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"g-go away! i'm busy!" shsl doujin author fukawa [part of a closed group]

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[ starter for mekankoshi ]

      —> Fukawa wanted to avoid social contact as much as xe possibly could. Since xe was famous, this proved to be difficult. Xyr manager always urged xem to go to cons and make public appearances and other things such as that. Xe absolutely despised it. ||

   —> So of course, they never wanted to initiate social contact xemself. However, with xyr drawing tablet broken xe had to see someone (since buying a new one would force xem to go outside and talk to people, and xe did not have the time to wait for one to come in from ordering it online). ||

   —> However, luckily, Fukawa had heard that there was a mechanic at this school. It was a stretch, but maybe they could fix xyr tablet. Perhaps going to someone who specialized in electronics would be better, but xe hadn't heard of any such person. So xe walked around the halls in hopes of finding this person. Hopefully xe would find them rather quickly. ||

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[ starter for uncagedcanary ]

      --> A frustrated sigh exits the girl. An art block was practically deadly to xem. Xe wanted to take a few hours today to just relax and draw whatever came to mind, perhaps practice anatomy a bit, but nothing did. This had only ended up being a total waste of time. ||

   --> Fukawa had tried to draw students xe saw from her table in the library, but no one particularly struck xem as interesting. So far only basic background characters have found their way onto xyrs sketchbook. Well, background characters with bizarre appearances. ||

   --> It wasn't until xe saw a girl with long, well kept blonde hair that xe found someone that struck a creative chord within xem. It was blatantly obvious that the artist was staring at her. Xe had a bad habit of staring when xe was drawing someone xe saw. The problem was that until she sat down, she wasn't being nearly still enough for xem. Xe puts a hand to xyr hair, tugging at it and letting out a rather loud grumble of frustration. ||

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little lotte || chihiro

[thelittlestheir-blog]

  He tilted his head to the side, obviously confused. “Everyone else?” He wondered what they meant by that… He certainly didn’t consider himself very much like most people. Infact, on the contrary, he rarely lashed out at anyone (if ever) and never started any verbal arguments or physical fights, not that he would be able to do good at both. Seeing that they got up, made him feel a bit of relief at the least. At least they were okay, right? Even if he may have gotten off on the wrong start with them, they were okay!

"Well, either way, I’m happy to see that you’re okay! Make sure you get some rest if you need it, okay? I’d put my head against a pillow for a while, just in case any nasty bumps may have formed!" …Did they have bumps? He couldn’t really tell… If anything, it may have been a small bump, not a large one. Despite how they were to him, he tried to remain with a smile, trying to be reassuring. Maybe if he was nice enough, he could seem less like a threat?… He COULD tell them that he was the heir to the Fujisaki Family, but.. He hated playing that card. He wanted to win people’s trust by how he was, not his status. It could easily win them over, but he didn’t want that. He wanted to be genuinely liked for who he was… Which is what he was going to try to do. "A-And maybe I wouldn’t walk so fast next time..! I mean, if you’re in a hurry, that’s fine, but taking your time might be a lot better than rushing! If you had a thought in your mind for example, maybe you could expand more on it while you were walking? I really think walks help a lot for thinking!" …He probably sounded dumb. And unnecessarily nice. But he didn’t care. He wanted to make friends, and he was going to try his best. This person didn’t seem too much like a bully, right? Maybe they just misunderstood and are having a hard time trusting him, is all!

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   --> Why were they being nice to xem? Was it becuase they wanted to act like they were nice before being mean? They truly were like everyone else. They must really want something from xem. But what could it be? What could someone as useless as xem have to offer this person? ||

   >> "Wh-why are you trying to be nice?"

      >> "Do you want something from m-me?"

         >> "Or do you just w-want to make me have to do something nice in r-return?"

   --> The brief thought of just running away to xyr room crosses Fukawa's mind. Maybe xe could salvage something to write down from xyr scrambled memory. That would be...awkward though, to say the least. Plus, what if xe ran into a wall again? Or fell? That would be far too embarrassing. ||

"A-And maybe I wouldn’t walk so fast next time..! I mean, if you’re in a hurry, that’s fine, but taking your time might be a lot better than rushing!"

   --> Were they mocking xem? The artist brings xyr hands up, threading xyr fingers in xyr hair and pulling. Xe couldn't stand this person. Being talked to condescendingly was one of the things xe hated the most. Sure, Fukawa knew that xe was inferior trash compared to everyone else, but they still hated being treated like it. ||

   >> "D-Don't talk down to me like t-that..!"

