That Girl, This Life PsycHOTic Confession

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Dont say i dint do anything scary .........😝

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Goodbye 2021 and Hello 2022

Last year we lost our Dad from Covid. I was heartbroken and even now when thinking about him just makes me want to cry. But this year thought me "its time to kill the idea that we can only grow and heal when we're uncomfortable. You heal evey time you laugh. You heal everytime you have a good conversation with someone. You heal everytime you laugh. You heal everytime you have fun creating something-anything. You heal everytime you get absorbed in something fun that you forget your struggles for a while. There is, in fact, lots of healing and growth to be found INSIDE your comfort zone"

Still hurt though. I really miss my Dad.

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Flower Delivery from Adam ❤️

I dont know what i did to deserve a friend like you.. Even though you live from the other side of the World, you still know that i needed a smile lately from all the chaos and loneliness im feeling here.(You knew how much i miss my family and that i want nothing more than wishing i spend my holiday with them).

Thank you so very much.. you have gifted me soft toys and flowers for almost 5 years or so....Thank you Adam. I am truly grateful for being one of you closest friend even though i live very far from you... ❤️

#flowersdelivery #fromcanada

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I'm the definition of "the girl never gets the guy"

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It is so hard to act tough, and mad, and all wild when i know beneath this skin im all soft and tender and fragile and just wanted to be loved.

Dammit. I jUsT wAnTeD To Be LoVeD.

- Ai Entero

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Sunday is a time when you sit back and reflect on all the blessings that you have received. Smile at all the good things that you are enjoying" - Sera Train

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Keep your Head up and Smile

Quoting Marilyn Manroe

"This life is what you make it. No matter what, you're going to mess up sometimes, it's a universal truth. But the good part is you get to decide how you're going to mess it up. Girls will be your friends- they'll act like it anyway. But just remember, some come and some go. The ones that stayed with you through everything- they're your true best friends. Don't let go of them. Also remember sisters make the best friends in the world. As for lovers, well, they'll come and go too. And baby i hate to say it, most of them- actually pretty much all of them are going to break your heart, but you cant give up. If you give up you'll never find your soulmate. You'll never find the half that makes you whole and that goes for everything. Just because you fail once, doesnt mean your gonna fail at everything. Keep trying, hold on, and always, always, always believe in your self. Because if you dont then who will sweetie? So keep your head high, keep your chin up, and most importantly keep smiling. Because life's a beautiful thing and there's so much to smile about"

#marilynmanroe #selfquote #loveoneself

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What I Crave the Most

I literally crave affection. Its not about sex. I crave somebody to cuddle with me, and to lay their heads on my lap. I crave kisses, holding hands and running my thumb across theirs. Just looking at someone and thinking "How do i get this lucky?" - unknown

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Dearest Daddy,

Happy Valentines Day .

Miss you so much. You were the first man who gave me my first Valentines gift.

Still trying to get through a life without you. Still trying not to feel hurt when reality sink in that your not here. I still cry when i thought of you. I love you so much. I wish i told you often before.

Anyways. Miss you

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Acknowledge My Broken Friendship

I thought my heart was safe with them/her

People often asked me why they became/why she became important to me?

Because i know that whatever happens they/she will always be my 'Person'. That no matter what stupid things i do They/she will never judge me (but yes snort, smirk and being reprimand that they/she do). I know that they/she will be there when my darkest fear happened which it did. I've broken my heart into pieces too many times infront of them/her and i am so grateful they/she tolerate and kept helding them. And most of all "My heart is Safe with hers/them"

Or so i thought.

Sadly, that is not the case. Friendship is overrated.

To the person that used to be my friend, family and call it bestfriend. (Words from poemsporn_)

I honestly dont know how to express my feelings for you. I dont know how to thank you for all the times ive spent with you. The countless memories are very bittersweet to me, but i guess this is how looks back at friendship that no longer exist right?

Thank you so much for the times that you made me forget my worries and persuaded me to enjoy the moment. Thank you so much for being like a mother, a teacher and a supporter of mine, even when it felt like no one was on my side. (You know! before everything happened)

I don't wish we could be friends again because that is like going to the sea when you don't know how to swim (you really hurt me. You may not think u betrayed me but during that situation,that day when im battling how to cope losing my father and when im feeling disoriented with my life. You sided with them And u let them talk to my Dad horrible things of how i use his death for my drama "dead dad a drama?" And you knew my dad, and how you back bite about me with them. What kind of a 15 years of friendship is that?. Worst of all, before that situation happened i told you and embraced you and cried telling you im not ok and asking you to help me but instead u threw me overboard and for that i cannot forgive).

But i do wish you be ok and happy and move on with your life. I am grateful of the memories and wishing you the very best.

So thank you...

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The Sad Truth About Me

"I don't pick the wrong guys. They pick me." .... "like a fly strip for dysfunctional men" -Sex and the City Quotes

I dont get it? I'm a good person but why am I never be the girl that the right guy falls for? The wrong ones seems to have a radar on me, even a few feet away from them and Boom i got Sting.

Is it me or I'm just in a habit of selecting wrong men for a living?

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I choose to be Happy

"I have decided that no matter what is happening in my life, i will choose to Be Happy!. Not because everything ia perfect, but because I deserve it"

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Cradle Snatcher

"Why does everybody lie? The bad guys lie to get in your bed and the good guys lie to get in your heart" -Brooke Davis #oth

When I was 28 years old I decided to lose my virginity. I mean come on who am I saving it for? i already believed that True Love doesnt exist or will ever happen to me. However......

I met a.k.a Burger King, and i was shock that I fell for him so bad and so fast that I end up losing my virginity to him, with him and for him.

I mean he was the perfect guy for me, he made me laugh , he say the right thing and for some reason we have the same vocational in life (He is into volunteering and make a difference to the world and I do the same thing).

Boom..... Losing your virginity to someone you like is magical. But then again, losing it with someone who you thought will give you forever and promise to cherish you and worst has no plan to love you at all was and is the greatest Humiliation of all.

The worst hurt was when he told you after two days you slept together "I'm sorry, I slept with someone last night. My f U buddy" "I like you but im just not ready to be in a relationship" ..i was CRuSHeD and BuRNED

I thought what i gave him was something special ... Something he would be honoured but it turns out I was not that enough to make him love me...I was not that enough to make him choose a relationship with me.

He really did a number of me... Even until now i still feel im not enough or good enough to be a guy's girlfriend material or for a guy to choose me and love me.

I really did like him and i really believed that he could be the one for me.. He was a good guy who crush my heart... 💔

The coitus though was a bit awkward and yeah there was pain and blood (yuck) but i enjoyed making out with him alot.... I was a harlot...

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"We should all start to Live before we get too Old... Fear is Stupid. So are Regrets" -Marilyn Monroe #carpediem #siezetheday #livethemoments #throwbackthursday #traveler #tourista

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In my years of searching, I’m always hoping to meet a Good, Decent Guy but unfortunately like a fool I thought I found one. They say the worst guy who lie the most are the good guys. because Bad GUYS lie to get into your bed while good guys lie to get into your heart ... All Men LIE, GOOD or BAD, they are the same kind but The GOoD guys can really hurt u so Damn MuCh. #heartbroken💔 #heartbroken #brokenheart #unrequitedlove #mysadlovestory #sadlovestory #lovestory #sad #teardrops #nostalgic #worstguy #princecharming #mr.wrong #mrwrong #sadgirl