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[h4ganah]

שלום־עליכם

Might as well write an intoduction post to avoid any confusion. My name is רעות/Ruth/Reut, I usually go by Boris.

I'm in my 20s, a baby lesbian, in the (admittedly slow) process of converting masorti in Stockholm, Sweden. I was raised catholic. Starting studies in cybersec, but I've studied law and polysci before. Part Ukrainian/Russian.

I used to be a far left antizionist, now I'm not, B"H. I'm still "marxist" in everything but name - just not a fanatical far left ideologue anymore ("Progessive except Palestine", I guess). If you have questions about that (or really anything else) my ask is open - even if you're gonna be an ass about it. I'd obviously prefer if you're respectful of you don't agree with me on something (and I'll probably make fun of you if you're not), but I'd rather you bother me than someone else.

I mostly post about antizionism, antisemitism, judaism, Israel, and sometimes swedish politics, polysci, international law, military history, and sometimes mental illness. Or whatever I feel like. I will post about F1 sometimes, you can block the #f1 tag if you'd rather not put up with that. Sometimes I make art. Famous last words.

My (new) sideblog for mostly F1, and other fandom-adjacent shit is @v3rstapen

I try to keep personal shit (including shit related to mental illness) and fandom shit on my sideblog @deadsideblog

Twitter, pinterest. On wild rift at "haganah31089" - if you add me there I will figuratively suck your dick because that would make me so happy - I am not super active anymore though.

⚠️ This blog is the one place I can fully be myself, so I'm going to vent about mental illness occasionally - just block or avoid the "borisposting", "mental illness" or "vent" tag if you don't want to see that. If you only want to see jumblr related shit, block the "borisposting" tag.

⚠️ I have recurring issues with dissociation and self-isolation, so sometimes I'm gonna be inactive and maybe won't respond to your asks and messages for a while. Nothing I can really do about that. I'm going through some shit right now. I promise it doesn't mean I'm ignoring you or that there's any reason to worry about me.

כל תוב, הומואים או גוים

[svenskjavel]

Varför heter inte ryggskott backshots på engelska?

För att det inte var Google translate som bestämde

[h4ganah]

ok I am still triggered by this - farthinder and avfart weren't enough? do we really need backshots?? ska ingen tänka på Sverigebilden?? fy fan skärp er för i helvete 😭

[h4ganah]

Gotta make sure to call out anyone saying Israel is commiting genocide in Gaza for their blatant and inexcusable wholocide denial from now on

[homochadensistm]

hey thats what this guy used to do

[h4ganah]

vent, abuse related

Jesus fucking CHRIST it never ends!!! Once again he expects me to keep acting like his friend - "I have decided to keep being your friend because someone else failed me"

Newsflash you fucking lunatic - we both decided to stop being friends!!! I am a fucking person, not your little emotional support companion!!! We clearky never WERE friends.

I'm so fucking done holy shit, the fucking GALL to act like us being friends or not is just up to his whims. Completely treating me like a non-person.

[h4ganah]

I actually think the Gays wished the Berlin attack was done by a white right winger nazi than to deal and think about the deadly implications of the mass Islamic immigration into Europe and the governments' inability to integrate them into western society, you know what I mean?

I do know what you mean, buddy.

Leftists and radlibs percieve anti-nazism as an integral part of their political identity. No matter that they treat it like an aesthetic or a team jersey. Their understanding of what fascism is and does sort of leaves a bit to be desired (not to mention that it makes it even more bewildering that they're so eager to call jews fascist, since hating jews was like the whole thing with nazism, but that's beside the point lmao (it's because they think the nazis driving motivation was actually antisocialism, not antisemitism 🤓). Especially so with communists. It would make it easy for them to figure out who the evil guys are, what the problem is and what needs to be done to fix it. It's a comfortable, familiar script. The fascism inherent to islamism is hard and uncomfortable, because facsist "are" white europeans, obviously. If the fascists happen to also have been victims of imperialism or racism, it's not as fun or catchy to deal with </3

[fromourperspective]

source: aish

[tryingto-survivethis]

fuck Bibi for a lot, but most of all for making me agree with a jvp graphic (before I read the blurb below it and the caption)

i genuinely thought this was a post by one of my friends/center-left Israeli. fucking hell.

[zionismandunashamedofitforever]

please cave your leftarded skull in with a dictionary at the earliest convenience.

Zionism is the movement for the existence of a Jewish state in Israel. it has never featured a claim for any specific form of government.

[sighinastorm]

Easy, man! You can probably afford to dial it down by approximately 12.5%. The problem here may be misunderstanding the phrase "Jewish state" as chararacterized by religious rule. That happens a lot. Gentiles are not always used to thinking of Jews as a people rather than as adherents, so they miss the more ordinary meaning of democratic self-rule.