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[ alrighty here's what i gotta do ]

➤ reply for chihiro (started)

➤ starter for sonia (started)

➤ starter for tsumiki

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[ i'm gonna direct you folks to this post over here if you haven't seen it yet. that out of the way, i don't feel like making another post about things i need to do because i only need to reply to chihiro, which i'm already about half way done with the response.

but like this if you want a starter!! ]

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little lotte || chihiro

[thelittlestheir-blog]

  Having felt the body of the person who had fell on him move off, he quickly scrambled to get back up, dusting himself off. He noticed that this person was now clenching their legs. Had he done something wrong..? He reached out a hand, immediately recoiling it as they yelled at him and pointed an accusing finger at him. He takes a step backward, kind of shocked. Was this going to be the start of a new era of bullying..? No.. Maybe he was just misunderstood. He cleared his throat, trying to keep his composure as he responded.

"Nothing in particular, I just saw that you had-" He was quickly cut off by them yelling again. He realized that… They were definetly in an awkward position… Well, he didn’t think so. If they were facing eachother when on top of eachother, it would be a lot more awkward, but he honestly didn’t see the problem. Maybe he could simply say it was an honest mistake, there was no need for any arguments to start. He wasn’t the type to bring up fights anyways. "W-Well, umm.. It’s not what you think, honestly..! Assuming if.. you were thinking something wrong, but I promise to you, I only wished to help you. That looked like it hurt, after all.. Do you need to see the nurse? I could escort you there, maybe.." It seemed a bit excessive in his mind, but he only really wanted to show them that he meant no harm. After all, he didn’t want to start off badly, he wanted to make friends.. Maybe this person wouldn’t be the type to want to be friends. Heck, he doesn’t even know if they had a specific title they wanted to be referred to by, like how some people insisted he’d be called Young Master… He never really liked the sound of that. He always just wanted to be called “Chihiro” or “Fujisaki” or something simple like that. He just prayed from the bottom of his tiny heart.. "Please, please don’t let my first interaction go this badly… Please."

[grotesqueartist]

      --> Sadly, Fukawa wasn't going to believe this person so easily. Xe was fixed on the idea that they had been doing something weird. Trust only came when xe had known the other person for a while, and this event made xem not want to be around them longer than xe had to. ||

   --> If xe had known of their position, xe would've reacted a little differently. Maybe not too differently, but xe wouldn't be as loud at least. It was odd, seeing as Fukawa was never this loud normally. ||

   >> "N-no! I don't want them touching me!"

   --> The girl shook xyr head vigorously at the idea of going to the nurse. Xe had already experienced more physical contact that they wanted in a week today, and anymore would be out of the question. Thinking about it logically though, that would probably be the best course of action. But wouldn't they be hurt too? Well, not as badly as xe had been since xe hit the wall first before falling. ||

   >> "You say you want to help, but you're just like e-everyone else!"

      >> "I've been l-lied to enough to know these things..!"

      --> Apparently xe either hadn't noticed it before, or it was just now kicking in, but xe had a major headache. Writing and drawing in these conditions would only make xyr work crappier than it usually was. ||

   --> Fukawa scrambled up to xyr feet. Xe had pain killers in xyr room, so that should be good enough. If xe would've felt xyr head, xe would've noticed a small bump forming. It probably wasn't anything major. Besides, as long as xe managed to get down whatever ideas xe had had previously, it would be fine. Taking a break like this anyways cut into the artist's schedule, so this was making it so xe would have a lot more to do in a shorter amount of time. |☆|

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little lotte || chihiro

[thelittlestheir-blog]

  The corridors seemed long and constantly winding to the heir as he traveled forward, exploring the school. The school was a very fascinating place to him, and especially its history. Even though there were only doors and doors and walls and walls to be seen, he still found it all a very whimsical sight. He put a hand on his chin, pushed up his glasses, fiddled with his suit a little, he tended to have these little habits.

