nathan the angry smol

anna. she/her. seventeen. main: sncwbaz.

[ultraheroin]

The trick is not to mind.

Not to mind about it hurting.

Not to mind about anything.

[rasputisa]

Book-Aesthetics - Half Bad Trilogy: Nathan Byrn & Gabriel Boutin.

» Later I wake and he’s asleep and I move over him gently to kiss across his chest and listen to his slow heartbeat, and I want to stay there, listening to his heart. I feel strange. I can’t remember ever feeling like this. I think I’m sort of happy. «

[astrolauu]

wounded, not lost

[astreiants-archive]

not when it’s easy.

[halfcode-nabriel]

Van: How does Nathan keep in shape?

Gabriel: Running from commitment

[miscellanoeus]

★ the half life trilogy + PANTONE palette + pastel ★

↳ gabriel // van // nathan // rose

[miscellanoeus]

The Half Life Trilogy as a netflix original series [1/?]

[miscellanoeus]

half life character posters [1/?] 

Victoria Van Dal + Rose  pt. i

[halfcode-nabriel]

wow i just saw that i’ve reached over 200 followers! that’s amazing :) (especially because i feel like the half bad fandom is really small) 

thank you so much for following me! love you all :)

[miscellanoeus]

name meanings:  the half life trilogy by sally green

“it’s easier to stay positive with your eyes open.”

- half wild

[halfcode-nabriel]

nathan never got to be happy his whole life and I am Upset

i don’t think nathan didn’t get to be happy his whole life. there have definitely been moments.

moments with his brother, moments with his father, moments with gabriel and even a few moments with annalise. 

did he ever find the ‘big happiness’ in the books? nope, but his happiness what in smaller moments and yes, also mostly pushed aside by horror and war. but he does have some happy moments.

besides, nathan didn’t get to get his ‘big happiness’ indeed, but it wasn’t his main goal. in half lost nesbitt makes becoming happy his goal and leaves the war. nathan ver specifically choses to stay. he choses winning this war over becoming happy somewhere else. he becomes a hero and most heroes aren’t happy. 

but please don’t think nathan was never happy in his whole life. 

[halfcode-nabriel]

(half lost spoilers) I'll never get over how painfully little time nathan and gabriel had together?? it was obvious that they loved each other way more than nathan and annalise ever loved each other and it's literally half a book, two years together and only part of one properly together, and nathan was still so utterly destroyed by gabriel's death that he hallucinated him and lived in agony for five? whole?? years?? I mean that's a soulmate level kind of thing. and g's death was. pointless.

hello, yeah that’s the sad and painful truth every half bad fan (nabriel shipper) has to deal with... :( luckily there is fan-fiction. 

though about the pointlessness of the death and the sad ending... i don’t know if it’s pointless? sally explained that she was planning from the beginning that it wasn’t going to have a happy ending at all. war does not guaranty everyone a happy ending and the amount of ya books that come out of war with a happy ending is unrealistic. the point of the death was a literary concept and statement. i understand what sally is saying with this and i understand her choices. it’s her story and who would i be to tell her she’s wrong in telling her own story. i’m sad about it, but i’ve also excepted it. 

[miscellanoeus]

tbh if i loved gabriel boutin any more i would be nathan byrn

[sallygreenhalfbad]

At home with Nesbitt: Ben Johnson poem

Nathan and Gabriel are in the garden. Nesbitt is inside watching them. Nathan starts to laugh and then so does Gab.

Nesbitt:  And in short measures life may perfect be.

[halfcode-nabriel]

Hey friend! Could you recommend any nabriel fics for me?

honestly, i can’t? not many people write nabriel fics (sadly) 

so there are my fics (hehe self promo on point anna) (if this link doesn’t work on the phone you can also always look on my blog and search for the tag sometimes i write)

and here are all the fics on ao3 about them (x) but there aren’t many so i couldn’t really give you a recommendations list. 

i hope this will help you somewhat though.

