first things first, i love interacting with everyone so don't hesitate to tag or message me about anything!! i love talking about things i love so please don't be scared to interact!!
second of all i made some edits so i thought a masterpost that would be pinned is a nice idea to have some structure! this post will be updated every time i make something new like an edit or maybe even a piece of writing!! for any moodboard or icon request, please send an ask! <3
ICONS
the popular kids (01×10)
hotch with vest in with friends like these.. (6×19)
EDITS
bau members as greek gods: hotch as hades, reid as apollo, emily as artemis, jj as hera
bau members as songs from my liked songs: elle, reid, hotch, emily
requests: hotchniss as hades and persephone, dad!hotch, study date with reid
trying this again!!! i would very much like to start a rp in either the harry potter or the hunger games universe! i usually rp on discord and i prefer a literate rp! interact with this post or send me a message so we work out a plot together! <3 i'm open to oc x oc or oc x existing or existing x existing :)
Emily needed a break and this new opportunity would give her a clean start. Something she considered herself good at. Leaving, running away. Never getting comfortable enough. That is how she grew up, it was everything she knew.
Pairing: Jennifer Jareau/Emily Prentiss
Words: 3.5K (This was supposed to be around 2k words but the fanfic too a hold on me)
Emily was drinking one last glass of wine. This was the last glass. After this drink, when the clock hit midnight her life was going to change, for the better. She had to believe that this was for the better. That she did think about this decision thoroughly. She didn’t just leave them just because. Emily needed a break and this new opportunity would give her a clean start. Something she considered herself good at. Leaving, running away. Never getting comfortable enough. That is how she grew up, it was everything she knew. Although, DC had been like a home to her. It almost made her want to forget the times she had to change herself time and time again to fit in, something she thought she would have to never go through again.
She eyed her suitcase, already prepared and sealed, her empty apartment, where she once housed so many girls nights. The first house she dared to call home. The first place she had felt like belonging and she was letting all of it go. It was for the best, she would not take seeing them together. She was ready to go. Ready to make a new life for herself, one life where her love could possibly be returned.
Emily really would have a hard time deciding what had hurt her more tonight. Perhaps this time, Morgan’s last look as they danced together won. Maybe when she danced and said goodbye to all her team. To her family. Maybe it had destroyed her a little bit. But seeing JJ and Will, dancing together, kissing and laughing as she walked alone to the dance floor made her think. She made the right choice. Emily needed to leave and after the events of tonight, she had an excuse, for herself at least. Ever since she came back she has not been able to integrate herself as well as she expected too. JJ had been there the most and those long game messages made a comeback late at night when she was trying to sleep.
Those unsaid ‘I love you’s’ made her have a difficult time sleeping since she came back. Because what they once had finished long ago. That was what she told herself after the first night JJ and her spent in Paris, that was what she repeated herself after the last kiss they shared before JJ had to leave. At her front door, like they were just finishing a date, it wasn’t quick. Emily likes to think that they both lingered a little, mouths still pressed against each other before JJ abruptly pulled back and left.
Like if a switch flickered inside of her, JJ pulled back, before muttering a quiet 'I’m sorry’. Emily to this day doesn’t know why the blonde was sorry for. Breaking the kiss apart? Leaving her alone in a house she barely knew? Not being able to help her more than that? Kissing her? Kissing her while she had a boyfriend and a son waiting for her?
That kiss brought back memories for her. Memories that she thought she had forgotten. About how they started. Their little none-dates when they would fight who would pay for their dinner. When they unexpectedly had movies without inviting Penelope along. They had never discussed what they were. Neither when they started exploring a new possibility that would overpass their friendship. Their first kiss. And all the ones that came next, always hiding, always a secret. That Emily thought had to be the first thing that failed. The secrecy JJ claimed they had to have when they were kissing in the security of the blonde’s office. A secrecy that later in the following months would ruin them. When Will entered the picture.
She should have known that what they had could not be nothing more than false promises and a few stolen kisses when everyone was asleep. Emily should have seen the signs. She was a profiler. She had been trained to search for emotions and have the necessary strength to talk with serial killers. But the classes she had taken didn’t really prepare her for what to do when her own emotions were making it difficult for her to read what was happening between the southern detective and JJ. It turned out that everyone already knew about them. Emily really didn’t know, not until she saw JJ running around the police station chasing someone that should have been her. If the circumstances had been different, it should have been her.
