HELLO...

I'm Grace and I'm stellar || Line ID: gurasuu ||

[gurasuu]

Looking back at my old posts, i can say i'm working towards a new mindset. getting more into my creative hobbies and just trying to get out of my head. to happier days

[jbirdoftheriverlands-deactivate]

Emoji spell for extreme good luck for the next two months

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Likes charge. Reblogs CAST

[gurasuu]

always get blown off for family or boyfriends. never do the same b/c i have no depth to my social life. no one else to prioritize b/c i never do anything else with anyone anyways. fucking sucks. why do i have to be so lonely

[gurasuu]

tried to walk the neighborhood for exercise. got anxious b/c ppl can see me and gave up. tired of me sometimes

[gurasuu]

tired of seeing happy couples.

[gurasuu]

Just went for a short walk in this oppressive heat to "check on" my car that I dropped off earlier in the afternoon. Just wanted to see if they've even looked at it yet lol. i hope they didn't recognize me. The car was moved so at least they drove it. Now I wait for the phone call with the ridiculously expensive fix for a small issue that was probably caused by a previous mechanic's carelessness....adulting is exhausting and I barely do the adulting stuff

[gurasuu]

Crazy how childhood trauma just resurfaces randomly and causes a long stretch of heightened depression and anxiety...lol I'm just angry cuz wtf was everybody on when I was kid.

[gurasuu]

Sitting on the edge, just barely holding on. The blue light my only comfort. in this vast ocean as it moves me. My sanctuary is icy and full of cracks. It’s ready to break but calmly I sit and stare into my blue light. A tight, toxic bond. It comforts me, it warms me, it fuels me. It hurts me, it hates me, it drains me.

[a-path-by-the-moon]

[dosomethingprettywhileyoucan]

Money spell! Reblog to charge it with your intent; the more people see it, the more powerful it becomes. Magic should be fun!

[deadgorl]

this actually does work the witches of tumblr really are out here doing something lol

NOW THIS MONEY POST I AM HERE FOR

[sassysugarnyc-deactivated201904]

Yesss November come throughhhhhhh!!

[darkcocosb-blog]

Reblogging with all my intent and desire.

[darkcocosb-blog]

I Made $750 For Nothing

[theechrysalisamidst]

I need a transition and also to not be in abject poverty

[earthshaker1217]

I too require money.

[cornerof5thandvermouth]

i need to pay for my best friend’s college course, don’t fail me now

[gurasuu]

EZRA MILLERRR

WHERE IS EZRA MILLER????? It’s been almost a year since we’ve seen or heard anything about him. WHERE IS HE???????

[gurasuu]

Misogyny is so much deeper than people think. Like it’s a major reason for relationships with unequal emotional and domestic labor. It can be the basis of an abusive relationship where your thoughts, emotions, opinions, autonomy and independence are dismissed. Men will swear they aren’t overtly sexist but will maintain covert ideals and practices. So many people uphold oppression without realizing it. I hate it so much. It’s turned me off to hetero romantic relationships meaning I don’t hold them in such high regard anymore because so many women are living in a literal nightmare.

[gurasuu]

Does your mind keep returning to an incident that happened awhile ago now but you just can’t seem to get over it completely? A current friend of mine was super toxic at times and some moments of her behavior just keeps coming back up. It’s not like i’ve ever gotten an apology and I’d feel awkward bringing it up after over a year but I can’t get over it lol. 

[gurasuu]

i wonder why i’m not good enough for good ppl. i want nice easy relationships. its so difficult

[gurasuu]

Wish i had more friends. people who wanna see me. wish i could see people. i’m lonely. dont know what’s happening rn. it’s all just....eh

[gurasuu]

I always get triggered when I hear the phrase, “helping each other grow”. Because of my personal experiences, I associate it with an unequal exchange of emotional support. Like you want my labor to help you become a decent adult with no guarantee that I will be able to get that same kind of support back. When I hear that it’s like hearing, “I want you to sacrifice your happiness at times to suffer under by bullshit and try to hold me accountable for it occasionally with no guarantee that I’ll actually change and become a better person. I may or may not do the same for you. Who knows, I’m usually a taker, not a giver.” I’d love for a mutual effort to grow together by encouraging therapy to improve ourselves and pooling our resources together so that we can build a comfortable life as companions. Will I ever get someone who isn’t toxic and literally means it in the best way possible?.....

[gurasuu]

muted colors are so calming