cherry "+.

since when were the moon and earth this close to each other?

[gyusol]

dateplay​:

         [  …  ]

        to  say  he  feels  short  of  an  idiot  would  be  an  understatement.  of  course  jax  is  completely  out  of  his  element  after  that  afternoon  ,  the  feeling  of  his  victory  only  lasting  a  few  minutes  before  he  had  made  the  decision  to  sleep  with  gun.  everything  after  that  …  it  all  went  downhill  naturally.  his  next  match  with  the  male  isn’t  even  fun  ;  it’s  jax  missing  ball  after  ball  ,  shot  after  shot.  he  even  nearly  sprains  his  ankle  while  making  the  dumbest  move  to  try  and  save  a  shot  from  his  opposite  ,  but  he’s  suddenly  incredibly  out  of  shape  and  he  knows  he’ll  hear  from  his  coach  after  this.  after  the  match  ,  he  approaches  the  net  to  congratulate  gun  on  winning  this  time  ,  but  his  eyes  fail  to  meet  the  other’s  gaze.  ‘’  hey  ,  eh  …  congrats  …  you  played  well  today.  ’’

following their encounter in the showers their next match was awkward to say the least . gun was struggling to keep his eyes on jax for more than a few moments , especially since he had ignored the number behind left by jax . the match didn’t last too long , the two of them probably not playing their best at all , but somehow gun had come out victorious even if he wasn’t in his best mindset . gun approached the net slowly , nervous to come face to face with jax after they had been so intimate with one another , but once they were close to each other he squinted . the way jax’s demeanour had completely changed caught him off guard as he finally chose to look at gun , “ yeah , thanks . ” he responded , watching his opponent before stepping closer to the net . “ look up at me . why aren’t you looking at me ? ” gun asked , a strain on his voice , but for what reason ? he was the one that chose not to keep in contact with jax after all . 

[gyusol]

80sluv​:

        his  mind  is  too  clouded  at  first  to  react  to  gun’s  words  ,  only  set  in  motion  when  there’s  a  hand  pushing  him  back  in  the  direction  of  another  shower  that  WASN’T  gun’s.  there’s  nothing  coming  from  his  mouth  ,  unable  to  speak  unlike  mere  minutes  ago.  he  turns  on  the  shower  ,  making  it  a  COLD  ONE.  he  rubs  his  chest  to  make  sure  the  flush  disappears  ,  his  cheeks  cooling  off.  ‘’  sure  ,  ’’  he  quietly  mumbles  ,  every  single  biting  remark  dying  in  his  throat  as  he  turns  off  the  shower  ,  leaving  the  shower  room.  after  wrapping  a  towel  around  his  waist  ,  he  sits  down  for  a  moment  ,  letting  it  sink  in  what  just  happened.  it  has  to  feel  like  a  mistake  ,  because  it  WAS  a  mistake  ——  but  somehow  ,  that’s  not  how  jax  is  feeling.  it’s  why  he  leaves  a  little  note  on  top  of  gun’s  stuff  before  he  leaves  ,  phone  number  scribbled  on  a  ripped  off  piece  of  toilet  paper.  there’s  no  way  they  should  leave  it  at  just  this  one  time.

gun wasn’t embarrassed about his own questioning sexuality , but he was embarrassed that the first guy he’d been that intimate with was the same guy that he’d only been threatening to hit earlier that day . his head lifted slowly , as to not draw attention back to himself , as he watched jax leave the shower room , his own cheeks flushing ridiculously hard underneath the heat of the shower . it was only a few minutes after his opponent had left that he had also decided to leave , his fingers beginning to prune and his body clean once again . his eyes nervously scan around , assuring jax had disappeared before he approached his belongings , squinting as he noticed the sheet on top of his things . as he grew closer he noticed the handwriting as well as the number and flushed as he buried the paper into his tennis bag , choosing instead to dry himself off and leave the premises as quickly as possible , debating whether or not to text the number at all .

[gyusol]

80sluv​:

         jax  is  quick  to  shut  up  ,  letting  the  other  do  his  thing  as  the  water  continues  to  clatter  down  his  own  back.  his  lips  are  pressed  into  a  thin  line  when  no  longer  kissing  gun  ,  hands  eagerly  sliding  from  the  other’s  hips  to  lower  behind  his  back.  ‘’  had  you  not  wanted  this  ,  you  would’ve  pushed  me  away.  ’’  the  male  is  caught  off  guard  by  a  pair  of  lips  pressed  against  his  collarbone  ,  finding  it  something  very  unlike  gun  (  but  absolutely  not  complaining  ).  ‘’  alright  then  …  go  ahead  ,  do  your  thing.  ’’  hands  are  roaming  some  more  ,  something  akin  to  delight  coursing  through  his  veins  ,  because  it’s  simply  HOT  to  have  gun  for  himself  like  this.  he  absolutely  can’t  wait  for  their  next  match  ,  knowing  something  will  have  changed  in  their  dynamics.  it’s  almost  as  if  both  males  snapped  ,  clinging  onto  each  other  under  the  shower  as  if  they’ve  wanted  this  for  so  long.  which  ,  in  fact  ——  ‘’  for  what  it  matters  …  i’ve  been  wanting  you  ,  too.  ’’

