Many wouldn't have noticed the little changes in Blitzen's demeanor. The way he was so protective, how attentive he was, picking up on your patterns, studying you as if you were the only thing he'd ever wish to memorize. How he truly figured Ducky out in the time they've been together, and for once, the doctor was the one who felt the tender love and care that's been missing from his life. He had found it the first day they met, when Blitzen had been sleeping under a shabby tent in the rain, holes in the fabric that could do little against the rampaging droplets from above. It had been mating season, and his natural instincts were heightened; he was irritable in ways that seemed explosive, but Ducky hadn't been frightened, because he saw a bigger fear in Blitzen's eyes, and once he offered the man solace, he began that steady descent into the unknown, into that very scary thing called love. "You make it sound as if I don't, but I have contingency plans for everything. You were the only thing I didn't plan, the only thing that ever caught me off guard, and I've been grateful for it ever since we met. Do you know what pirates are? Remember that movie about those men on the boat who sail to sea in search of treasure? Well, you're mine."
You don't get to fix me while you're hurting. That was the very first time anyone had ever said something like that to Ducky. It had brought him back when he was nothing more than a child, used for his abilities by men who used him as a cure for their group. He had no real voice, no freedom, just a band-aid for them. For so long, he was nothing more than an object, so when Blitzen came barreling into his life, for once, the doctor was at a loss for words. Ducky, who always had a smartass retort, who never kept quiet, and always spoke his mind because he hated the fact that at one point in life, he wasn't allowed to. So every word, every little touch, every act of service, all the the love languages, they resonated with him, in every way that mattered. Because Ducky finally felt as if he did matter. To Blitzen.
With the pill in his system and some water to go along with it, he could will his internal system to begin its own healing process, as color finally returned to his face, and his gaze steadied. "I'm sorry," was all he could say because he knew Blitzen did indeed deserve an apology. For so long, he'd been so used to putting others before himself, that not once did he ever consider the opposite could ever happen. Then here Blitzen was, muscle and horn, slow blinking eyes sometimes filled with confusion, but often just filled with pure unfiltered devotion. "It was silly of me to think you'd ever even agree to something stupid, and I know for a fact neither of us is stupid. So I'm sorry, but before I say anything else, let me just say this." Ducky said, clearing his throat, feeling much better than earlier. "Blitzen Guerrero, I am so hopelessly in love with you, and I never thought I deserved to be loved the way you do, so honest, so devoted and passionate. Your curiosity and thirst for life have made me happier, your arms make me feel so safe, and I know that you'd rather rearrange the world, than see me get hurt. I love you, and I promise you, I'll never do something like that again."
As Blitzen's fingers found his core, rubbing against the sheer sweat slicked fabric, Ducky couldn't do much more than arch into his touch, his head thrown back slightly as his lips parted and little whimpers began to echo. Involuntary little thrusts, began in rhythmically chasing the high Blitzen's finger provided. "I don't mean to worry you," he said in between pants. The next few sets of words made him throw his head back in laughter, pulling his boyfriend closer as he captured his lips. "I fucking love you...Now," he stopped, smiling with an impish grin as he guided Blitzen's head lower towards his wet core. "Please,"