Guardin Of The Books

tell me something i don't know

[guardingofthebooks]

and i’ll still see it until i die, you’re the loss of my life

marauders fandom^

[guardingofthebooks]

in 2021, during pandemic i met with a girl in here. her nickname was yagmurdayurumekistiyorum and we were in same book group. tumblr groups was popular back then. when those groups just disappeared one morning randomly i think that was the day tumblr totally died. i was a cold, 16 years old girl who is kinda scared of getting close to people but at the same time i needed find my own people. movie nerds girlies like me. we talked in group cause she compliment my pp. it was octavia blake and i was such an huge fan. that night we become friends with that cute girl. she was a year younger than me and for years we talked about everything. i helped her shine academically but then i just failed. i’ve had a heavy depression. one of those nights i felt like im dying she talked about her friends’s love problems and i just lost my temper. she tried everything for fix our problems but i was too broken and arrogant for it. i just needed to know if im able to cut off people off my life or not. answer is yes, by the way. im able to. i just did it to wrong person. i had a lot of people who i should cut off but it was her first. i tried fix it too when i realize im missing her in my bones. she said she’ll be always here if i need her. and i said i need her. but she wasn’t around. we talked in our birthdays, never forgot each other’s. she unfollowed me from her priv account we chose the names together. it was fine cause i was watching her taking her life to finally her own hands. she made good changes to herself and she was happy. she still is. today our friendship completely end. it’s such a shame cause even if we weren’t talking i always liked the idea of having her in my life again. we always talked about me writing my novel and visiting her cafe. im wondering am i still allow to visit her one day?

im writing all of that thoughts here cause sometimes i don’t know why im still in tumblr. the 100 was my favorite show back then and my every photo was about octavia. even now, i couldn’t change it. if i put another photo it will feel like i lost the 15 yo tuti forever. she is not in tumblr anymore but if one day if she decides come here i want her to know i really loved her. i still do cause i love my people too much and i don’t even know where to put all this love sometimes, even if they left me.

and tonight feels like the one that got away. cause sometimes when i miss you i put those records on

thx for make me regret my decisions cause i wouldn’t be that emotionally mature girl if i wasn’t be that heartbroken from your friendship

was my pp back then

[beljude]

[durrandon]

A Knight of The Seven Kingdoms: S1.E1. The Hedge Knight — Pages 4-5

The spring rains had softened the ground, so Dunk had no trouble digging the grave.

[puppygirlirl]

you aren't insane you just live with your parents

you aren't insane you just live with your parents

you aren't insane you just live with your parents

you aren't insane you just live with your parents

you aren't insane you just live with your parents

[reggieslocket]

how do i explain to my parents and relatives that the reason i put effort into my studies and my exams is not to have a bright future and a nice job but because i can't possibly fail remus lupin

[guardingofthebooks]

"There's no happy endings,not here and not now"

"I tried to be the good guy"

"I got magic beans"

"I'm nothing like you"

"The world can be dark,Mary"

"Go away Tate"

"Friends don't lie"

"We don't kill the living"

" You are my sadness and my hope but mostly you're my love"

[guardingofthebooks]

HELP IM STILL AT THE RESTAURANT

[guardingofthebooks]

and i just want say i loved tumblr when i was in high school and i hate it now as a sociology student. even if im still alone here i can't just leave because i don't wanna lose the 14 yo octavia blake stan girl

[guardingofthebooks]

i need advices about my personal life. and you know my personal life all about academic. SO I NEED REASONABLE STRANGER IN MY DAMN UNSTABLE LIFE

[softestaries]

oh wyatt callow, the boy who weighed everyones odds in the arena and still threw himself in front of a blade for lou lou, knowing hers too.

[akiyamadiaries]

#thinking about haymitch going from “this bitch snores loud as hell thats another reason i dont want him as my ally” to this……………………. suzanne collins you are so evil

[deswhomst]

“kreacher lives to serve the noble house of black” same kreacher me too

[maldarine]

Me I fear..

[444bluehour444]

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[twinkpeaked]

[fiveholesinthefence]

can someone please change the fucking prophecy

[guardingofthebooks]

today, major tom has made his final landing and for me, today the music died.