"Such an interesting sight, this school.. I wonder where everyone is, though?… I guess it does not matter.." He thought about his life back at home. So, he was going to a school for the first time in… who knew how long? He only recalled Junior High, and Elementary schools… Right, the bullying.. He was tormented all the time in those schools. Good thing his family had more finance than they knew what to do with. A private tutor was nothing to them. It was especially an honor, being able to teach the heir to the Fujisaki family. Now, he had a school. He wondered what it would be like to have teachers.. More than just one person teaching him, and the people.. He really did wonder what they would be like. Would they be nice to him? Would they ridicule him like they once did? He pondered all this… as he saw a running person smack right into a wall. ”..!!” He rushed to the person he had seen run into the wall. They seemed to be falling backward, maybe if he could just—!! …Nope. Physical strength was never his strong suit. As he tried to catch her, he ended up falling backwards himself, the person on top of him. He noticed they were taller than him, as usual.. "What if they notice..?" He tried to speak.. "M-Mmff, mf mff mmf mmmff?" No good. His words were all muffled. Only thing he could do was wait for them to get off…

[grotesqueartist]

      --> It was weird. When xe fell, xe didn't feel the cold, hard surface of the floor. The impact was in no means like landing on a pile of pillows. It felt more like falling on a body. A body...Oh! Xe fell on a body! That explains the muffled voice xe heard. ||

   --> Fukawa scrambles off the stranger, curling up into a ball. Xe latches xyr arms around xyr legs, putting things together. Why was this person behind xem?? Surely they were planning on doing something sinister! The girl feels odd, having just experienced so much physical contact. A shiver runs down xyr spine. Gross. ||

   >> "Y-You..! What were you d-doing?!"

   --> An accusing finger is pointed at the smaller person as shouts bounce of the walls. Xe slides back away from this person further. Xyr hands fly to xyr glasses, and after hesitantly putting xyr fingers on the lenses to check for cracks, xe is relived for a brief moment. At least they weren't cracked from running into the wall. But back to the matter at hand. ||

   >> "Why the hell were you that c-close to me?!"

      --> The possibilty that they were trying to do something harmless or even helpful doesn't cross Fukawa's mind. It's just instinct to believe that something bad was going to happen. Something bad always did happen. Xe was waiting for the insults and hateful words to be hurled at xem. ||

   --> It was horrible that the artist had to think like this. Xe didn't want to think like this. Xe just couldn't help it. No matter how much someone would try to convince xem, it would never work. But...what was happening before this? Xe had an idea...and now xe can't remember it with all of the commotion that was occurring. Great. Fukawa couldn't stand this person already. Well, not like that was different from anyone else honestly. |☆|

[grotesqueartist]

[ so i finished fukawa's backstory if anyone wants to read it, but tw for physical and sexual abuse mentions ]

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little lotte || open

      --> A walk. That was what xe needed. Staying cramped up in xyr room more than xe usually does would be bad. Fresh air could help the thoughts and ideas cirulate. Maybe xe would even find some inspiration from something xe sees. That's probably unlikely, though. ||

   --> Somehow Fukawa had ended up getting more and more fans. The mere idea of it baffled xem. No one could truly like someone like xem. Someone so disgusting, someone so inferior, someone so vile; how could someone like someone as undesirable as xem? It was definitely a mystery. ||

   >> "...I-It's probably because they don't know what I'm really like..."

      >> "That m-must be it..! No one in their right mind would t-tolerate me!"

      --> The artist mumbled these words under xyr breath. Xe wrapped xyr hands around xyr arms, holding onto them tightly. Grey irises were linked with the floor tiles, staring aimlessly at them as they progressed. Walks usually turned out like this. The girl would let xyr thoughts wander and xe would end up hating xemself more. Maybe walks weren't such a good idea. ||

   --> Fukawa's thoughts wandered back to xyr fans. They all wanted more and more of All the Reasons Why, and sadly that coming to a close. Perhaps a sequel was in order. However, this sequel would have to be good. Xe thought that xe was a disappointment, so xe didn't want to make anyone lower their expectations even further. ||

   >> "...A new protagonist. A young woman."

      >> "Something like a...a succubus..."

      --> The words seemed to flow past xyr lips. Inspiration had struck! Xe had to write all this down! Then sketch it all out! This was absolutely great! Xyr fans wouldn't hate xem with this new material! Xe had to get back to xyr room right away! ||

   --> Against better judgement, xe began to run. Fukawa wasn't fast at all, nor were xe good at running, but the actions just came without xem thinking about it at all. Xe went to turn a corner, and smacked right into a wall. Xe stumbled back before falling backwards. ||

   >> "Gyaa..!"

   --> Everything was spinning at this point. That was a really hard hit. Was Fukawa seeing stars, even? Surely whoever saw xem would make fun of xem. Of course. On xyr first day, something like this had to happen. Great, xe's already made a laughing stock of xemself. Good job. |☆|

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[ so i'm working on the backstory which i'll post later, and it's going to be way more upsetting than ibuki's backstory is, so beware

other than that i'm pretty much done with setting up this blog so yeah ]