypse of John of Bedford, 13th century