[halfcode-nabriel]

Alright bruh. Nathan ordering coffee from barista!Gabriel who hella flirts and causes Nathan to becoming a spluttering, blushing mess.

yes okay, coffee shop au’s are my shit. i’ve got this.(u can also find this on my ao3)

something strong

nathan was tapping his foot impatiently as he waited in line at the local coffee shop. nathan frowned as he looked around the crowded coffee shop. normally it wasn’t this busy here, but today was the first actual cold day of fall and people collectively seemed to thing this meant they needed to go out to buy a hot cup of coffee.

nathan couldn’t help but feel a slight annoyance to all the noisy people surrounding him. nathan has always lived on the country side. “the loneliest, most quiet place in england,” his half brother would alway say as if it was a bad thing. 

nathan never minded the quiet of the country side and had been sad to leave his peaceful home when he had to move to go to uni. 

when it was finally nathan’s turn to order his coffee he looked up at the barista who somehow turned the noise the crowd of people surrounding nathan into a quiet buzz in the back of nathan’s head. the barista had a slightly tan skin, dark eyes that somehow seemed to sparkle brightly and thick, dark hair that had been pulled up into a man bun.

nathan always thought man buns were overrated, but he started to question this statement now.

he was new here. the barista was definitely a new employee here and nathan wasn’t yet sure how much he approved of this change.

the fact that, for some reason, nathan didn’t even know how to speak to the beautiful male in front of him gave nathan an annoyed frown on his face. this was stupid, nathan thought.

“i assume something strong for you,” the barista said at the sight of nathan, a playful grin on his face.

that playful grin added a few more seconds to being speechless for nathan, but when he finally found his voice again he just simply gave the barista his order. nothing more, nothing less. 

the young male started to make the, indeed strong, coffee nathan had asked for and nathan just kept staring at him. he managed to read the name tag that was pinned onto his shirt. gabriel. it was a nice name, nathan thought. 

though, instead of just making nathan’s coffee like normal barista’s would, gabriel started talking to nathan. this was something nathan wasn’t prepared for, he wasn’t really talkative. 

“so, you’re a college guy?” gabriel asked. 

“uni,” nathan said, nodding his head. 

“ah, right. i’ve just been living here for a few weeks. i moved here from france to study the english language better. i’m a language nerd. i also love traveling, seeing the world,” gabriel rambled on. nathan wondered if the young man even noticed the way the queue behind nathan was getting longer and longer. maybe gabriel just didn’t care. nathan was also slightly surprised by gabriel being from france, his english sounded flawless. 

“next semester i’ll be starting at uni here, i’m very exited,” gabriel said, now finished making nathan’s coffee. he handed nathan his cup. nathan just nodded again and thanked gabriel for the coffee. 

as nathan handed gabriel the money for the coffee their hands brushed more than was necessary. this had gabriel smirking and nathan felt his cheeks slowly turning pink.  

“well i hope to see you around again,” gabriel told nathan as a goodbye and he winked at nathan as he did. 

this made the slight pink of nathan’s cheeks turn into bright red. “uh, likewise,” nathan said, because he didn’t know what to say, really. this made gabriel’s grin only wider.

with that nathan turned away and quickly paced out of the coffee shop. nathan didn’t know why he had deserved the nice treatment of the barista. he didn’t know why the barista had seem interested enough in nathan to share personal stories with him in such a short time of meeting and saying goodbye. nathan hadn’t been nice of fun towards him. nathan had just been nathan, which for most people wouldn’t be any reason to be interested in nathan. 

nathan wondered if maybe this was just gabriel being gabriel. he was probably like this with every single person that entered that coffee shop. nathan decided to just leave it at that and took a sip of his coffee, the bitterness of it grounding him. 

though, still, nathan wondered if he’d see gabriel again the next day as nathan went to get his daily coffee. 

he did. 

[taitalagi]

“As for me, I’ll always love you. Even when I’m buried deep in one of those.” He nods at the grave. “I’ll still love you. Forever.”