Of course she noticed the declined invitations and the little time she and JJ spent together, or how she was busier than ever on weekends when she wanted to plan something for her. Emily thought that maybe she was the problem. But she didn’t turn out to be, when she invited Penelope and JJ still didn’t turn into their monthly girls movie night. Until one night their break up happened and she was awoken at 2.a.m. to the sound of harsh doorknobs.
That somehow made their relationship stronger than before, there were not as many kisses than they once had been. But Emily was happy. She was happy because her other side of the bed was not cold anymore. She had someone around, maybe not to call her own. Still. Emily knew that their relationship might take time to develop, she waited and they were happy. But Will returned, and everything ended again. Then an unexpected pregnancy happened. And Emily knew that what they had could not happen. Not again. Not while there was a child involved. Not when she would be responsible for breaking a family apart. So she maintained her distance, babysat as little as she could and bought a cat.
What they had finished and Emily had been selfish enough, that when the priest asked JJ if she wanted to marry him, that she would say 'no’ and run towards her, like those romantic films have taught her would happen if what they had was true love. That didn’t happen, they were married, and now possibly on their way to their honeymoon as Emily was preparing to leave DC for some time, she didn’t know if it would be forever. But she needed to put an ocean, something big enough to spare the heartache she felt right now.
He was not funny. Emily had heard all the jokes he had told, once when Will hung out with them, he made her laugh, but not as she once made her. She had seen them laugh while they were having their husband-wife dance. Emily didn’t know what made JJ laugh, he wasn’t funny. Emily didn’t know what made JJ run back for him. He wasn’t her. He didn’t deserve her. Not like Emily did. He would never treat her as well as she would. She knew that to be true. JJ didn’t look at Will like how she used to look at her.
Emily now had a few more minutes, less than an hour to leave it all behind, she had said all her goodbyes to people that have shaped her since she stepped into the BAU, she learned to love and be loved back. Emily learned how a heart could only break so much. And love in ways it never did before since she came across with light blue eyes that definitely would change who she would become. Emily smiled; she hadn’t even bothered to keep the makeup she had put on this morning. She let a lonely tear run down her face as she looked at the last team dinner photo they took in the restaurant a few blocks away from her very same apartment. Then she didn’t know it would be the last. Back then in the picture she was still happy. JJ was not married. And Emily was sure that if the explosion of the bank had not happened she still would not be.
A harsh knock brings her back from peaceful memories, her finished wine glass sat on the only piece of furniture she had left, the clock so close to hit midnight. So close for her to become someone knew, someone that did not learn how to love and not being loved in return. She opened her front door in what could mostly possibly be one last time and she saw her. She saw her. The only person in the wedding who she wasn’t strong enough to tell her the truth of her unexpected leave. JJ was standing before her, her wedding dress had been carefully folded while she was still around. She had catched JJ appear later with her own clothes as she was leaving in the cab she booked beforehand. Emily knew that she could not stand too much in a wedding she was not really part of. JJ threw everything they had so easily that she was scared of how fast the blonde woman forgot about them. She wondered if JJ could forget about her that easily too.
i'd really like to get back to rp and hopefully find someone who wants to do a 1 on 1 literate discord rp with me!! im looking for someone who wants to do a harry potter themed rp OR a the hunger games themed rp!! i dont mind if we play canon characters or oc's or whatever! please dm me on here if you're interested <33
hello everyone i’m finally at season 10 of criminal minds and i can now say that kate is my new favourite character and i fully support her beating up predators. that’s it.
hiiii rebecca! congrats again on 1.8k – you deserve it and so much more, and your content always amazes me so much!! love you loads, and hope you have a wonderful day!! <33
for you celebration:
🌎 bass / guitar player hotch maybe?
💎 cym as ... criminal minds characters?
Thank you Marie!!! <333
I put you through hell making you cast your moots as cm characters, now it's only fair that you make my brain burn trying to figure this out ;)
I'm just going by vibes (and this is meant in the best way possible)
