ED DIARY

ED blod/diary age: 16 sw:192 cw: 160 gw: 150 ugw: 130 height: 5'6 currently on a liquid died/fast and its going good so far after i end it i think im going to start either omad or full fruits and veggies for a week

[h3lp-m1a]

I feel like throwing up rn cuz I ate so much but I just can’t like i literally have a phobia of throwing up but I wish I could just empty my stomach rn

[h3lp-m1a]

I HATE EATING I FUCKING HATE IT WHY CANT I JUST LIVE OFF JUICE FOREVER UGHHH IF ONLY I LIVED ALONE

[h3lp-m1a]

Ganna fast wed-fri cuz I feel like shit and I’m really sick and everything hurts

[h3lp-m1a]

I fucked up my eating schedule I’m sick and starved all day and I’m the middle of the night the urge just took over and I ate everything and now I feel more sicker mentally and physically idk what to do

[drainingco]

force yourself till you look sick enough to be noticed or you’re doing this all for nothing.

no one will care. no one will take you seriously. all your suffering will be completely pointless.

[h3lp-m1a]

Thanks giving really really ruined my body but it’s okay ill workout today a lot and tmr and hopefully I can go back in my starvation era

[cherrydollprincess]

every time my stomach rumbles i feel so good but also annoyed bc girl why u making noise? like i have enough fat to last u days so stfu

[h3lp-m1a]

REALL

[h3lp-m1a]

Idk how to explain that feeling when your stomach is 100% empty it’s just so euphoric

[h3lp-m1a]

I’m actually ganna lock in for these 3 days before thanksgiving then lock in again today is my last day eating im done i can’t keep filling my stomach up like this

[h3lp-m1a]

I feel so fat like I gained so much weight but ik I didn’t but I just feel bloated and full cuz I keep eating til I feel uncomfortable idk how to explain it I just feel like a big balloon and I’m abt to eat again rn why can’t I just be skinnyyyyyyy ugh

[h3lp-m1a]

Everytime I plan to starve I just end up eating like ughhh it makes me feel so guilty and bad

[shitbl0gger]

[h3lp-m1a]

haven't been updating cuz ive been fat and binging hard. i hate it. i hate myself for this. why cant i just stop.

[h3lp-m1a]

anyone got any tips of purging I wanna do it but everytime i tried either little came out or nothing and it just feels so weird

[h3lp-m1a]

I said no binge November but i binged today and I just feel so fat and big and ugly

i really need to lock in every things ganna be okay ill liquid fast til Tuesday hopefully longer i feel so much better when I'm starving idk

[parasitebabywrld-deactivated202]

[liesmultixxx-deactivated2025090]

being the ugly friend is really humbling