gun’s lips were parted as he stood underneath the shower , deep breaths falling in and out of his mouth as he turned to look at jax . “ move back to your own shower . go . ” he murmured , as his hand lifted to push the taller back towards the shower beside his . his cheeks flushed as he refused to meet his eyes , his ears burning up too . not only was his ass in pain , but now he’s sure that his face was as equally red , if not more so . what had happened ? how the hell had he let this happen ? he turned to look at the shower wall once again to wash his body once more . trying his hardest to ignore the fact that his opponent , and the guy he had just admitted to wanting for so long , isn’t stood too far away and that they’d just slept together . “ you leave the showers first . don’t make it obvious . ” 

[gyusol]

imamxdel​:

“Oh!”!

Sorom crashed to the ground, but was quick to get up. Whoever had run in to her clearly was trying to get from something, and his face was familiar though she couldn’t place it – their encounter felt a little rushed, but she squeaked when straightening herself up. 

“Ring someone, um…” No harm was done. She shrugged. “I think I’ll be okay, but…but are you alright?” she asked, more concern for his mental state than their little fall. “Are you okay?”

his hand remained outstretched for her to grab , his eyes still flickering around as he tried to work out if anyone had noticed him . it was then that he noticed she had stood up on her own and he retracted his hand , pulling his hood over his head . “ are you sure ? ” he asked , his hand on his own phone . “ ah , no . i’m okay , i’ll be okay . thank you for asking . ” dal nodded , confirming his own statements after he had said them . “ were you heading somewhere ? i can take you . least i can do for knocking you over . ”

[gyusol]

80sluv​:

          despite  the  emotional  state  she’s  in  ,  hyejoo’s  words  bring  a  frown  to  her  face.  ‘’  stop  repeating  every  single  thing  i  say.  you  heard  me  ,  didn’t  you  ?  ’’  out  of  frustration  ,  she  tries  to  storm  past  hyejoo  into  the  kitchen  ,  grabbing  a  bottle  of  wine  and  briefly  looking  at  which  one  it  exactly  is.  ‘’  if  you  truly  cared  about  me  ,  you  would  stop  blaming  everything  that’s  happening  on  ME  …  WE  messed  up  ,  joo.  both  of  us.  yes  ,  it’s  making  me  miserable.  ’’  valerie  doesn’t  pour  her  girlfriend  a  glass  ,  instead  filling  her  own  way  past  what’s  the  normal  amount  of  wine.  ‘’  can  you  just  …  stop  yelling  at  me  ?  please  ?  ’’

the two of them weren’t always like this . in fact , hyejoo can remember when they first began dating and how their relationship grew naturally and blossomed into something better . but how had they become like this ? she lets valerie move past her and into the kitchen , pulling a bottle of wine out . words not coming to her as she just lets her girlfriend get everything off of her chest . it takes a few moments before she follows behind the other , intertwining her fingers together as she paces slowly , stopping a few feet away from the other . hyejoo stands there quietly , somewhat feeling embarrassed about her own anger , and the other half being embarrassed because of what valerie had said to her . “ i’m sorry . ” she spoke after a few moments of silence , the only surrounding noise being the wine filling the glass . 

[cchuu]

okay doyeon 😳

[joshuasmullet]

help i’ve fallen in love and i can’t get up 

[awek-s-archived]

he’s just a boy with a teddy bear on the back of his phone case…

[gyusol]

80sluv​:

`         he’s  DEFINITELY  kissing  back  ,  jax  feeling  chills  run  down  his  back  from  the  other’s  hand  wrapped  around  his  neck.  it’s  obvious  to  him  just  how  much  gun  has  wanted  this  ,  from  the  way  he’s  nearly  refusing  to  let  go  to  how  he’s  coming  right  back  for  his  lips.  ‘’  SORRY.  ’’  jax  is  ,  in  fact  ,  NOT  SORRY.  at  all.  it’s  wet  and  messy  and  it  should  put  him  off  ;  they  go  way  back  ,  jax  is  not  able  to  keep  track  of  how  long  he’s  been  competing  against  the  other  male  anymore.  ‘’  something  tells  me  this  is  not  JUST  my  doing.  ’’  they’ve  stopped  kissing  for  the  sake  of  taunting  each  other  ,  faces  still  inches  apart  with  their  breaths  mingling.  ‘’  hm.  i’ve  got  to  be  honest  ;  i’m  not  quite  put  off  my  game  yet.  go  on  ——  surprise  me.  ’’

