#half bad

[ochrehums]

(after, he spends a lot of time apologising for his anger, and they spend a lot of time telling him he has the right to feeling it, to being it.)

in the books, nathan is very, very angry. it’s near constant: he is angry whilst awake, his body trembles with rage in his sleep, he is burdened constantly by the weight of his own anger-fear-hatred.

in the show, he is angry only when it can be justified by the viewer: the massacre of the ozanne, his torture at ce(e)lia’s hands, soul (full stop).

there’s probably a middle ground somewhere between the two. what do we lose in making nathan palatable, in softening him. is this some kind of justification? he doesn’t deserve it because he is kind, because he isn’t his father (who is also noticeably less irritable within the show)? because, saliently, he is not the ‘angry black boy’?

i do love him more in the show, however, and i do like that he is allowed many more moments of peace, and that he is slightly less brutalised.

[nonchalanccce]

So after the Alby beating, I was expected to still have some appeal towards Ruben? Is that the affect they thought the situation would have on me?? Hmmm. Thinks!

[spideogg]

TBSATDH and White Femininity

The white men in Annalise’s life that attempt to defend her against the threat of Nathan are not concerned about her physical or emotional safety, they know Nathan is not actually a threat in that regard. They are not defending Annalise, they view Annalise as a symbol of white femininity, of white purity. This is what they are defending, and the threat is not Nathan. The threat is the consensual relationship between the two.

Annalise repeatedly betrays her white womanhood, actively pursuing a black boy and refusing to dehumanise him. Her power is unfeminine and violent (The Undoing, blowing people up), and the first time she ever uses her power it is against a white man who attempts to sexually assault her. This goes against the idea that white men are saviors of white women, and against the idea that white women are too weak to save themselves.  

Compare this to her relationship with Nathan, where he always respects her consent and generally lets her take the lead. This disproves the Black Brute stereotype and humanises Nathan.

This show proves over and over again that white women are capable of extreme violence, either in the name of self-defence (as is the case with Annalise) or in the name of sadism and cruelty (as seen with Jessica). Despite the male authorities surrounding her, Analise reclaims her autonomy as someone who refuses to accept a racist system (though still having her own biases) and actively pursues and loves a black boy.

[blanksight]

AAAAA NO ME IMPORTA NADA ME CHUPA LA PIJA YO TE AMO MARCUS EDGE, UN FALSO PADRE ABANDONICO QUE MANTUVO SU HUMANIDAD SOLO POR SU HIJO, QUE PUDO HABERSE LIBRADO DE LOS CAZADORES Y DE UNA VIDA DE SER PERSEGUIDO TRANSFORMADO EN ANIMAL PERO NO LO HIZO POR NATHAN, POR SI NATHAN LO NECESITABA

[blanksight]

estoy leyendo la puta hermosa trilogía de Half Bad y todo el foreshadowing que no está tirando Sally me vuela la cabeza POR QUÉ SALLY LA CONCHA DE LA LORA POR QUÉ yendo para su casa a rajarme el cuello

[blanksight]

Nathan: Gabe kissed me but he is my friend, my best frien he has to know that i can't share his feelings

also Nathan: yes of course I will participate in a ritual with my soul in which our consciousnesses will become intertwined so he can get back his powers as fast as possible, even if this isn't our absolute last option, because that's what friends does right? wow Gabriel your warm breath feels good when you hold me when i'm having a crisis

[blanksight]

AAAAY SE BESAROON, SE DIERON YN PIQUITO AYAYAYAY GABRIEL LO BESASTE MIAMIR AYYYYY AYAYAYAYA LOS AMO AAAAA

[blanksight]

yo cuando Gabriel, Annalise y Nathan en el primer libro y comienzos del segundo libro de Half Bad por culpa de la serie: noo Gabi no te enojes mi amor tranqui- beeso de tres👏 beso de tres👏 beso de tres👏🗣️🗣️