[h4ganah]

Yeah, honestly it is pretty unfortunate that that little detail is a heavily guarded kabbalistic secret only jews are allowed to know 😔 Otherwise they could just have just looked into it, maybe even asked 😥

[h4ganah]

Thank G-d, I am so fucking grateful I am slowly starting to stop caring about him being pissed at me.

He has been calling non stop all day to fucking yap - as if we were still, you know, friends - and I wasn't enthusiatic and supportive enough, so he sent "don't contact me again unless it's about the dog. don't answer this text" 🫪💔

Yeah, man. We are not friends anymore. Get another mental support servant, I thought we were done with this, no? Christ what a fucking bitch. I am so glad this garbage is done.

[pmamtraveller]

Eclipse Table Lamp, from 1960s Brazil.

[nonbinaryjudean]

messianic jew cringe compilations

[nonbinaryjudean]

i cannot express to you how much i dislike messianics. their entire ideology is fucking GROSS and COLONIAL and represents the ongoing attempt by christianity to cleanse the world of Jews in the most christian way possible

[h4ganah]

Are you actually fucking kidding me? It has barely been a day since Berlin.

An incredible relief that the victims don't seem to be in the danger zone, B"H. Also seems it might be mental illness, not islamism, but no clear motive yet. But still, one fucking day.

Man arrested in France after attacking several people with knives | The Jerusalem Post

The incident took place near Place de Clichy, police stated, adding that the three victims were taken to the hospital.

Jerusalem Post | BFM (french)

[h4ganah]

Are you actually fucking kidding me? It has barely been a day since Berlin.

An incredible relief that the victims don't seem to be in the danger zone, B"H. Also seems it might be mental illness, not islamism, but no clear motive yet. But still, one fucking day.

Man arrested in France after attacking several people with knives | The Jerusalem Post

The incident took place near Place de Clichy, police stated, adding that the three victims were taken to the hospital.

Jerusalem Post | BFM (french)

[h4ganah]

Are you actually fucking kidding me? It has barely been a day since Berlin.

An incredible relief that the victims don't seem to be in the danger zone, B"H. Also seems it might be mental illness, not islamism, but no clear motive yet. But still, one fucking day.

Man arrested in France after attacking several people with knives | The Jerusalem Post

The incident took place near Place de Clichy, police stated, adding that the three victims were taken to the hospital.

Jerusalem Post | BFM (french)

[h4ganah]

Hope you’re feeling better today !

thank you 🤍

i am ok enough. the mental breakdown/crisis has passed, at least (gonna vent a little if that's ok, kind of feels like i need it 🔽)

just really sucked that after he and i finally decided to end this "friendship", he insisted we had to "talk it out" again 5 hours later. and "we can't talk about it now, because I am not in the mental state where i am able to do so properly and seriously" was apparently fucking horrible of me.

it is exhausting. i really don't know how many different ways I can phrase "I am not capable of helping you feel better. I am too fucked up mentally, and our relationship has not helped. It has made us both miserable, and you need to seek actual help. The only responsible and morally correct option is to stop being in contact."

really don't know why expected the guy who unequivically refused to admit anything he has done to me has been unacceptable, and that hitting and constantly berating me was completely justified because I deserved it - to at least do me the kindness of sticking to what he said was definitive and final. at least cemented that this has to be over.

still paralyzing that i really don't know if he will actually tell everyone at the synagogue every single bad thing i have ever done. if he did i would never set foot there again. because i know that everyone would believe him over me. he is great with words. and social shit. i would have to move, probably away from sweden to convert. i really hope he didn't mean it but i have no way of knowing.

[h4ganah]

Was so excited to get my longbow out of storage again but fuck I really forgot what a nightmare it is to travel with 💀💀 just a unwieldy big fuck off stick - because if the bowstring was attached I'd literally just be walking around with a weapon (even if it's the most impractical, ineffective weapon imaginable >:(

even just the quiver....... I mean what am I supposed to do, wear around my waist like a maniac??

[h4ganah]

........Finally admitted defeat and put on the fucking quiver.

Might as well wear a fucking wizard hat on the train. Maybe a fedora 🤡

[h4ganah]

Can't believe I thought the end of this "friendship" would be remotely simple or straightforward.

[h4ganah]

Was so excited to get my longbow out of storage again but fuck I really forgot what a nightmare it is to travel with 💀💀 just a unwieldy big fuck off stick - because if the bowstring was attached I'd literally just be walking around with a weapon (even if it's the most impractical, ineffective weapon imaginable >:(

even just the quiver....... I mean what am I supposed to do, wear around my waist like a maniac??