I want to make a post today to talk about the status of certain things, mostly animation and stuff.
I don’t really expect anyone to read this, but I know I had a few friends back in the day on this page and on Youtube, no idea where you went but I hope one day you end up seeing this and remember me as that Youtube dude.
I've always enjoyed having a personal touch in my posts and my old work, it’s very nice to go back and look through to just see how things once were. I like to see that old clock I used to have on my desk in my old videos, and how I used to clean my desk with pledge furniture polish to get rid of finger prints and clay stains. It makes me remember, it’s kind of sweet but also kind of sad.
I don’t like change, I prefer it to be subtle and sneaky. Making big changes is scary to me and opens you up to all kinds of new and scary things. But these things can be great, they can be exciting, fun, new and most of all; better than what you used to have.
Theres a small comfort in thinking about how this laptop I’m typing on is the same laptop I used to type on when I was active in the animation community.
I think that things have changed and people have changed, but not me, I feel the same, just have a bigger number next to my name. Everyone changed around me but I was just stuck in the past not really moving forward, but I wanted to move forward. I liked adventure. But it was scary. It would often make me feel sick.
Interactive media is changing, people are changing and I feel like I’m caught in the middle of it, not having the chance to keep up with it, just like a lagging clock.
Videos grow shorter, attention spans also. It just feels like nobody has the time for anything anymore. Even this post, which reads like teenage angst.
I’ve always enjoyed writing, and animating. Animation is still my “Thing”. It’s what people know me for, and will ask me about it when they haven’t seen me for a while. “You still doing that thing with playdoh on youtube” “No not really, I don’t have the time.”
And there it is. Time. I do have it. I just don’t use it. It’s what we all say, that we don’t have the time. I have time because otherwise I wouldn't be writing this. It’s just a really easy excuse to use when you can’t be bothered.
It’s not always the case, this I know.
I always wanted to be a slave to the clay, the clay works me more than I work it. Trust me, it is frustrating when you can’t even control what you have the most creative control over in the world.
I feel like some kind of idiot #inspo blogger dude when I write this but I’m just writing down my thoughts, it’s actually quite therapeutic and relaxing to come to terms with some thoughts, some nagging feelings. “When you going to start animating again?” Is a common thought of mine. I would love to do it, but it’s so easy not to when all my clay and stuff is packed away and my laptop, that I previously praised, runs like shit dripping from a dogs ass. Specifically a dogs ass.
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