maybe it had been a little while since he had last hooked up with anyone and maybe that’s why gun’s being so desperate with their kiss , but maybe something deep inside of him was trying to persuade him that need went a little deeper than what he tried to convince himself . and even though their bodies were pressed up against one another’s it still didn’t feel close enough for gun as he nudged his head closer , his lips pressing to jax’s eagerly , “ just stop talking . you’re ruining the mood . ” the words were mumbled between their lips before his eyes opened again once their lips parted . an exasperated laugh left his parted lips at jax’s words , “ you think i’m doing this because i want to ? yeah right . ” gun rolled his eyes before looking away to avoid getting his bluff caught out . “ you’re not ? i know what could work . ” the words trailed from his tongue with ease as his head began dipping lower , pressing kisses across jax’s collarbone to work his way down slowly . 

[weltenwellen]

Lori Gottlieb, Maybe You Should Talk to Someone: A Therapist, Her Therapist, and Our Lives Revealed

[lifeinpoetry]

oh how does this rage find me. i try so hard to disappear into the happy.

Akilah Oliver, from “she said, meditate on rage,” the she said dialogues: flesh memory (via weltenwellen)

[primulaceas]

Richard Siken, Snow and Dirty Rain

[gyusol]

open to: all! plot: dal’s an idol that can never catch a break and during one of the times he’s bolting from fans he ends up crashing into someone else, and please please don’t let them know i’m here..

it isn’t as though he planned to get chased down . he never does plan for it , but apparently the more clothing he wears to try and disguise himself just gives himself away even more . as he tugs the cap down over his eyes he bolts from the scene , making it about two minutes away until he feels his weight crash into someone else . “ oh , shit . sorry about that . ” he apologises quickly , trying to hide his face as he offers his hand out , “ are you okay ? should i ring someone for you ? ” 

[pinkmatters-deactivated20220507]

hyunjin :: hard carry (kbs gayo 201218)

[choiyeonjuns]

soobin showing off the cardigan yeonjun gave him

[gyusol]

80sluv​:

         ‘‘  so  you  DISAGREE  ?  too  bad  …  ’’  jax’s  hand  got  gun’s  face  locked  between  his  fingers  and  thumb  ,  even  doing  so  much  as  dig  them  into  the  male’s  cheeks.  he  witnesses  him  wither  away  ,  his  cold  and  raging  self  melting  and  slowly  giving  into  whatever  jax  has  planned.  TRUTH  BE  TOLD  ,  jax  has  no  idea  what  or  why  he’s  doing  it  ;  he’s  going  to  blame  it  on  just  how  riled  up  the  both  of  them  are  from  today’s  match.  ‘‘  shut  up  ,  ’’  a  quiet  mumble  before  they’re  caught  up  in  a  kiss.  jax  slowly  turns  them  so  he’s  got  gun  pressed  against  the  shower  wall  ,  causing  his  opposite  to  stay  out  of  the  shower  rain  while  it  hits  his  own  back.  ‘‘  you’re  ——  you’re  kissing  back  ,  ’’  he  notes  ,  grin  plastered  on  his  face  as  he  speaks  while  having  their  lips  still  slightly  pressed  together.  ‘‘  you’ve  been  wanting  this  to  happen  ,  haven’t  you  ?  FUCK  …  had  i  known  earlier  …  ’’

“ i disagree to being your bitch ? obviously . i’m not an idiot that’ll bow down to you . ” gun grits out as jax holds his face in his hand , feeling as the other digs his fingers into the skin as if it was nothing . as if gun’s stomach wasn’t doing backflips at the feeling of the direct contact with his own face , causing his eyes to lift and meet the only other pair of eyes in the room .  he feels stupid , helpless , but he feels infatuation with jax as their lips crash against each other. the built up tension from the constant jabs and pent-up anger finally coming to a head between them both . gun’s own hand moves to cup the back of jax’s neck , holding him closer as a method to prevent the kiss from breaking as he feels his own back hit the shower wall . a grunt left his lips as he pulled away momentarily to spit out , “ watch it , asshole . ” before resuming the kiss where it has broken off . his eyebrows furrow at the words falling from his opponents lips , “ only because you started it , i’m only doing this because you wanted to do it . ” the words leave his lips in a manner of defence , but the tips of his ears only flush a brighter pink . “ waiting for this to happen ? as if . i’m just showing you what you’re missing out on . hopefully , it’ll put you off your game . ”

[oncupid]

— casual taehyung