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CAUTION // WARNING I HAVE VIOLENT THOUGHTS.

[h3lloyou]

𝐇𝐞𝐥𝐥𝐨, 𝐘𝐨𝐮.

ᯓ★ BASIC INFORMATION.

loserboy trans man, he/him, GAD + SZA 2005,

ᯓ★ DEAD DOVE: DO NOT EAT.

BLOCK, dont report, MINORS, DNI, PRO-recovery for everyone, except for me, TRIGGER WARNINGS: ana, mia, obsessive love, stalking, gore, guro, suicidal & homicidal ideations, delusions, hallucinations, sadomasochism, violence

ᯓ★ TAGS.

#-> The Void ★ - where i speak out into the void of the hellsite #-> Hello You ★ - all my asks, anons and non-anons

reblogs included - #-> Amor ★ - yandere relations, affection, violence #-> Meds ★ - everything else i need meds for #-> Past ★ - eating struggles

ᯓ★ OTHER INFORMATION.

Asks are welcomed — anons taken : pocket, art, cup1d, schizomilitant, 🏵️, 🕷️🪽, 🐈‍⬛ 💗, 🪽, 🌙🖤, 🕯️

made by @himeobsession

[drizzledrawings]

I love when platonic love and romantic love is so blurred that it doesn’t even matter anymore. All that matters is the devotion that’s there, the unwavering devotion

[h3lloyou]

I fear stupidity in the same way I fear deterioration. My mind swirl with senseless ideals.

What if I lose my abilities I have learnt with difficultly within only 24 hours of not practicing it? What if I use up all that I am by doing so constantly, til I am nothing?

What if I just end up a shell of what could have been something so great?

[coryfuckingsucks-deactivated202]

i want you under my skin i want to remove the flesh from my bone like a glove and hold your hand bone-to-bone . but i don't think you'd even want to hold my hand normally

[beloved3ath]

Matching pfps, matching tattoos, matching wallpapers, matching outfits, matching hairstyles, matching hairstrand color, matching nails, matching scars, matching bracelets, matching necklaces, matching accessories, matching drawings, matching paintings, matching makeup, matching arm drawings, matching playlists, matching blogs, matching profiles, matching plushies, matching legos, matching nicknames, matching EVERYTHING.

[h3lloyou]

I despise it when my brain goes monkey neuron activation and suddenly one (count 1 ☝️) moderately inconvenient event has been the catalyst for exposing the brittle nerves of my root insecurities to the air like some sort of physical wound

[h3lloyou]

i could do the nicest thing ever and my mind will always be asking me, like a god balancing my soul, if i am a bad person— and i could not name a reason why im not.

[h3lloyou]

i think ‘waiting’ will always be my constant state of being. And i dont even know what its for lmao

[virgomoon]

you can never go back. this is your one life. you had a bad childhood and that's it. you lost your teen years to mental illness and that's it. you're miserable in your 20s and that's it. you just go forward

[h3lloyou]

man my therapist just told me that yes if i struggle to talk about something without crying it means it impacted me severely. What the fuck guys

[h3lloyou]

im caught between the extremes of feeling guilt and feeling justified for my actions all the time, for everything. Its one or the other, but no middle ground. And i fear it will be like this forever.

[h3lloyou]

its not ocd if the rules i place and follow are fucking REASONABLE and are there to prevent dumb shit from happening.

[h3lloyou]

youll never fuckin believe it chat.

[daydreamingbambilesbian]

Do you think about me as much as I think about you?

[h3lloyou]

i feel like im an asshole especially when im looking for reassurance. But i cant stop myself from doing it. Im a horrid person either way.

[h3lloyou]

DOES ANYONE ELSE FEEL SUPER GUILTY FOR LIKING SOMETHING (book, movie, game) that they thought was just incredible, like creme de la creme high tier writing and you go to see what other people thought and theres a lot of reviews saying that it wasnt that good, that it was terrible, and it ruined the characters. And now youre sat thinking “if i like this, does it really mean i understand the character? Was i so blinded by my love that i was incapable of seeing the faults in the writing? Are my opinions bad? Wrong? Are they even worthwhile?”

[h3lloyou]

I’m convinced ive gotten weaker this year.

[h3lloyou]

I didn't even realize i hadn't liked anything. I fear that gives bot. Pink is my favorite color so thank you. My lack of following is simply a lack of interest in most people. -Eclipse

I can most definitely relate to that. Not often do people catch my attention. When they do, its less that they grasp my focus, but force a gun to my neck and twists my head to look at them.

I mean. In that situation, its practically impossible to 1. NOT be interested. 2. NOT stare into the abyss

Its funny and chaotic. I love being scared 🗣️🗣️🗣️🗣️🗣️